Not A Perfect Marriage
CHAPTER 39 The voice of the heart

"... Ack. aww"

Angel felt his stomach hurt. Arfan panicked and told Angel to sit down.

"sick"

"Fa. Angel why?"

Arfan turned to look that there was already Rio and Sena. Arfan was confused as to what to answer.

"My stomach is cramped. Go home" Angel Pinta.

"Yes let's go home"

Sena took Angel away. Rio approached Arfan with a look of annoyance.

"What are you about Angel?"

"I didn't do anything but seeing you like this makes me suspicious"

"Suspected what else?"

"Angel sipa actually?"

"It's none of your business"

Rio immediately left Arfan. The suspicion of Arfan was becoming more and more pronounced.

"You think I'm that easy to believe"

Arfan was determined to dismantle all the games they had played. Arfan was very confident Rio knew all this.

...

Rio /Sena's room. 19:30

"If Arfan suspects what?"

"Yes great. Let's get this all out"

Sena stared intently at Rio. Sena feels Rio has loved Angel and she knows Rio wants to divorce her but not because he has threatened Angel.

"Oh so you're the one who told Arfan Kemall that, let him know I'm just pregnant with a lie?"

"I didn't ask Arfan. Let's just say it's your bad day!"

"Ck! Rio you actually chose who I AM WHAT ANGEL SI JAL*NG IT IS!"

Sena shouted at Rio. Rio who had been holding back his emotions was now provoked by his emotions Rio slapped Sena until Sena fell on the floor. Sena held onto her hot cheek.

"I chose Angel who obviously loves me not because of my money! I want a divorce with you but you don't want to. You even threatened Angel and performed in front of everyone. I'm honestly sick of seeing you"

Sena got up and left without saying anything. Rio clucked in annoyance because of his late end this light hand and easy emotion. The pressure of work and this problem weighed him down.

Sena went down the stairs slowly in the middle of the stairs Sena sat on the stairs. He pulled out his phone and called someone.

"What's the matter, baby?"

"Ma, Rio wants to divorce me"

"What's? you don't want to. Until whenever mama doesn't want you to divorce Rio!"

The voice over there sounded angry. Sena bit her lower lip.

"Look good, you don't want our family's good name to be tarnished just because of your divorce and this will also have a bad impact on your career! DON'T BE STUPID!"

"Ma... Rio doesn't love me anymore, why do I keep all of this?"

"Love? care what is the most important love right now you have to refuse a divorce with Rio anyway you are pregnant or you just pretend?"

"Iya Sena is just a temple. Mama knows all that I do for my mom. Mama who always presses me, mama who always wants to be praised!"

"It's up to you to say what but the obvious. Mama doesn't want you to get a divorce, does your husband have everything"

"Yes"

"Have complied"

"Sena has complied with all the wishes of mama that Sena killed Sena's own fetus. Still not satisfied mama set my life?"

"You should thank me if mom didn't tell you to do that you wouldn't be like this!"

"But it doesn't make me pregnant anymore!"

"Don't be brought up again or your husband will hear it!"

"It's all Mama's fault!"

Sena immediately turned off her phone connection. Sena cried without a sound.

Sena Pov's

Now I'm hated not now but all this time I've been hated. My nature, my behavior and everything. Even doing good will not change anything. All this time they said I was just selfish, I had no feelings but they didn't know I was depressed.

Depressed because of the desire of my mother who always wanted me to be number one in everything. She always managed my life even when I was four knew she sent me to modeling when I wanted to play with friends my age.

A lot of things make me dislike but I can't refuse them. Mama wants me to always obey her wishes including aborting my fetus. If I could just go back the time I would have rejected it. I don't want to go on like this, pretending to be tough with my arrogance and this charade.

"I'm tired!"

If Rio knew about this he would be angry but it's not my fault it's my mother who told me to. I am so stupid.

Pov end

...

Angel who is bored in the room chose the back of the room to just admire the stars in the sky.

Angel pov

The stars in the sky are so beautiful that I miss my family. I'm stupid to still be here but what my day. I'm just a poor, stupid, inexperienced woman of any kind who doesn't understand this cruel life. I've only lived 20 years and that's with my family who love me. Right now I'm alone in this house. I don't know any of them if I make a fuss they could just kick me out of this house.

Expel me to pregnancy. They can certainly find my replacement easily with their money but what about me? I definitely can't hold on for a day. Like Rio kicked me out. In the middle of a dark and cold night I was alone along the asphalt accompanied by rain no one helped me not even a single person passing by nor a vehicle.

The pain in my stomach was still clear and I still remember how scared I was. I didn't know how to get home to my parents even though I knew it would take a long time to walk home and that was if they accepted my pregnancy without husband. I can't imagine it. They must have been very disappointed in me.

