One Love, One Heart
11. I'm not a kid

"Ko Lo has not returned, Vina has returned home with Risa earlier" said Riri.

"RI I'll give up maybe tomorrow I'll submit my resignation" I said lethargic.

"What is really lo, Lo does not feel right to just complete 3x meetings no dear ?" tanyanya.

"I'm not bright enough" I said lethargicly.

"Lo think again "said Riri while hitting my shoulder softly before leaving me

I can't wait to see him for long, I don't know why every time I see him causes my heart to beat and I feel scared and anxious. After feeling safe and calm I walked outside, but when I was sitting on the bike and was wearing a helmet, there was someone holding my hand.

"Mas needs to talk to you now" he said, making my heart pound and this time accompanied by cold sweat.

"What the hell is wrong, I want to go home mom is waiting for me" I said angrily.

"Why are you impressed to avoid the mas and afraid of the same mas" he said still holding my hand.

"Who dodges and fears the same mas "my words stammered, exactly Aziz stuttered.

"The day of our last meeting, on Friday you left the mas at a red light like a fuzzy person" he said, staring intently.

"No" I said without daring to look at him.

"Look at my eyes if you're not afraid of "saying it while holding both my shoulders, makes me have to look into his eyes. In just 10 seconds I looked at him my memory twisting the incident that I had buried long enough only I knew. My breath began to cramp as if around me there was no air to breathe, I could not breathe My chest became increasingly tight to the dark I felt. I felt like I was in a dark room when suddenly there was light, I saw Nanda holding a woman and the picture turned into Nanda holding me squeezing my breasts roughly ,I could only cry seeing the scene without being able to stop it when I was a teenager there was a sense of relief that I felt. It's like I'm getting a cool supply of air in hot air.

Povs. Nanda

Ever since the incident Aya left me at the red light there was a strange feeling enveloping me, I felt Aya dodging me and scared if it was just the two of me. Twice she ran away when I wanted to drive her home, always avoiding the eye box directly with me like it was uncomfortable when I looked at her. I could have met him at home, but I still didn't have a good reason why I had to go to his house.

"Mother and father are still on the plantation he said today the opa has gone home, but Mas did not know because Mas asked for help later you pick up Vina at school and transfer to the workplace Risa Mas there is a meeting during the day" said Khalid,I just nodded in response.

"You go in and want to go straight to work" I said when my car had stopped at Risa's bimbel.

"Om come in a little later I introduce my private teacher, according to

om she deserves not she be my new mom" she said.

"Keep if it's worth it?"my many.

"If it's appropriate I want to bring my private teacher closer to papa" he said.

" Your papa wants your papa to be choosy" I said.

"It would be a matter of meeting papa several times always looking at the teacher" he said.

"Okay "my answer because this child if not followed can continue to babble, after all just enter acquaintance has continued to return to work I said in my heart. Arriving inside Vina immediately ran and I went to Risa's room.

" Gw nganter Vina looks like Dad and Mommy are still on the road, so Vina will come home with you" I said.

"okay".

"Let's come with me" said Vina who suddenly appeared and pulled me to follow him who had run, lamentably I heard Vina's voice.

"Come on, I'm ready to "say Vina.

"Vina om go first you will go home with Aunt Risa "my word comes to Vina, Aya said I was surprised but different from Aya seemed weak to see me.

So the private teacher who has been told by my mother, Khalid and Risa is Aya, I said in my heart immediately returned to the hospital to continue my work. When I saw it was still at 05:00 pm I went straight to Risa's bimbel place hoping Aya was still there, after I made sure Aya kept it there I decided to wait for her for up to 20 minutes I saw Aya walking out towards the Kawasaki motorcycle and riding straight away as she put on the helmet I immediately stopped her by holding her hand.

"Mas needs to talk to you right now" I said, leaving him shocked and strangely he broke out into a sweat.

"Why are you impressed to avoid the mas and be afraid of the same mas" I said, still holding his hand.

"Who dodges and fears the same mas "he said stammering, exactly frightened people.

"The day of our last meeting, last Friday you left the mas like a frightened person" I said while staring intently at him but he did not see me at all just occasionally glancing at me.

"No" he said without daring to look at me.

"Look at the eyes of you if you're not afraid of "my words while holding both of his shoulders makes him start to look and look into my eyes, but only 10 seconds later he looked at me I saw cold sweat start to pour and his face looked pale. I saw her breathing start to cramp like a panicked and frightened person before she was unconscious, I immediately checked his breathing rate through his pulse and heart work that seemed to work faster than normal people. There was no way I could take it to the hospital, I decided I would take it home because there was a small clinic at home, which my mother used to help the neighbors who needed help.

"What is this, who is he?" ask mother when I enter by carrying Aya.

"Astaghfirullah is the teacher Vina Bu Aya" said the mother as I lay Aya in my room.

"Actually there is what condition does not indicate a sick person" said the mother after checking it.

"Don't do it don't don't do "the voice of Aya with trembling and tears flowing but eyes still closed.

"The subconscious is frightened, what really happened mas "say mother.

"I don't know bun" I'm confused too.

"What is this ?"ask Khalid who went into my room with Dad.

"This is Bu Aya" Khalid said.

"Tell me everything that happened to you!" mother's orders are fierce.

"Actually...". Ahkirnya I told her all including the monkey love speech and his sudden and final departure from our meeting, as well as his strange attitude when meeting me.

"Fear, anxiety, and panic, fear. Difficulty breathing, palpitations and avoidant behavior are examples of psychological symptoms of anxiety disorders" said Mother staring intently at me.

"You mean my mother caused it ?" my many.

"Mother did not say you yourself are assuming, before fainting forced him to stare at the mas which resulted in him sweating cold, anxious fear and difficulty breathing before unconsciousness" said Mother.

"But I don't feel like I'm doing strange things" I said.

"Maybe now not possible without you realizing "say mother.

"What is possible ?" ask me to myself.

egh egh I saw Aya begin to squirm, "Now mas is sitting on the bed next to him, we see his reaction "say mother, doubtfully I follow Mother's orders.

"You realize "my words while holding his hand, which was directly slapped violently and immediately woke up sitting in the corner covering both ears.

"I'm not a child, don't don't don't "say the more I get closer Aya will yell more and more making his mother embrace him.

"Lettle you are safe there is a mother beside you breathe out exhale exhale "say mother gave the order to Aya to calm down and fall asleep. My mother is a psychiatrist so she can judge people who are frightened by trauma or others can also calm them down.

" It still wants to deny after seeing what happened" she said.

"I really don't remember what happened 10 or 11 years ago bun" I said confusedly.

"What is this "said Risa who just entered my room.

"Lo Aya why here" asked Risa.

"Now that we're out, Khalid you wait for Aya to realize we're waiting in front" said the mother, making me even more frustrated.