My Selfish Woman
My Selfish Woman (11)

My Selfish Woman

Section 11

February 25th, 2018

Tonight, you really see my heart right now. You understand it too. Even yesterday I didn't see you this big. The moon, the stars, also the city lights are very flickering.

But tonight you will show it perfectly. I don't know what his name is. Be grateful, happy or just a halfway house. My heart is so excited to see Your light, so bright and soft.

I'm like winning the lottery wanting to jump up and down here and show it to someone else. I've never been this excited, I don't know why tonight just appeared so deeply.

I slightly raised my head, thanking You. The path you have been pointing out all this time is so veering, yet I enjoy it. A little straight, turn, straight again, then spiked.

I don't know, I've said many times the winding road I've been on is actually the road that will concentrate my patience. Reminds me of the previous tips, actually the far and winding road is worth the result. And today I feel that.

Every day, I feel like a love shepherd. Treat, understand, then grow. I took care of a part of my soul to stay with me. Enter today, as the beginning of the first paragraph of exactly two years I was with Ay forging love.

Date 25 February 2018. I don't know why every turn of the year I'm always waiting for the special date we put in at the beginning of the meeting. If I approach this date I am like a child who gets a lot of gift cars on birthdays.

A rare taste, a taste that appears without cues, and very fast flowing without any coercion.

I should be grateful, I say to myself, the twilight that accompanies the journey, a little nosy friend, of course my lover Ay.

* * *

Lord, thank you for accompanying this soul tracing

Lord, there are many stories that I write about morning, night, afternoon until morning

Lord, I know I am accompanied by Your power, which is why besides craving for him I also crave You so much

God, there's not much I ask for. Take care of him with me. Until I justify it.

I also know God, I'm with him just a little sinful creature.

Lord, please allow me to continue to embrace her happiness, sadness, even grief.

I don't care how I go about it either. All I know is that I, he, and You are with me both in the dark and in the light.

So let me be my God.

The Earth is looking at the calendar app on her phone. There is a description of "the anniversary of Earth and Ay" on that special date that he made since both anchored. A special alarm went off a few minutes ago. It was the ship that Earth and Ay were riding in the number 2 years.

Maybe for a couple out there, 2 years of short time. However, for this Earth a long time is also a steep road that he managed to travel.

Switching focus, Earth typing words romantic words form a sentence of congratulations on the adoration of the heart. The Earth very much does not expect speech from Ay, because it is impossible for Ay to do. Let the Earth alone, there are people who if forced will be difficult to grip. This is the second time Earth congratulates him on the fruit of his patience to understand all of Ay's attitudes.

"Ay, have you slept yet?" Message sent.

"Dear baby, I know you must remember both of us's anniversaries, but maybe your ego's too high to ever tell me, and I understand that's Ay, hehe."

There's still no reply. Earth continues the word to be sent.

"I don't mind that." Dear emoticons.

"Honey, we've been anchored 2 years.

Thank God, a very long time, right, Ay? I really enjoyed my life with you Ay, I found you 2 years ago and I made you my lover.

Exactly today, February 25, 2018, hopefully Ay does not forget yes. Hidhi. Ay, as I said in the first year of our celebration, I will continue to be with you, accompany you, understand your nature, and embrace you if you fall."

"Not changed my expectations, may I be patient for your nature. Also you Ay, my hope do not break me with you opening the way for others. May the years that follow be your shadow and my baby never cease to be together."

"I know, Ay likes twilight, right? Therefore, I will bring twilight near our house if the time comes." Last message sent.

2 Minutes, 3 minutes, 4 minutes, and not a single message. Also called Ay, there are two possibilities if the communication with Ay is read but not responded to, he knows there is an incoming message but does not want to be opened.

Bumi took the initiative, rather than waiting for a reply from Ay, mendingan cas Hp first. Who knows, later the flow is full there is a reply from the queen cuek. Hope so.

