My Secret Alora's
Self Love

I want one person to stay with me until I can accept myself..

-@bomy

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The bell rang again, the students were already preparing to go home. So did Lia and her bestie. Lia's hand had landed on Alora's shoulder, an embrace that invited the girl to come home.

On the other hand, Mila deliberately waited in front of her class, because Alora's class at the end so it would definitely pass through there. Mila was still upset that she felt humiliated in the hospital at that time, but on the other hand had a little regret in her heart even though she could not be exposed.

The chatty Lia told a long story while walking and the friend by her side just silently listened. The duo complemented each other, it was also the reason their friendship was eternal.

Andre follows from behind like a bodyguard, if usually Andre goes straight home when Alora is with Lia, but this time he still follows and looks after the girl.

Elsewhere also observed Beni who launched his eagle eye action, the young man continued to watch and was still addicted to eating instant noodles since he tried it.

Mila stopped Alora's steps by standing in front of her.

"Oi! Gua thinks we have to solve our problems" said the tight-clothed girl.

Alora was only silent as well as Lia who put on a confused look at the girl's sentence.

"Loe must clean the name of the cave in front of aunt Jeni! Tau loe cave deliberately ngadu right?" Mila said rudely.

Alora was still silent, as she understood Mila wanted to humiliate her by making an engineering incident in order to make new rumors about Alora's ugliness appear.

Lia who could not stand the justice was about to come forward to defend, had even raised her left leg, but Alora stopped her best friend and made Lia calm.

"Why did you die? It means dong! Loe the complainant! Don't be so good loe!" Mila is still provoking.

Alora smiled cynically then and was still relaxed with the accusation.

After a few minutes Alora was silent, Mila ran out of ideas to curse or accuse the girl.

"Why are you quiet? Attack again! Anything else? Which has not been delivered maybe? Or uneg-uneg loe hidden? Nothing?" Alora's question looked intimidating.

"Sorry yes! The cave is silent but you are hit alone, the cave will accept your apology! So do not worry about living quietly" continued Alora with a calm tone.

Mila looked confused by the girl's answer.

"One more! The cave instead took him from the loe, but he (Andre) chose the cave! Maybe one day something happens, he could just be loe's!" Alora still wants to continue he said even as Andre heard them.

"And one more! The cave does not care about the lives of others, you can do anything you like, as long as you do not bring the name of the cave! The cave life is heavy, the cave does not have time to live loe!" Last words of Alora.

The girl who was the target was inviting his best friend to go directly from there. Mila still looks shocked with Alora's sentence right hit her target. Although it looks fierce, but Mila is a child who has a conscience even though she often does not use it.

Andre was just silent in his place because he knew the girl he made the girlfriend did not like the problem in campuri and he could overcome his own problems.

"Because it's too ordinary on its own, he forgot to worry about himself" Inner Andre with a sad face and then walked away from the place.

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Cold nights with rain make the blanket filled. Likewise Alora who was cold due to the cold temperatures caused by the rain speck. He covered all parts of his body except his face, for he would have trouble breathing from under his thick blanket.

He just fell silent and could not sleep thinking about something with eyelids blinking every minute.

"I why the hell? Why can't you be so strict with yourself?"

"This is one of the reasons I hate myself, all this time I've lived but not so much in my life, I feel useless again and everything is in vain!"

"Actually the little bit of hope I have for life is a small feeling that I can't resist, but I can't accept it completely.."

Overthinking for hours might be normal for him, sometimes the body tired of wanting to rest but the contents of his heart continued to talk as if there were two people in it. The eyelids have been closed because they are not able to support anymore, but even when the bottom of the heart has not found a solution.

Not only is being happy difficult, but sleeping for a depressed person is much more difficult.

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The next morning, Alora is awakened by the clinking sound of birds singing perfecting the sunny day. As soon as he got up from the bed, he headed to the bathroom to wash his face and then brushed his teeth.

He cleaned the house and continued to wash his clothes. Then he prepared lunch for skipping his morning breakfast. Of course the lunch menu consists of rice, boiled eggs and instant noodles that he cooks with a slight modification of the recipe serving advice.

He enjoyed the food and smiled. Alora sighed heavily after everything.

"Fyuh. fortunately the cave is used! The cave doesn't even miss the old man's cave!" The girl picked up a cup of tea and headed to the window to enjoy it while being blown by the breeze.

Before long, he headed to his room to get ready before being picked up by Andre. He only uses makeshift clothes, namely jeans and hoodie wrapped in a dark colored shirt and his hair is decomposed.

What was clear, the weather suddenly turned cloudy. On the other hand Andre has also prepared and prepared his best performance to meet Alora. Finally he set off on his motorbike in the middle of the cloudy sky and the wind started blowing.

Arriving at Alora's house the rain started to fall, the motorbike parked on the porch of the girl's house, and the young man immediately shaded. Alora opened the door when she heard the sound of the motor.

Staring at the new Andre until then made the two somewhat awkward. Finally the two entered and sat by the window while enjoying the rain that fell increasingly heavy. Two cups of warm tea were located on that table.

"It's not the way because it's raining!" Andre said he wanted to melt the atmosphere.

"Yes" Sahut Alora.

"Loe is okay, right? You had a fever yesterday.." Andre was trying to find a topic.

"It's ordinary! Cave fever overnight and then heal yourself, you don't have to worry! Being alone for the cave is nothing!" Alora said, but her mind said otherwise. He is often afraid and anxious when alone, although he is used to it, he can not eliminate the feeling that sometimes appears.

"Where is it, too, if you are sick at least ready for the cure! Don't just wait to heal yourself but take medicine!" Andre's advice then continued he said.

"If we feel ourselves strong! But don't torture yourself either, do it occasionally don't just hold back!"

Alora just kept quiet and continued to stare out the window without even glancing at Andre who was sitting by her side in the slightest.

"As I'm going to do today, I won't hold him back anymore..." Andre stopped his sentence.

"What?" Ask Alora.

"Sorry cave Al!" Said Andre with a clear liquid damming in both of his eyeballs.

The sentence that managed to touch the little heart of Alora until she turned to look at the young man by her side with the same liquid in her eyes.

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tbc