My Selfish Woman
My Selfish Woman (18)
My Selfish Woman
Section 18
POV Ay's
It's the Earth that one alumni is the same as me! I remember they were very naughty when Junior High first. Every morning, the names that picket gurus record are the names of their gangs. In terms of looks, I know you well. But not with personality. One page, one school, and one alumni. And what, he went to college in this town? What semester is it? I think his old college was right. Or is he a force under the Kk Star huh? Hem, why otaku is curious huh. Alright. None of my business.
"Oh, there's a greeting!" A message from the Star. "Say she has a crush on you." Kk Bintang's. He's been familiar with me and joking since we first set foot in this town.
I just read the contents of the message, there was not the slightest intention to reply. Compared to communication with friends on social media, I am more active looking for my favorite shows, especially action films. Even if, parents who call, I rarely answer let alone ask news via sms, until the mailbox is full I will not reply. I don't know what's going on inside me.
Over and over again, I read those two words. It feels ilfeel, amused, also wants to vomit. It's nothing, in silence asked bravely once he tried to tear down my virgin fortress. I've tried my hardest not to intertwine the story with anyone. Even he was as sweet as crushing it. No-no.
In my heart, I said, Are all men the same? Are they always in fashion with women? Is it that easy to express your likes? Or do men play on women's feelings? Experience was valuable knowledge to me, so it changed my view of men.
After taking a nap from Asti's cost, I continued to be terrorized by the stars. He said he conveyed his trust from Earth. That's only. Ay not his name if terrorized feel worried, I even added indifference to anyone who contacted me.
Long story short, one night in February 2016. I have thought of the advice given by Kk Bintang. He said, Earth is not like the men out there. Not a guy who likes to make promises. Not a guy who likes to play women. Especially rough with women.
According to him, the Earth is a characteristic of men who crave kaun hawa. In fact, since breaking up with his girlfriend's spell in 2013 ago, Earth no longer deals with women. Only now, visiting Asti's boarding road to meet you Ay. So, help me not to keep terrorizing you. Help me to receive the Earth. I leaked a little bit of the nature of the Earth, Ay, one thing he did not like, which is a liar. Please Ay himself interprets the word Liar, and that is certainly a lot of double meaning in it. And as you will, I accept that trust with a casual feeling. No
flowery. Flat.
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Ka Bumi back home.
"The number you're going to is off...". Experiment for the next time I call the number of the Earth. On the screen the phone has shown at 19:09 meaning soon the time isya arrived. Since Magrib I contacted him, but there has been no response. Maybe, have not entered the area that there is a signal. Hope so. So many messages that he gave before going to the port. I read it without taking it too deep.
"O Earth, how can she be like him?"
"Bucin, quiet, but ngeselin!"
Joke says I'm the lucky girl who got the chance to get to know you more closely. Jokes also once reminded me, do not waste such a person. Because if one is sick, there is no second chance. Is that true? So far, he hasn't shown me the bad side. Only bucin, bucin, and bucin.
I still remember how I didn't care when he tried to make all his time for me. Full of body to always understand every inch of my attitude. In the beginning we were both officially dating, I had yet to fully put a heart in her niche. In fact, for no logical reason I often break lines of communication, just to enjoy my favorite movie. If it is better, I never once gave an answer if he asked about the disconnection of communication lines. Not because there is something first to give comfort, but about the salt acid of the love world that has gone before. That's how I buried the coals of impatience.
Leaning in the corner of the room, I kept turning back the memories. Chronology Ka Bumi waits for the three days that I give as a promise to receive a mandate. Well, the mandate continues to give burden to the Star as the main bridge intertwined this story. Until the small hallway that night, be a silent witness how the little touch hit my body with her. That night's trail, too, convinced me I didn't really turn away from how wonderful God's creation was.
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Honestly, I'm a woman who doesn't care about her surroundings. Including, my feelings that I never cared for. My race that I never once again. My finger, which is no longer as easy as it used to hold tightly together. Merely, recovering the calm of longing, I did not pay attention to it. That hard downstream my ego.
Some, some say hello then pass. Stop by, give warm and then turn cold. Moving on, as the morning gust dims. End, I do not know for sure the upstream downstream of the series of words of love. It was a story I had once told. But I don't want to go too far.
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After tracing a small part of the journey of romance kk Bumi, I believe he who survived until halal was spoken. Just imagine, he was the first place to spill the dark experience that I had knitted at that time. There's no one I can fuck. Every classic flirtation has successfully opened my secret door. Until I was surprised, he almost rounded his two arms around my waist, in the past, I told him.
I asked, why do you want to hug Earth in the middle of such a crowd? He answered; 'You are the one I deserve to take care of, you are the one I deserve to embrace, your soul is the one who destroyed my carelessness as a man. I said, I don't understand you!. He said slowly; Ay, until I find you this second, only you are the one who serela it tells the dark of your personal life.
According to him, if I was not Ay who people say selfish women all over the body even in my college class, no woman is ready to tell the dark of the mass. He was sure, there was no other reason why he was as ambitious as it was with my mass, only testing the extent to which I believed this relationship until later. Data proves, someone if it has dared to say with such bad presumption in the past with a partner, it is a sign that two humans have believed in each other.
Although, I can't clearly state the details of the incident. That's one of the reasons why you Earth doesn't give up when I judge her. Ka Bumi said, in addition to infidelity all can be controlled. But, do not try to turn away, then it will be a relationship catastrophe.
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I can't relate to him in detail. The point is until LDR Part 2 arrives, the change I experienced was just from not crying so crying, daring to express the word longing, little care about people around us, began to communicate actively on social media, he said, and most importantly start taking advice from my best friend's rancid and gargling jokes.
At 13:00 in the morning, since the shadow of the back disappeared, you Earth has not contacted me until this second. I'm a little worried, though not really anxious. For me, one time I called, the rest he himself tried to call me back.
Because it's still ingrained in my selfishness that ka Bumi started this story so what's wrong with him taking care not to disappear. Yeah, hehe. Only one thing is in me. Next article, just go back to chapter 1. Not fair, is it? Definitely not dong. Yeah, how else, this is Ay not the other Ay. So, just be patient with you on Earth.
Seriate...