* * *

The wall clock has shown at 01.54 am. Still on the road. No notification from doi. The Earth took a blanket to cover her legs that had been bitten by mosquitoes.

"Fate, fate. It's been a long wait, there's been no reply, in the mosquito bite anyway." Earth Mumbling.

"Try it if not love, where hold me in giniin. It has been branded a selfish woman, he said rudely, still in love. Because my eyes judge his face times yes, or. ahhh you take it. Pokonya he's selfish, period." Inner Earth.

Until the netra relented to wait for Ay's reply, the Earth breathed a long breath slowly and safely played in the dream dream tonight.

* * *

"Na, na, where are you? See my proof of payment?" Ay is still looking.

"What semester is the payment proof?" Answer the joke from the kos terrace.

"New semester 4!" Answer Ay with a tone of emphasis.

"In the bag of times or in the wallet. Slowly search for it." Joke Advice.

"Fix, don't find this. Ouchhh...Joke here dong help."

"Yes, wait." Joke to the room helps Ay find proof of payment.

"For what the hell? Hurry up for the way." Connect again.

"You want a photo sent on my friend Na, she wants to see the details of the payment."

"Owh, what do I think I'm gonna do." Joke slammed his body in the bed.

"That's why, help find dong." Ay pulled the Joke's hand.

"Don't want to panic. So if anything is innate do not be emotional. I can't see anyone freaking out, Ay, drop this fast." Joke pointed towards his heart.

"When you go home from college, the proof is in the photo? If in the photo try to see in the new cellphone send to your friend." Connect Joke.

"Ohh yeah yeah.haha." Ay thrashing. After being remembered yesterday he had a photo of the receipt.

"Not yet to be an important person, have already taken care of the beautiful joke." Joke wagged the hijab right on Ay's face.

"Oh." Ketus Ay's.

"Dihh.. has been helped, even arrogant. Signs of a ruthless boss. Hihh." Joke pokes Ay's nose.

"BTW does not feel yes Ay, now we have entered semester 4. The new feeling yesterday was crying in the harbor leaving the old man in the village."

"Newly aware?" Ay who was struggling with her flat object did not look at Joke as she replied. Maybe Ay again read a message from Earth.

"No, I mean it wasn't felt. This is your two-year entry on Earth. Don't you?"

"Emmm". Mumbled.

That's how Ay is if he no longer needs him. Though the emotion of him, who was screaming calling her joke, even he was again as good as jidat now Joke response. Totally selfish cap women.

"Have you been sent yet?" Ask Joke.

"Oiiiii, has it been sent yet?" Joke slightly raised the voice. Still not answered with Ay.

"Read what the hell lo, kamit that's it." Joke gets closer to Ay.

"Ooohhhh. Tell dong to celebrate 2 years. Make me not keep asking." Joke Ledek.

Ay just rivets rough into Joke.

* * *

Ting...

One entry notification. Earth just woke up at 13:23 this afternoon reflex to pick up his cell phone in the corner of the room. One name appears 'Ay Darling'. Heart's clumsy. Apparently the name of the contact didi leveled up from Ay, now it's 'Ay Darling'. Change is indeed changing on Earth. Her smile widened as she read Ay's message.

"Yes, aamiin." Briefly clear and yahhh.

"Ay, I write at length. Kok Ay answered briefly. I'm sad Ay." The earth scratched the rough of his head.

The answer he had been waiting for from last night was finally answered as well, but so short let alone just a fluent base. To the point how to reply.

"Kan Bumi hoped, that's why I returned aamiin doang." The answer is no burden like that of Ay.

"Rubber, I do hope, but I mean are there hopes from Ay for this hububgan in the future." The debate began.

After ticking the two messages, Earth immediately deactivated the phone and then went back to sleep.

Actually Earth knows, Ay would reply short. Ay for 2 years has never carved a sweet sentence let alone soft even contact the Earth first never.

But, the Earth's conscious mind wants that tenderness, not much the Earth asks for just a one-time or one-word romantic congratulation.

Seriate...