My Heart Shares Your Love
Chapter 9

"Let's just go there." Sean pulled his wife's hand to follow his steps.

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The sound of sobs filled a room, with a position sitting on the floor hugging her own knees Diana spilled out her heartache.

It hurts so much to see the man we love making out with other women, even if it's his own wife.

"Why am I not the one beside you? Why isn't it me you're hugging like that?

I want to try to forget you, but you are always present in my mind. And now I see you making out with your wife... It hurts, it hurts to see all that...

Syifa is just an ordinary girl but can make you fall in love the first time you see her. As for me, I've been by your side for years and yet never managed to get your heart, Sean..." Diana's sobs were breaking, there was no sharing for her. No one cares about his feelings.

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Sean and Syifa are enjoying dinner, and various menus are on the dining table. Very appetizing.

"Syifa, why isn't the food eaten?" Sean asked who had noticed his wife who was just stirring food on her plate. Syifa raised her face, looking at her husband.

"Is the food bad?" Ask Sean again.

"Emm, no. Food's great.." Syifa smiled faintly.

"What's wrong?" Ask Sean gently.

"No, Mas. There's nothing." Syifa put food in her mouth.

"If there is nothing, the food is eaten, not just stirred."

"Yes, Mum."

After dinner the two returned to the room, Syifa sat her body on the side of the bed. Sean went into the bathroom. His eyes looked at the back of the husband who disappeared behind the door.

"I can see the sadness in Mba Diana's eyes. Does Mba Diana have feelings for Mas Sean? And Mas Sean actually also has feelings for Mba Diana? But out of pity to see how I was doing, Sean married me and left her?" Inner Syifa raged. Between trusting Sean or his prejudice.

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Sean pulled out a blanket, covered his innocent body and also his wife after doing exhausting but also enjoyable activities. He grabbed the body of his wife and hugged her.

"What's wrong with you? What are you thinking?" Sean felt something different from his wife.

"May I ask?" Syifa raised her face, looking at her husband's pair of neutrals.

"What do you want to ask?"

Syifa closed her eyes for a moment, before finally asking.

"Does Mba Diana have feelings for you, Mas?" Sean had expected, Syifa would definitely ask this. Remembering the wife changed her attitude after her accidental meeting with Diana this afternoon.

"Yes. Diana said she loved me." Answer Sean. Syifa took a heavy breath, she lowered her face.

"Have I snatched you from Mba Diana?" Ask slowly.

"Captured?" Sean frowned.

"Don't I tell you that I never pity you? Nor have I told you from the beginning of our marriage that Diana was just my friend. No more than that. And I don't have any feelings for her at all?"

"Didn't you trust me?" Reciprocity.

"I... I was just thinking... If it turns out you two love each other, and because of me you're separated."

"Syifa, listen to me. I've been in love with you since I first saw you. And I never loved Diana either, I just thought of her as a friend. Not more. If Diana has feelings for me, that's her right. Can we choose who we fall in love with?"

Syifa shook her head softly at her husband's question.

"Let Diana with her feelings, as time passes she can definitely forget everything and start a new life."

"I'm sorry, I'm just afraid that I..."

"There's no need to think about it anymore." Cut Sean while peeping his wife's forehead.

"Ehm, let's take a shower, Mas." Take Syifa in shame.

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Two years later....

Without feeling the age of marriage Sean and Syifa have stepped on the second year. Events and events have been passed together. The most painful thing was when Mother Yasmin left for both of them forever

Mother Yasmin left six months ago, at that time they just finished performing congregational prayers. Mother Yasmin was suddenly unconscious, and Sean and Syifa who panicked immediately took her to the hospital.

But unfortunately, when he arrived at the hospital the doctor said that Mother Yasmin could not be saved. And at that time it was also only known that Mother Yasmin had a heart attack.

Sean was very sorry, he did not know that his mother had heart disease. Mother Yasmin never told anyone about her illness, including Sean and Syifa.

Losing a parent is the most painful thing for a child. Death and sustenance are the secrets of Allah. Therefore, while there is still an opportunity, while our parents are still there, please them.

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As in previous days, Syifa always drove her husband to work.

"Be careful on the road, Mom. Remember, at home someone is waiting for your return. I have to go home healthy, and nothing less." The same message every morning that Syifa said to her husband.

"Yes, honey. You are also well at home. If there's anything tell me." Sean rubbed Syifa's hair covered in hijab. Fucked his wife's forehead, raised her chin slowly. The kiss moved to the lips.

"I love you, love you so much." Sean said after his second lip came off. He gently rubbed Syifa's lips that still looked wet because of her actions. And as usual, Syifa simply replied to Sean with a smile.

"I'm leaving, assalamualaikum." Pamit Sean's.

"Getishalight." Syifa smiled gently. Every morning the same thing Sean did before going to work.

Syifa went back into her room, sitting on the side of the bed. If Sean has gone to work, he does not deny he feels lonely. Although there are several domestic assistants, but they are always busy with their respective work.

Long ago when Mother Yasmin was still there, Mother Yasmin who became her interlocutor. But now... Syifa is alone. Actually Syifa also often invites household assistants to chat and cook together but unfortunately their time is only short. Because they have other jobs.

Syifa let out a long sigh, rubbing her stomach slowly,

"If only I could get pregnant and give birth, I wouldn't be lonely like this..." Syifa closed her eyes, her tears falling down. She wanted to feel what it was like to be a mother, to be a woman.