My soul mate
CHAPTER 123

Day by day passed.

Month to month exceeded.

Year after year, too, changed.

My relationship with Mandala is still the same.

In the fifth year of our marriage, Mandala remained the same as in the beginning of the marriage.

Keep holding my hand as we walk.

Still saying "I miss you" every time I go on duty to a disaster area.

Always write "LOVE YOU" at the end of our chat.

What changed was..

Melky and Tiara already have two daughters.

The condition of Ama's body is no longer possible to go far from bed.

My best friend Ayu already has two sons and a daughter.

My best friend Ari is married and has one son.

Sarah has left us all behind after her husband and son.

And the fact of these five years that has not changed at all is that I have not given Mandala any offspring.

I started to get nervous, even though Mandala still didn't bother about it, but I remained uneasy.

I am no longer young if I remain silent.

"Yes.." I called Mandala who was fixing bikes on the dorm terrace.

"hmmm jerk off, still fix the bike. Sunday morning to Gowes".

Now the Mandala follows the bike club and is active cycling once a week.

"Where? can you come with me?"

"It's down to the hill baby, you'll be tired. The terrain is rather difficult this".

"Kalo Medan difficult, yes to Padang aja".

"Hmmmmm.laughs I'll put it off tonight"

"Capteeeenennnn"

Finally Mandala laughed not because of my jokes, but because I snagged and entered the house by stomping my feet.

Towards the new Maghrib Mandala enters the house.

I still put on an anti-talking face.

Mandala headed for the bathroom as she passed me and scrambled my hair.

Even at dinner I still do silent action on Mandala, although Mandala always tries to disturb me.

"Darling... still angry?"

Mandala hugged me who was sitting watching television.

I'm still with silent action.

"What did you want to talk about? say now".

"Captain, I'm looking for a surrogate mother".

I said quietly, afraid that Mandala was angry.

"Mother substitute??"

"You already know what Dr. Yasmine said right? My womb is weak, my uterus cannot carry a child. I'm gonna find a woman who's willing to carry a child for us".

"How did that woman conceive my son?"

"doctor Yasmine said you could get it through an injection, or you want a normal way?"

"Normal Ways? I don't get it". Mandala looked at. His eyes look angry. I was a little scared to look into his eyes.

"By having a husband and wife relationship." I said in a soft voice.

"You're telling me to fornicate?"

"You can marry her. I can give you permission".

"Then what happens next?"

"We're going to have a child. Your own biological child".

"Sure that he'll give you his son? convinced that he will let me go, while he has a son who can tie me up with him. Are you sure there are women like that?"

I fell silent, lowering my face.

"I'm not young anymore, I can't keep quiet. What if I can't give you a child forever?"

"We'll live together".

"Capteeennn.."

"Enough.I'm not a Captain anymore, my rank has gone up. I don't want to hear anything silly like this from you anymore. There is no mother, woman or substitute wife whatsoever. Youunderstand?"

That's what Mandala would do if I started offending her child.

Captain, I know this isn't easy for us.

But Captain, I saw everything.

How Mama when she came yesterday happily carrying her son Melky.

And I heard the words Mama said to you back then.

"Dala, Mama knows you love your wife. My mom loves him too. But Dala, you're the only boy in our family. Your uncle has no children. You are our successor. If you don't have children, what's next for all this effort".

I held tightly to the end of my shirt. Holding back crying when hearing Mama and Mandala's conversation.

"Mama, Brother Dali's son can also be a successor, Mama don't have to worry. The sustenance is there that governs, including the sustenance of children".

"Why don't you want to get married again? you can get married in Turkey. We can hide it from Ega".

"No, Mama was wrong. Dala could get married anywhere if Dala wanted to. But Dala did not want to get married. Dala's wife is Ega, until fate separates us. Dala won't betray Ega".

"How can fate make you part?".

"Means Dala and Ega's soul mate is over. But not by betrayal".

"Dala, why do you love Ega so much?"

"Because Ega's Dala Mom's wife. Dala promises to marry her, take care of her, and Dala also loves her more than Dala loves herself. Dala can't hurt Ega, because it's the same as hurting Dala herself".

Mama hugged Mandala.

"Mama will pray that Allah will quickly give you children. Your love is incomplete without children. Forgive Mama Dala".

Mandala smile.

"Mama is wrong again, our love is complete even without children".

All those conversations just kept haunting my mind.

Now the Mandala can still survive, but not with a year or two ahead. Mandala will definitely return to get pressure from her family.

In this one year I continued to consult with Yasmine's doctor. Obstetrician.

Doctor Yasmine has handled many couples who do not have children. There have been many couples who have successfully performed tube baby surgery on Yasmine's doctor.

Why don't I have a baby tube operation, too? Me and Mandala have no problem in terms of referring them***** to the egg. The problem is my uterus or weak womb, My womb cannot hold a baby in it. If I get pregnant, I will easily miscarry.

This is what Dr. Yasmine will continue to learn.

After my conversation tonight with Mandala. I kept thinking until I fell asleep in my mind.

I don't know what time Mandala came home, I just felt like someone was hugging me and then the sound of calm breathing.

That's the Mandala, no matter how angry she is with me, but still hugging me while sleeping. And forget everything the next morning, just like this morning.

"Honey, I've bought rice pecel in front of the dormitory, quickly put on a shirt and breakfast".

That's the view I saw when I came out of the bathroom. Mandala arranged the dishes for us to have breakfast, calling out to me with her smile.

I sat at the dinner table opposite Mandala.

"No tantric?".

I try to be as normal as possible.

"Lumayan, but who would dare to line up if I had come. The soldiers got out of the way immediately".

"Compense, use his rank".

Mandala laughs.

"That is in the military, high rank will always be disinclined. I left early today".

"Any activities?"

"Preparation ceremony, we have to practice".

"Every year, still have to practice as well?"

"This year there's been a difference in formation, there's a couple of young aviators coming in".

"So you realize you're an old aviator?"

"No, junior aviator".

I laughed at the Mandala I didn't accept to call old.

That was Mandala, easily forgetting all the chatter that angered her last night, and coming back to joke with me.

Mandala is right, our love is complete even without children.

But I'm not perfect without Kapteeennn's son....

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