Not A Perfect Marriage
CHAPTER 43 Dilemma

Sifa Deren Room

"... Rio's supporting Sena?" deren asked in disbelief.

"Yes, and Sena doesn't know I'm just a surrogate mother. The one thing you have to remember in your life is that Sena is like you, selfish. Have a million ways to deceive someone, just assume Sena is bearing your karma"

Deren clenched both of his hands. Sifa did not care about Deren, she refocused herself on the picture frame in her hand.

"What are you doing, miss mama"

Sifa stroked the photo of her dead son. Deren's fist faded as he stopped the mistake he had made. Daybreak Deren felt that this was his fault.

"You should sleep at night" told Sifa without looking at Deren.

..

The next day Deren met Rio who was talking to Sifa while Sena was still sleeping.

"Ma, can you go first? I want to talk to Rio"

"All right"

Sifa left immediately. Seeing Deren like this made Rio feel afraid, could it be that Sena had told Deren something false.

"Why Pa?"

"You know Sena's just pretending to be pregnant?"

"L.iya"

"Why do you support him?"

"Rio just wants Sena to be happy that's all"

"You sure that's all?"

"Yes Pa. I accept everything that might happen"

"You sure? how much do you love your wife that you let her lie to herself?"

"That?"

"You are the husband of my daughter you should have led her down the right path. Do not because of love you let everything be up to Sena if you do not agree you say do not just say yes without thinking the worst thing in his life as it is now. Already this charade because the blame is on my daughter, your family must be defending you while my daughter will be sad for her life. Do you understand what I mean?"

"But Sena will be angry, I don't want that"

"Ri, you ask yourself "what are you happy about this marriage" you know Sena loves you so much that she always does whatever it takes to keep you interested in her. Sena is wrong in conveying her love to you, Sena is always angry, suspicious and always sues you. Papa please remove Sena's vices because it was raised by Papa who was wrong. I beg you"

Rio did not believe that a hard-nosed Deren admitted his mistake and even begged to change his daughter.

"Ri, please make Sena a better person now. Don't let him continue like this if you still love him"

"Why did papa say that? surely Rio will try to change the nature of Sena"

"Ri, I'm also a man like you. I sometimes feel bored and compare my own wife with others but do not let it slip from the norm it can make a peaceful life destroyed in a second and regret for a lifetime. Let's take this well, "out there a lot better but no one understands ourselves better than the woman who accompanies from ground zero" you have to understand that before you decide to turn away"

Hearing Deren's words, Rio suspected Deren of knowing what was happening in his household.

"Pa"

"Sena is always selfish and many shortcomings may be that make you feel tired of dealing with it but it is he who accompanied you to this point. Do you remember your promise to me? that's why I let Sena get married at a very young age"

"Rio remembers all of that"

"Goodoo. One more thing help you as much as possible keep Sena away from her mother"

"Loh, why?"

"You don't need to know, just do it and Sena will be better than now!"

Finished saying Deren immediately left leaving Rio who was feeling confused.

"Is it possible because Sena's nature is similar to her mother's? this makes me pomegranate, who should I choose? Sena or Angel?"

Rio heaved a heavy sigh, everything Deren had called out was indeed a lot of truth. From the beginning he wanted to get married again just to make Sena happy but time made this temporary marriage more real and it made Sena angry.

"My head feels like it's about to break"

...

Amanda Riko's House

06:00

Angel was watering the plants in the side yard. Today Angel woke up early because he felt restless when away from him made his sleep not soundly.

"Let's drink"

A sweet smile expands on Angel's lips. From a distance Arfan watched Angel. Arfan was astonished because the collision once Angel was awake.

Slowly Arfan approached Angel to surprise her.

Angel did not feel the presence of Arfan until he saw a shadow near his feet and Angel filing said that it was Arfan.

Angel immediately turned the body making the hose lead to the person who was behind it.

"ANGELL!!!" Arfan shouted as the flowing water splashed down on him.

