My Selfish Woman
My Selfish Woman (6)

My Selfish Woman

Section 6

POV Earth

Time passes so fast. The twilight that we explore together is still faithfully accompanying. What a woman who can age together. How not his perfect body can hypnotize the adam. Moreover, the striped-nose male must have glanced at him. Although his nose is pug, jutek face, and seems selfish. Jutek face. Didn't discourage me from keeping her as a lover.

One year has been this trip, February 25, 2017. Thousands of words that the Earth has spoken to Ay. There was no sign of betrayal, no rumor of infidelity, no one to change hearts in a period of coexistence as lovers. Quite peaceful.

People say, Ay woman is selfish. Many concluded that Ay just wait for the button just responded quickly. And I knew very well that from the first time I put my heart on him. Earth will be like what if faced with the cold nature of the idol of the heart.

"Ah, what feeling is this raging in the middle of the night." My mind is watching everything that has happened.

"Why did he appear before me with all his tenderness. Did he think, he had already managed to snatch away my heart? Or did it take my whole life."

"People also say she's a tomboy, kind of another woman's hobby."

"Women are ignorant, prestige, and heartless."

One year, that is so. There's nothing wrong with my hearing that people pin on him. Very selfish. He never thought a little about the feelings of others when he said those words. Ay even hit his friend a few times because of his fitnya. It seems like he is acting without thinking long.

Whoever dares to smear him, and he gets that man, he teaches them a lesson.

But why am I so comfortable with him. I care so much about him. I always protected him. Countless times have he asked to end the relationship. The seventh month of dating at that time Ay asked to break up. The reason he does not like men who continue to ask for news, activities every day, even asking small things such as eating, drinking, sleeping, and others. For him it was a personal matter and like a child.

But not for me, not giving it one day, my mind glared far away. I'm a bad prejudiced. And the time he had another guy in his heart so sometimes my chat was just read without reply.

And that was my food for a year with him. I used to go to his boarding house to make sure who he was there with, and in fact he was not with anyone. Alone, focus, and sharpen your eyes in front of your phone screen.

I've often given the understanding that, reduce your selfish and indifferent Ay.

"Ay, can not chat tuh directly reply"

"Well, I'm your boyfriend, your girlfriend." Word Earth.

"Let's change your attitude even if it's just me, you don't have to change it for anyone else. Ay just reply to my chat quickly, it already makes me happy.”

"Especially if Ay who first asked my daily life, I really need it Ay".

This is what I say in the silence of the night. Put together the sentence I want to say tomorrow morning to Ay. But my left brain, quickly denied all that.

"The earth you won't be able to convey that"

"You can't stand to say it. You can't."

"Sey's eye light has taken your mind. The net is so soft"

"She really meant something to you, so much that she just pouted you couldn't afford it"

"Otherwise you'll pass on your frustration to make him go away, I'll make sure you lose him forever"

"Hufff...."

The earth took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

KreKKkkp...

The door sounds open. I changed my sitting position to see who woke up in the middle of the night.

"You're a star." Earth Language.

"Why? How's awake?" Connect again.

"The fan is dead, so it feels like it's hot". The star opens the shirt because of the heat and wipes the sweat that spread all over the body.

"And why don't you sleep?" Ask again.

"So drinking coffee, so widened eyes can't sleep". I answered the origin while raising the volume of the handset I used from earlier.

"Is there a roko?" Star Words.

"There's brow, the rest of this." I showed him a cigarette that had been half eaten by fire.

"Where? Still going on or...

Not yet ended the question from the Stars, I was quick to shift the conversation to another topic. I knew from his eyes that the question was going where. And I don't want to share with anyone the sense that raged from last night that ruled this long night.

I just told all the smallest things even my biggest only to Ay. We both promised that. That whatever happens, do not expose anyone especially to social media. Simply quarrel, lash, and block each other alone.

Actually I put too much hunger on Ay. So whatever Ay did didn't even call me, I've taken it for granted.

"Bucin aka Slave of Love". That's my title I put on myself. Bucin Boy.

Ay, a name that's been able to fill my emptiness all this time. Someone who has shaken my battle fortress, someone I will support, and someone who will always reign in my heart yesterday, today, and who will come even until my hair turns white. Hehe like song lyrics huh.

When sitting with Ay, his phone is always in the hold. But not to reply to chat. He's just looking for the title of the Action movie. Just struggling with his own world. Weird right? Very quaint. I've never seen him speak anyeong, like his other friends. Strangely true this my lover. Wanted me to change positions so he knew it felt like he was being ignored.

Ay once said. Don't call him for a week, and if you can for a month. I shook my head and scolded her so much that my annoyance peaked. And he just blocked my number disconnecting all contact.

It has become a habit of Ay, if there is a problem he does not want to solve it by saying at length, let alone cursing. The ninja path he often uses is to block all communication lines with Earth. The time can not be cut down, depending on the mood, if the mood is not stable means there is no hope. And the way the Earth melts it by crossing its costs.

Come to think of it, Ay also said that. Because we live in one city, one campus even cost me and the cost is only different how many aisles. Almost every day I meet love. Love that makes me lose my mind.

Such as stamps with glue always go side by side, will have strength if juxtaposed, and will have gaps if not glued together. That's what the Earth applies to its relationship.

Huffffffff.... Earth, Earth.

Connect ....