I only have the life I have. My heart has been broken so many times that I can't feel anything. I'm like a living undead at the behest of my owner. I can't refuse what they want.

Surely out there will beat me stupid, weak or whatever because I just obey like anj*ng can't fight. Who am I? I'm not sipa sipa here. My marriage is only written on paper where maybe I ask for my right even I do not have the right to admit my son in my mouth is my son.

I know I'm stupid even more than that. What should I do? going from here down the paved road just carrying this body with my fetus is like committing suicide. Out there must be someone more cruel than the two of them, a couple who have no heart but they always help me even though Sena threatens me continuously and Rio always lies to me but they help my family.

They paid for my father's surgery until now my father's heart is still beating, paid my father's debt is driven otherwise I would have been a night woman who was forced to serve lonely men and renovate my mother's stall. They've helped me a lot but I haven't been able to return the favor for what they gave me, to my family. If I don't meet them, I don't know what's going to happen to my family in this big city.

We don't have any brothers here all in the village if they don't help us maybe we've been hanging out on the street just two, me and my mom.

I am very sad like this but I am grateful that they treat me well if they want to be sure I am told to work and I will not sleep well here.

This pain I feel is the fruit of my stupidity. I know from the awah of this marriage only the AGREEMENT ON PAPER will be completed if I give birth to a child but I instead naively expect more from the husband of people. Which wife wants to be combined and share a husband with other women must feel very sick that Sena also feels at this time. Although he looks strong and looks tough but it's just in front of him. I once saw Sena crying while looking at the moon in the middle of the night. Although it feels strange but I can make sure it's the truth that is not made or just a lie. Sena's hurt with all this.

Ever since I met Amanda's aunt, I've come to know why Sena did all this. Sena wants her mother-in-law to be happy despite having to hurt herself very consciously she told her husband to remarry and stay away from her just to make her husband not awkward and not feel watched.

If I were Sena, I wouldn't be that sea. Rio once said that Sena is only targeting his property and money because Sena always scatters the money and continues to ask for money but it is solely to entertain himself.

Sena must be very confused to have to vent his heart to whom. Everyone has tasted it bad that if he cries in front of everyone they must consider it just a charade and a fake.

Sena is indeed rude and full of theatrics of falsehood, clever to lie and reverse the facts because it is also very easy to lie and deceive himself neatly without any gaps. A smile tilted snobbery that he always umar covered his fragile self but not everyone can see clearly the fragility of it.

"El. You haven't slept?"

My daydreams are gone when Sena arrives and what is this? I saw Sena's flushed cheeks and her puffy eyes.

"Not sleepy"

"Yes, but not here. It's cold out here"

"Later I moved. You haven't slept either"

Sena sat next to me. He looked up at the sky, his smile cracking itself.

"I like stars" Sena said.

I looked in the direction Sena saw. I don't feel good in the middle of Rio and Sena.

"You know El, everybody hates me"

I looked towards Sena. His gaze was empty but his smile was still on his lips.

"That's probably just your feeling, I've been"

Sena shook her head slowly and then looked at me. Sena's gaze was like full of a piercing void.

"You have a family that loves you, El. While me? since childhood my parents always wanted me to be number one whether it was a lesson or whatever it was. Everything has to be what they want"

Turning her face away again I saw her shoulders tremble and the sound of the sobbing. I'm sure this isn't a lie or a charade.

"Sena is not"

"You'd better sleep"

Sena immediately left me. Did I make her cry then that red cheek did Rio do it?"

I'd better go to my room before my dirahim's son gets in the wind.

pov end's.

...

23:00 Sena room/Rio

Sena took out all the contents of her bag. Sena was looking for something very important for her.

"Where the hell?"

Sena looked very panicked and anxious. Sena opened all her dresser drawers but did not find what she was looking for.

Hearing Rio's rowdy voice opened his eyelids and immediately found Sena who was panicked.

"Where's my medicine?" lirih Sena while remembering where the medicine was placed.

"Is it over and how am I sleeping?"

Sena went straight out of the room. He wants to head to the kitchen to see the medicine in P3K hoping for a cure.

Rio got off the bed following Sena from behind. Rio only saw what Sena did then went back to the room again.

After swallowing the three sleeping pills Sena returned to her room. Sena has a disease that makes her unable to sleep and anxiety but all that is hidden from Rio or his family pum. During this time Sena fought alone to cure this disease.

Sena laid her body beside Rio who closed her eyes. The sleeping medicine that Sena was drinking started to react now both eyes started to close and at that moment Rio opened his eyes and turned towards Sena who was already asleep.

Rio got off his bed towards the kitchen. Rio wanted to know what Sena was drinking.

Arriving in the kitchen, Rio immediately looked for the medicine wrapper that Sena drank and fortunately, the plastic waste has been replaced so Rio easily looked for it.