"Eeehh?"

Angel hurriedly directed her hose to the side. Arfan wiped his face with his palm.

"You're intentionally well!" accuse Arfan. Angel innocently shook her head.

"Don't lie!"

"Who told you behind me! besides, you have not taken a shower, you have nothing to do with water, all bathing" said Angel origin and then showed two fingers in the form of the letter V.

"Originally aka lips, I am a parrot!" grunts Arfan.

"Maybe"

"It's up to you, uh the tumben is awake"

"Wake up the morning wrong, wake up the afternoon wrong. Really rebekah your life"

"Where the hell is it?" ask Arfan wonder. Arfan immediately snatched the hose in Angel's hand. Angel prepares to move away fearing Arfan will do the same.

"So, who would want to nyiaram you" said Arfan Cuek directly watering the plant. Angel woke up his lips, he was very upset with Arfan who in the morning had made his mood bad.

Arfan glanced at the dreamy Angel. Arfan's ignorant smile appeared on his lips and Arfan directed the hose towards Angel.

"ARFAAANNNN" cried Angel with anxiety. Arfan who was satisfied to prank Angel immediately fled just like that leaving Angel and a hose whose water is still flowing.

"Great nyebelin!"

Angel stroked her stomach but made her remember Rio. Angel sighed, a sense of tightness in his chest began to appear.

"When are you all this?"

...

House Sifa Deren/room Sena

Sena slowly opened her eyelids. Sena saw her reflection reflected in the wardrobe.

"R"

Sena called Rio but there was no response. Sena thought Rio was gone.

Sena looks anxious, she got out of bed looking for Rio in this room.

"Rio.. Rio"

Sena is very anxious and frightened, her bipolar is now slowly starting to reappear.

Sena bit her fingernails while sitting on the edge of the bed. The sound of the door opening made Sena wish it was Rio.

"Rio" Sena called Rio but it turned out to be Deren.

"Papa?" Sena looked disappointed. Deren closed the door and walked over to his daughter.

"You're looking at Rio?"

"Yes"

"Rio downstairs, having breakfast"

Hearing that Sena was feeling pleased, she hurriedly headed for the door.

"Don't go, papa wants to talk to you if you want Rio to continue so your husband listen to Papa first"

Sena who wanted to hold the doorknob interrupted his intention. He looked at Deren who was sitting on the bed while patting the side of him as if telling Sena to sit.

"What do you want to say?"

"Here sit"

Sena nodded then walked over to Deren. Deren straightened his daughter's hair.

"Pa?"

"Papa loves you more than yourself"

"Why would you say that?"

Sena immediately got up, Sena considered Deren's speech was just a lie because of the influence of Sifa. Deren immediately grabbed Sena's wrist, forbidding her from leaving.

"Papa knows you don't believe in Papa but Papa knows what you have to do to continue to have Rio without having to threaten him"

Sena was silent, she was afraid Deren would scold her because Deren knew Rio came to this house because of the threat from her. Deren himself did not know anything about the Sena and Rio household just that he knew Sifa that surrogate mother would teach him the same thing as what Sifa always did to her and that meant Sena also most likely did the same.

"Papa don't interfere in Sena's domestic affairs"

"Papa does not want to but Papa must straighten your attitude. Listen to Papa carefully, your nature can make Rio turn away from you"

Sena tries to remove Deren's grip but Deren doesn't allow it. Sena did not want to hear Deren's words because she trusted Sifa more.

"Listen to a little what Papa will talk about if you don't want to part with Rio"

With a little understanding, Sena finally complies. Deren sighed, regretting not doing this long ago.

