Oh My Jasson
So messed up

Ken and Elga were no longer there.  The atmosphere between the two of them suddenly gripped, the laughter and smiles that adorned their faces suddenly disappeared. There was only a serious look between the two.

Kimmy looked down at Alana for a moment, then looked down. "Jesslyn must have told you."

"Yes, Jesslyn told me everything. Now there's only the two of us here. I need you to explain everything to me, why did you lie to us all!" alana's orders with great seriousness.

"Alana, I—" Kimmy's voice felt stuck in the throat. He was so confused what to talk about, it felt like he was embarrassed if he had to be frank with Alana for a big reason that had to make him lie and disappear for three years.

"Kimmy, do you know? Jesslyn was so disappointed that you lied to her. So do I. You don't know, every day Jesslyn asks you. He always asks about you to Uncle Louis. But the same answer he always got. You're still doing education abroad."

"Do you know how happy Jesslyn was when Daven told her that he had accidentally seen someone who looked like you in the hospital? Jesslyn was so happy, she was so confident that it was you, she asked Jasson to deliver it and confirm the truth. And it turns out it's true that it's you."

Alana pulls Kimmy's hand and tightly grips her best friend's hand. "Kimmy, do you still think of me as your best friend?" ask Alana. Kimmy's eyes twitched, he nodded his head. "Of course, Alana. Until whenever you and Jesslyn are my best friends.

"If you think of me as a friend then tell me everything, what's the reason you avoided and lied to us all like this?" ask Alana.

"I—"

"What, Kimmy? let's say?" Alana asked in a soft tone but sounded a little pushy.

"Please promise me, if I tell you the reason. You're not gonna tell anyone including Jesslyn?" Kimmy squeezes Alana's hand hoping the woman promises him.

"But, Kimmy. Jesslyn needs to know, she is also our best friend, Jesslyn who is more entitled to know so as not to misunderstand your drimu," said Alana.

Kimmy bowed his head. "I'm really embarrassed, Alana."

Kimmy is silent for a moment, and she musters the courage to explain to Alana.

 "Alana, you know, I used to really like Jasson. Since I was a kid, I thought I just liked it, but the longer I actually put my taste in Jasson. I feel claustrophobic when I see her close to another woman, when I'm someone else to her, while I can never get close to her."

"I thought, that Jasson might be uncomfortable with my presence. Rather than me feeling excessive heartache, I chose to forget about it and move away from her life." Kimmy wiped the tears flowing in both corners of her eyes.

"Including away from us?" Alana seemed not surprised at the reason given by her best friend.

Kimmy closed her eyes, her tears were swept away by the closed eyelids. He nodded his head and allowed it.

"Kimmys...." Alana shifted her seat to get closer and hugged the woman's body tightly.

"Just because of this problem why did you sacrifice our friendship?" ask Alana.

"Alana, you don't know how screwed up I used to be. I wasn't mature enough to deal with this, I was too selfish not to think about your feelings and Jesslyn's. All I thought about was my feelings until I made this stupid decision."

"Why don't you talk to me about how you feel about Jasson? I can help you talk to her, Kimmy."

Kimmy immediately distanced the body of Alana who was still holding her.

"No, Alana. I've completely forgotten Jasson now. I don't have any feelings for her."

Alana watched Kimmy who spoke with her gaze down, she lifted Kimmy's chin and wiped the tears that bathed her best friend's face using her two thumbs.

"You've completely forgotten him?" ask Alana. Kimmy nodded her head without looking at Alana in the slightest.

"Then you should come to Jasson and Jesslyn's birthday party tomorrow."

"Sorry, Alana. I can't!" reject Kimmy.

"Why? haven't you forgotten Jasson?" ask Alana.

"I forgot about Jasson. But I can't come there."

"If you've forgotten Jasson you must come!" force Alana with a firm voice.

"I can't, Alana."

"If you've completely forgotten Jasson and you still think of me and Jesslyn as best friends, you should come!" Alana suddenly stood up from her seat.