"Is this oba sleeping?"

Rio was surprised to see the sleeping medicine pack he had just taken from the trash.

"So all this time Sena drank this?"

Now Rio knew why Sena could sleep so soundly because Sena was taking sleeping pills for up to three at a time.

...

03:00

Rio felt the side next to him. Rio did not feel Sena's presence. Rio opened his eyes immediately found Sena's place empty.

Rio's looking at Sena's dresser. Rio looked at Sena who was sitting looking at the mirror with a suspicious gurgle. From the reflection of the mirror Rio could see Sena who was biting her fingernails with a look of fear.

"Darling?"

Rio approached Sena who looked agitated. Sena continued to bite the fingernails of her right hand without responding to Rio.

"Why are you?"

Rio instantly grabbed Sena's right wrist so that Sena would not bite her nails.

"Why you?"

Sena still didn't respond that she was getting scared. Sena's eyes were not straight ahead Sena continued to look sideways.

Rio invited Sena back to sleep. Sena still looks scared. Rio did not know what was happening with Sena now but clearly he had to calm Sena down.

"Darling, I'm here you don't have to be afraid"

...

07:00

Rio stared at the astonished Sena who was back to normal as usual. Sena is preparing to leave.

"What's wrong with you all night?"

"I was just a nightmare. I'm leaving maybe late afternoon I just got home"

"Yes"

Sena went straight out of the room. Rio felt astonished because Sena woke up from her sleep on him swallowing three sleeping pills.

"What is she hiding?"

....

Sena got off the taxi to a place that sold the medicine she used to drink. Sena headed to the poly psyche clinic and talked to the doctor who had been treating her.

Sena swallowed and then headed for the roar of the dokrer that Sena used to visit.

Since there was no line Sena was directly directed to enter. Sena entered the room that felt very comfortable and calm.

"The medicine is over?"

"Yes"

"Sit"

Sena sits in a chair that has back and leg support. The female doctor walked to the corner of the room to turn on the music player which made the atmosphere calm.

"Dok, why can't I recover when I take medicine regularly" complained Sena who felt herself getting sick in a different sense.

"You are calm do not panic if until the panic can add to the symptoms that appear"

"Do you think I'm crazy?"

"It's not just that there are excessive anxiety gangguns like you have bipolar disorder"

"Bipolar?"

"Have you ever experienced anything that made you feel anxious or something?"

"I"

"Tell me everything that makes you anxious. I'll keep everything a secret even if you don't want to talk to your family"

Sena was silent for quite a while and this lady doctor faithfully waited for Sena to tell her story. This doctor knows exactly what Sena is going through.

"I made a mistake that I regret to this day"

"What mistake made you like this?"

Sena's tears began to wet her cheeks as she repeated that dark wedge again. The time when he did the stupid thing that made him like this.

"The stupidest mistake of my life, I killed my own fetus"

"Try to tell me more clearly"

"After two months of marriage I was trusted by God to take care of the little angel but at that time also my career went up and my mother as a manager she accepted all the offers of the job even though she knew I was pregnant"

"Then?"

"I refused once in a while but he kept forcing me. He assured me that the opportunity was a golden opportunity for my future. He told me to abort my womb. At that time I still believed my mother's decision, she also said that I could get pregnant again but it has been five years I have not been pregnant. I'm afraid of losing my husband"

"So now you're afraid of losing your husband?"

"Yes. She's always supported me but right now she wants a divorce with me"

"Why didn't you tell them this?"

"Can they accept this? I just can't accept my situation what else are they? they're gonna send me to a mental hospital"

This female doctor sighed. He can only give drugs and advice is actually all will not work if the environment around him does not support him, especially Sena does not want her family to know this all.

"Don't think like that. You haven't tried it yet they'll support you"

"supporting? they'll stay away from me and they'll think I'm a disgrace. No one accepts me under these conditions. I hate them because I can't control my emotions and anxieties they don't understand"

"You'd better rest here while waiting for me to prepare the medicine"

"All right"

Sena closed her eyes. His feeling is a little calm now. Regrets always come at the end, Sena just wants to be devoted to her mother. She believed fully in the woman who gave birth to her but she had to swallow the bitter pill that the woman who gave birth to her only wanted fame and pride in her social environment.

..

14:00

Arfan was upset because of the traffic jammed and hot weather.

"If you knew it would be stuck I wouldn't be out of the house"

Arfan pulled down the window of his car and he immediately saw someone he knew sitting in the bus seat.

"Damn?"

Arfan could see clearly Sena who was sitting alone and her stomach was flat.

"What is this really about?"

Arfan kept an eye on Sena. Before this golden opportunity was lost Arfan immediately photographed Sena for evidence to Rio but that second Arfan saw a black car stop in front of the bus stop. Arfan was stunned as Rio and Angel got out of the car. They approached Sena and they were seen chatting normally meaning Rio knew this all.