"You with Rio have been married for more than five years and your nature is still the same before you get married. Papa knows Rio loves you very much and always supports you, he always understands you but there are times when Rio feels bored and tired of facing you. When you fight almost no one wants to budge and if there is definitely Rio"

"Papa Belain Rio compared to this daughter of yours"

"Listen carefully with a cool head! quick tempers of emotions because a momentary emotion can destroy everything"

"All right"

"Rio never demands you more but you always demand more and Rio always tries his best for you but you don't seem to bother him. Consciously or unconsciously you started to take off Rio, your indifference can make Rio turn away from you. Papa spoke to Rio"

"Continue?"

"The point is that he loves you so much, Papa doesn't know he's real or just words"

"Then, how should I go?"

"Try to understand her, Rio is a simple person. Rio is used to doing all things by himself, your task is just to make Rio smile and make Rio feel that he is considered a husband by you"

"How?"

"You've been dating Rio, so Sena was. Your little attention is enough"

"Really, but is that enough? I threatened Rio that's all that works"

"You're wrong baby, it's sickening Rio instead. You should try telling me what you feel keRio is. Explain to him that you love him so much that Rio will understand you"

"Yes Pa, thank you"

"Cena"

"Yes"

"Papa beg you, lest your mother meet your mother-in-law again. Your mother used to make things worse, well until you were absolutely sure Rio wouldn't turn to you"

"All right"

"You're samperin Rio gih"

"Yes"

cup

Sena kissed Deren's cheek and left. Deren felt relieved to have expressed everything to Sena without making himself suspicious and Sena's mood was good because it all went well.

"Sifa! what did you teach my daughter?"

Deren still remembers when Sifa's hand held Sena as a baby, feeling Sifa's affection for Sena. Sifa always pampered Sena and loved her so much that Deren did not keep an eye on Sifa for trusting Sifa too much. Deren himself learned of Sifa's rotten intentions just this past year and it must have been very, very late.

"Sorry Papa, dear"

...

"Eh?"

Rio was surprised when Sena came and instantly peeked at his left cheek.

"For my husband's morning"

Rio frowned, the impact once Sena was kind to him and Rio guessed that there was a hidden intent behind all of this.

"Why?"

"Nothing"

"You want to go to the office?"

"Just for a minute"

"Huff. briefly you will be long, same cake me" said Sena as she took a piece of tissue and put on the tissue to wipe the edge of Rio's lips.

"The big boy ate the baby cake" snorted Sena who was still cleaning the stains on Rio's lips.

"From you he likes to be angry"

Hearing Rio's words just now made Sena chant her lips. Rio smiled thinly then kissed Sena's lips at a glance making Sena even more upset plus embarrassed.

"Ngapain closed his face?"

Rio tried to open the hand that covered Sena's face.

"Darling, playing hide and seek what? pack closed everything like this"

"That's bummer!" said Sena while lowering both hands.

"Eh? how red is that cheek?" rio asked as if mocking as well as teasing Sena.

"Rio!"

"Why? still less last night?"

"What?" sena asked confusedly but seeing the gaze and also the nosy smile Rio made Sena's cheeks heat up.

"You mah! So naughty"

From a distance Sifa noticed them. Sifa looks disappointed to see Rio and Sena get along even though she wants them both to fuss and get divorced.

"Ri, I want to talk to you in the room"

"Here or are you really lacking?"

"Yes I'm still less on his feet, hunt come on!"

Sena pulled Rio's wrist. Rio felt there was a pleasure in seeing Sena who was like this.

.

Arriving in the room, Sena did not immediately speak it seems that Sena hesitated to reveal it.

"Say she'll talk?"

"I'm confused where to start, Ri"

"Loh, why? just talk, don't hesitate"

"I know, I haven't been the wife you wanted, I'm sorry. I love you so much, he said you told people to watch me in France of course you know very well that I don't play crazy with other men, yes I admit that I like pergike bars, I know that I like to play crazy, I'm scattering your money. Ri, you should know I did that because it was able to make me forget about Angel and your second marriage. You were wrong to think I was happy with your second marriage, my heart broke Ri. Seeing you with that other woman makes me feel like I'm dead, you must ask me why I told you to remarry if I got hurt"

"Yes, everything I don't know yet, tell me all that now"

"I've told you your mama wants a grandchild and I can't give it yet, I know you'll be patient waiting for her but Amanda's mama already wants it so much. I was confused as to how and when I met Angel, it came to my mind without a second thought I offered the deal to Angel without thinking my heart would be hurt or not and neither did I think about your feelings. I just want Mama Amanda to be happy that's all"

Sena's tears just flowed on her cheeks. Rio did not think that Sena was really concerned about her mother when he thought Sena never considered Amanda like her own mother.

