My Heart Shares Your Love
Chapter 21

"I'm not strong anymore, Syifa. I'm taking our son... Sean, I love you, you're the best husband for me.... And Syifa, you're the best sister for me. I love you.... Tell my mom and dad that I love them.... "

"Di... Hang in..." Sean's hand was clutching Diana's hand.

Diana could only shake weakly.

"Sean..please guide me..." Diana's breathing had started to cramp. Syifa who was standing next to Sean was already speechless, only her tears were flowing profusely looking at Diana who was already struggling to breathe.

While holding back his cries Sean tried to say two sentences of shahadah. And Diana tried to follow him even though her breath was already wheezing.

Diana closed her eyes slowly, after she finished saying it.

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Sobs accompanied Diana's funeral. Everything seems so hard hit because of Diana's departure.

"Diana, may you be happy there, son. Now you don't feel pain anymore. Forgive Mami that there has never been time for you, forgive Mami who always leaves you and Kuran pays attention to you..." Mrs. Viona rubbed the gravestone that read Diana Darmawan's name.

"Diana forgives Papi, because all this time Papi paid less attention to you... And Papi is always busy with work, because Papi thinks that's what's best for you. But in fact Papi is wrong, not just money in need of a child, but also attention and affection. But deep down, Papi and Mami love you very much..." Papi Diana's.

"Mba Diana, sorry I was the one who was jealous when I saw Mba Diana was friendly with Mas Sean. And I'm sorry that I didn't even know when Diana's illness came back, and Mba was willing to make such a big sacrifice for the sake of our child. Mba Diana was a good woman, may God put Mba Diana in His heaven..." Syifa.

"Diana, forgive me for not being able to accept your presence and even hurt you with my words. I'm sorry, because as a husband I haven't been able to guide you, and I'm sorry I haven't been able to be a good priest to you. I love you, may Allah forgive all your sins and place you in His heaven..." Sean.

The four of them prayed so fervently, praying the best for Diana.

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"But, Mami we once again apologize for..." Sean has not yet continued his words, Madam. Viona cut it off first.

"Verin, Syifa... We already know everything. And if Mami had been Diana, Mami would have done the same... Because Mami couldn't sacrifice Mami's own son." Mrs. Viona smiled gently even though her face still showed sadness.

I don't know how many times Sean and Syifa apologized for feeling guilty when they didn't know about Diana's disease coming back. And Mr. Frans and his wife never blamed them, because they already knew the reason Diana did all that. Mr. Frans and Mrs. Viona has also confirmed the departure of their only daughter.

"We should now focus on taking care of the little angel Diana left behind." Mr. Frans tried to divert the conversation. The little baby is still undergoing treatment in hospital because of his abnormal weight due to premature birth in the seventh month.

"Do you have a name for him?" Ask Ny. Viona looked at Sean and Syifa in turn.

Sean and Syifa looked at each other, then shook their heads slowly. They did not prepare a name, considering the age of Diana's content of only seven months.

"Can Papi and Mami give him a name?" Ask Ny. Viona again.

"Of course, Mam." Sean and Syifa answered at the same time.

"In that case, we'd like to name him Rayyan."

"Rayyan?" Repeated Sean.

"Yes, Rayyan. Rayyan Firdaus's. Firdaus was taken from your last name Sean Firdaus. How's it?" Ask Ny. Vionas. Sean and Syifa looked at each other then smiled wryly.

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After undergoing treatment for two weeks, baby Rayyan was finally allowed to go home. His weight has become normal. His arrival was welcomed with joy. Syifa and the others were very enthusiastic in taking care of him.

Almost every day Mr. Frans and Mrs. Viona comes to visit Sean's house to meet and play with the little baby. Although the little baby could not do anything, just lie down and cry. It makes the adults so happy.

This morning Syifa was drying Rayyan in her cradle in the morning sun in the backyard. The place used to share stories with Diana while waiting for Sean to come home from work. Baby Rayyan seemed to squirm making Syifa even more anxious.

"Mba Diana, look at our son. Mami and Papi gave her the name, Rayyan Firdaus. We will take care of it and take care of it as best we can. We all hope that Rayyan will be a righteous child, and devoted to parents. Grow up to be a loving and responsible man. So that the struggle and sacrifice of Mba Diana was not in vain to give birth to Rayyan."

Syifa kissed the little baby's forehead.

"Thank you for giving me the opportunity to be a mother. I can feel what it's like to be a mother, what it's like to have a tiny baby crying beside me at night, what it's like to hold her and hold her when she cries. And all because of Diana, thank you..."

"Shyifa..." Sean's call made Syifa look over.

"Yes, it's." Sean approached Syifa, sitting next to Syifa who was holding Rayyan. Then kiss the little baby's cheek.

"Dad's son is very handsome..." Said Sean as he stroked Rayyan's cheeks slowly which began to contain.

"Of course, handsome, because a male Rayyan can't be if Rayyan is beautiful?" Answer Syifa.

"Can't you say Rayyan is as handsome as her father? It's better to hear that." Sean looked pouty, Syifa gave a small laugh looking at her husband who looked sulky.

"But I'm right, aren't I? Rayyan's good-looking because she's a boy?" Syifa repeated her words again making Sean more sulky.

"Yes, it's up to you..." Better he just give up.

"It's so funny." Syifa laughed again.

"Laugh as much as you, Syifa." Sean became anxious to see his wife who kept laughing.

"Yes, yeah, yeah... Rayyan is handsome like her father." Syifa said in the end.

"Why didn't you say that?" Sean pinched Syifa's tiny nose plan. Then kiss her cheeks.

"Mas, don't kiss me. In front of us is Rayyan." Syifa warned.

"Hey, Rayyan's just a little baby. He doesn't know anything." Sean Protest.

"But Rayyan can already see, Mas." Syifa did not want to lose.

"But Rayyan doesn't understand anything yet, Syifa."

Their little debate finally came to a halt as the little baby started crying.