"And if you don't come, then I assume, you've completely cut off our friendship."

"Alana—"

"I'll excuse you to come home" Alana threw Kimmy's hand, trying to hold her back and walked away from there.

"Alana, wait—"

"I'm sorry Kimmy" muttered Alana as she walked out of her best friend's house.

"How can I come there?"

"Even Jasson and Alea? they must be in a relationship by now." Kimmy brushed all over her hair so confused. "I don't want my efforts to forget Jasson's been a waste."

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At night, the,

Time is 19:00.  Kimmy's family has been having dinner at home with Dr. Mark's family since 15 minutes ago. The two families were seen gathering at one dining table, a little chatter and jokes they put on the dinner. Doctor Mark only came with his father, because his mother had been gone for a long time, and his two younger sisters could not participate.

Doctor Mark's father was also a medical professional, so their chat seemed very connected, especially he was a senior doctor who was very respected Louis.

"You have a boyfriend, Kimmy?" the question was suddenly thrown by doctor Mark's father to Kimmy.

"Well, what a coincidence, Mark doesn't have a lover either."

"What exactly does uncle mean to speak like that?" mumbling Kimmy.

He felt uncomfortable to be there.

Kimmy's mother named Kelly noticed her only child who was silent and continued eating. Kelly nudged Kimmy's elbow and tried to reprimand her daughter.

"Darling why just shut up? uncle is asking you to talk!" Kelly, who was sitting next to Kimmy, spoke in a whisper to avoid being heard by others.

"Kimmy is eating, Ma." The volume of Kimmy's voice that was not small, made everyone's attention turn towards him. Kelly felt bad for Doctor Mark's father.

Kimmy put down the fork and knife he was holding, he suddenly stood up leaving his seat.

"Uncle, doctor Mark. I'm sorry to end my meal first, good night" Kimmy told the father and son.

"Kimmy, why are you being disrespectful to leave the dinner table like this?" snapped Louis. "Go back to your seat!" his orders.

"Sorry, Papa. Kimmy is so full." Kimmy passed away leaving the dinner table and did not listen to his father's orders. Louis is about to hold his daughter, but Mark's doctor's father forbids him.

"Louis let it go!" mutilate.

"Prof, forgive my daughter's irreverence, usually Kimmy isn't like that" Louis said.

"It's okay, young people understand, my two daughters are also sometimes the same." Doctor Mark's father smiled sincerely and could understand him. "Maybe Kimmy's in trouble, so let it go."

"Ehm...  Dad, Louis' doctor, Kelly's doctor. Excuse me for talking to Kimmy" said Mark.

"Please, Mark." After getting permission from Louis, Mark immediately followed Kimmy who was then seen sitting near the fish pond in the back room while feeding his papa pet fish.

"Kimmys..." Mark stood next to the woman.

"What's the doctor here for?" ask Kimmy while throwing fish food into the pond.

"You're still thinking about your problems with your best friend?" Louis's question did not make Kimmy answer, the woman was just silent and busy giving the pet fish to eat.

"You've become a doctor, you're used to treating patients. Either they are experiencing pain or minor or severe injuries. Although it's difficult, inevitably you have to keep it up and complete your duties as a doctor who is obliged to cure his patients."

"So you should have done the same outside of your profession as a doctor. As light or as heavy as any problem you receive, you have to deal with your problems as wisely as possible and show that you are okay and can solve them!" said Mark.

Kimmy went silent and digested every word Mark's doctor said. It's true, when will he avoid like this?

"I'm sorry." Doctor Mark stood up.

"Doctor Mark.." Kimmy's call stopped Doctor Mark from leaving. Kimmy put the fish food he was holding into any place, he stood up and walked two steps closer to the man.

"Can you accompany me tomorrow to my best friend's birthday party?"

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It is the end of the month of Ramadan,

 Miss Lancaster reciting taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum shiyamana wa shiyamakum minal aidzin wal faidzin apologize born and inner.

May our fasting for one month be a blessing and accepted by Allah SWT.