"The more days I'm afraid you'll love Angel even if you always say you only love me. That fear made me even less sane and I realize now that I've gone too far"

"But why do you realize it now? I've been tormented all this time, I'm confused about who to choose between the two of you. Do I have to defend you two?"

Sena. Honestly Sena did not want to share a husband with another woman and Sena did not dare to say that because she realized all along she was not a good wife for Rio if she said it was likely Rio would divorced her.

"Gga Ri, you have to divorce Angel"

"Why should he be better than you"

Rio began to look emotional when Sena began to show the intention in this conversation is to divorce Angel.

"Are you conscious or not, Ri? We're just a black shadow in Angel's life, he deserves to be happy with his own life without us"

"Anyone receives an Angel with that status?"

"Ri, there are so many people out there who can make Angel happy. Don't keep forcing Angel to stay with you"

"Say you don't want Angel to stay among us. You've allowed me to remarry and you don't mind if I keep Angel"

"Ri, open your eyes! Angel is not happy with this marriage. I'm the only one who knows what Angel feels like"

Rio looked down while glaring at something. Sena just wants her household to remain intact even though it sounds selfish Sena only wants Angel to get her own happiness and a second wife is notoriously bad in the eyes of the community.

"Ri, don't keep confining Angel like this. Let him be happy with the people he deserves, we've put a lot of weight on Angel. Soon our son is born and it's quite up to here your marriage to Angel"

"Sena, we-"

"Don't be like this Ri"

Sena cut Rio's speech. Sena wants Rio to see what he sees about Arfan's attention to Angel and it's deeper than just a friend.

"But I already love Angel!"

Deg. Sena's heart seemed to stop for a second, it hurt to hear the confession of the husband he loved so much to love another woman.

"When and what did you really love Angel or just think of her as a toy?"

"Toy? Sena, watch what you say!"

"Then what? you only care about your family, when I play you let me do it, you can tell me everything right then and there but you can't? you are afraid your mother is sad and until now you are still keeping Angel from your family even though Angel is very close to your family lest you be like me, Ri. You have to make a decision as soon as possible before everything is revealed and there may be some kind of relationship that will be broken"

Rio was just silent and silent. Sena kissed Rio's cheek then hugged him. Rio just let Sena do what she wants.

"We've been married for almost six years Ri, we should have had children. You know Ri, that woman is always the first to blame when she's not pregnant. My ears were hot when I heard the insinuations of people mocking my imperfections, my heart breaking Ri. All this time I tried not to pay attention to it but when everything was unbearable I even took it out on you and Mama Amanda. What my day is I'm just a weak human who has a lot of flaws and maybe you think I'm not human"

Rio was still silent, letting Sena vent her heart.

"Ri, do you remember when you proposed to me?"

"No"

"Oh yes already"

Sena took off her embrace and walked out. Rio who felt suspicious then followed Sena from behind.

Sena knew Rio was following her but Sena ignored him, Sena kept walking to the corner room. Rio knew that room that Sena always visited when she was angry and upset with him but all this time Sena forbade Rio from entering this room.

Rio followed Sena into the dark room but for a second this room became very bright and.

"Damn?"

Rio was surprised when he saw this room full of photos with Sena with a happy face without burden. Sena immediately poured her body over the mattress and patted the bolster that contained a picture of Rio's smiling face. Sena always does it because it makes her comfortable to see all the photos of Rio's smiling face as if that smile was for her.