"Sister, you're really outrageous!"

Arfan was very disappointed with Rio who came to lie and play like Sena. Arfan wanted not to believe what he saw but what this power of reality he had to accept.

"Sister, I can't believe you can do something like this when you're someone I admire. Yesterday I wanted to be like you but now I don't want to be anymore, I don't want to be a liar like you!"

Sura telakson the car behind him resuscitate him. Arfan immediately drove his car away while thinking how to find out all the truth.

"So the three of them are in cahoots. El, I really don't think you're involved in any of this... eh but? it's so confusing, Sena's not pregnant and that's Angel's pregnant, what's Angel's surrogate uterus?"

Arfan stopped again the events that had passed. Arfan nodded again as Rio's nature and Rio's appearance changed. His relaxed nature and healthier physique than before were also yesterday when Angel came to Rio's office.

"How long has Angel been in my sister's life?"

Arfan suspects Angel has been living with Rio and Sena for a long time. Arfan decided to find out the background of Angel's belakan but it would not be that easy especially he believes that Angel is not the nephew of bi Inda.

"Where should I start? Lord, please show me the way for me"

Arfan recalled the time when Rio treated the subordinates with rice anduk bu Jihan. As far as Arfan from the past Rio did not eat on the side of the road and that raises suspicion in Arfan's heart.

"I'd better be there, who knows, who's gonna get a lead there"

Arfan's car is headed for Jihan's rice shop.

...

Rio Car

Angel was sitting next to Rio while Sena was sitting in the back seat. Angel turned towards Sena who was without daydreaming while looking out the car window.

"Why then?" ask Angel to Rio. Rio himself did not know what had happened to Sena.

"I don't know"

"Oh, but you should know this"

"What?"

"Your son is asking for food and I want my mother's cooking"

"Yes, I'll buy it"

Hearing Angel and Rio's warm words Sena did not feel any of this effect from the medicine she had taken and the doctor advised her to return to the clinic in two days.

...

Warung Nasi bu Jihan

Arfan went straight into a stall that was very different from the previous. This place looks very modern and classy.

"Mom, is the rice sitting completely?"

"La. Just sit down first I will deliver" said Jihan kindly as usual. Arfan realized something very important that the face of the owner of this stall is similar to Angel. Arfan thinks that this woman in front of him is Angel's mother.

"Yes. umm buk here there's a toilet?"

"Oh from here straight and then turn left"

"Thank you buk"

Arfan rushed inside. He did not want to ketoilet just an excuse to get inside. Arfan wants to find out the truth about Angel.

Luck is on Arfan's side. Near the kitchen Arfan saw two picture frames that took him by surprise. One photo has Angel's photo and another one has Rio's photo with Jihan and the other may be taken when finished renovating the stall.

Arfan immediately photographed both picture frames in front of him.

"What is Angel's mistress Rio's sister?"

..

Arfan was eating his food while looking at the highway from inside the stall. A car enters the parking lot and Arfan knows whose car it belongs to.

Arfan immediately put on his hat then lowered his head as Rio got out of the car walking into the stall.

"Eh Mr. Rio, good afternoon"

"Sore ma'am, the usual message yeah"

"Yes, Angel's not coming?"

Arfan eavesdropped on Rio and Jihan's conversation. Arfan Semburim sure that the owner of this shop his mother Angel lives himself to ensure the Jihan directly.

"No"

"Well, I would love to meet him. Is he skinny?" jihan asked doubtfully.

"Mom, I'll calm down. The daughter of a healthy mother and her cheeks added chubby"

"Oh yeah? thank goodness I was calm"

Arfan clenched both his hands. He no longer wanted to call Rio with the name of brother. She felt ashamed to have an older brother like Rio who pandari play.

Hearing their conversation, Arfan can conclude that this woman does not know her daughter is pregnant.

"Ck, I will dismantle everything and I will not give up" said Arfan who was determined. Arfan wants to give justice to Angel and her mother because Arfan can guess what has happened but needs more evidence. Arfan suspects that Angel was used as a surrogate uterus by Rio and Sena.

After Rio left, Arfan immediately approached Jihan to start a light conversation but did not raise suspicion from Jihan.

"Emm ma'am, the sale's been a long time?"

"It's only been five years"

"Oh, the place is comfortable well keep the mural is good must be expensive?"

"If that's what I don't know, this is helped"

"Who's help? what was that guy?"

"She has helped me and my family a lot"

"It should have sounded friendly, oh yes ma'am I saw a photo of a beautiful girl in front of the kitchen and sorry it was not polite to see without asking permission first"

"It's okay. That's my only child whose name is Angel"

"Is he married?"

"Not yet, he's working at the man's house"

"...."

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