Rio saw all this like a real memory. Looking at the photo on display made Rio back to remember what he had been through.

Rio looked at the photo that made a smile pull on Rio's lips. Rio approached a picture of himself wearing a gray white uniform that he remembered when he followed MOS High School and at that time he did not know Sena.

"Dear, this?"

Sena looked towards Rio. Sena was surprised to see Rio who was observing the photo he took without Rio's knowledge. Sena came down from the bed to Rio.

"What?" asked Sena innocently. Rio smiled mischievously towards Sena.

"You secretly took my picture?"

rio asked as he wrapped his hands around Sena's waist.

"Honestly, since when do you admire me?" rio asked with his PD and it made Sena feel embarrassed, she had been found out that she had long admired Rio.

Sena hid her face in Rio's chest.

"Why are you following me, I'm so embarrassed!! ih naughty" Sena instantly pinched Rio's waist.

"Aww, dear. So before I knew you, you were in love with me?" seductive Rio to make Sena regurgitate.

"But it wasn't your girlfriend that much? I doubt you've put your feelings on me"

"That's just. auaahhh...!!! I just love you. You used to have a lot of girls too"

"Oh, who said it?"

"Yes, when I wanted to greet you, there was a girl who accompanied you"

"That's it, don't talk about it anymore"

"I know you don't love me anymore and it's all my fault. I forced you to turn away from me, stupid me"

Sena looked at Rio's eyes. I don't know why Sena was crying.

"Ri, loose"

Rio according. Sena wiped her tears then smiled towards Rio.

"I made a mistake again, Ri. I. If indeed you want to divorce me already, I will accept it. Maybe you're really happy with Angel, I don't want you to keep tormenting with me because it's the same as torturing myself"

Sena stepped onto the balcony. From where Rio was standing, Rio saw Sena's trembling shoulder. Rio was afraid that Sena would jump from the balcony.

Rio approached Sena with a feeling of uneasiness.

Rio was now beside Sena who was crying without a sound.

"Hey"

Sena wiped her tears then turned her head towards Rio. Sena's sweet smile greeted Rio's eyes.

"Just calm down, I'm not going to jump. I don't want to threaten you anymore, I've given up, you deserve to be happy with someone who can make you happy"

Say Sena while removing the ring that was embedded long in her day.

"Darling, what do you want?"

"Don't lie anymore, Ri. I beg you"

Sena grabbed Rio's right hand and placed the ring on Rio's hand.

"All in your hands, I won't keep forcing you to stay with me"

Sena just left with a long broken heart.

...

01:30

Until this moment Rio had not slept yet. The problem he is facing right now is very difficult. If he could tell Amanda about this problem he would have a solution but this could make things even more complicated.

"Who will I choose? I'm confused, one person I love so much and the other is pregnant with my son"

Rio gave a rough sigh then went out of the room to meet Sena who was sleeping in the room earlier.

Rio smiled looking at the sleeping Sena. Rio kissed Sena's forehead and it made Sena wake up.

"R"

"I woke you?"

"No. Do you really want to divorce me?"

"That?"

"I accept being divorced, I can still see your smile"

"Damn?"

Rio looked at Sena with a look of disbelief. Sena said it all with a look of confidence.

"So morning Papa told me that my nature would make you turn away from me but in fact you have turned away from me. I can't keep threatening you and it makes me realize I don't deserve to ask you to stay with me. I thank you, you have been with me all this time. When I'm sad, happy, when everyone blasphemes me and turns away from me, you still want to stand next to me"

Rio turned his face away, he could not continue to stare at Sena's face. Rio also felt that failing in educating Sena, Rio felt that he did not deserve to be with a husband. He feels useless.

"If you want to go home, please. You must have missed Angel so you couldn't sleep"

"But"

"I'm fine, I'll be with you here. Seeing that smile for me. It hurts to see you angry"

"Damn?"

"Go home, forget me. Forget about this hurt"

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