One Love, One Heart
19. Philo phobia

"You relax your mother does not want to say anything to you, just want a little chat alone with you" said Anin's mother, said, to me after this room there is only me and him while mas Nanda I do not know where.

"What's wrong with auntie?"my question feels weird.

"The mother has told me about what was done to you, now may Mother ask if you want to tell the truth happened to mother ?"ask Aunt Anin.

"Sorry Aunt I don't think I need to tell her, because I'm trying to forget her. I don't want to remember it anymore let only me know" I said.

"Are you 25 years old when you were in a relationship with the opposite sex?" ask Anin.

"Aunty when I work "my word.

"Have you ever done a ski ship that exceeds handrails ?"aunty Anin asked, making me spontaneously glare at her.

"There is no need for you to answer Aunt has found her answer" Anin said.

"Nanda told me why you quit your job "said Aunt Anin.

"But that's not all true, I just want to do a relationship with the halal "My greeting, but Anin's mother just smiled looking at me.

"When did you pass out and take Nanda home, it was because the past you experienced suddenly appeared in your shadow?"anin asked, He just glared at her not believing why her guess could be right.

"Is it in your eyes that men are all the same just *** that he has in mind?"ask Anin again makes Aya not believe, to think that Mother Anin is a duku.

"A paranormal aunt can know without asking me and aunt already know the answer even though I haven't answered?"manya curious.

" Auntie just guessed from the story that nanda told to auntie, Aunty a psychiatrist when you wake up and suddenly screams to see Nanda from there Aunty suspects that something is wrong with you and your aunt" said Anin.

"Aunty is it wrong if I decide I don't want to have a relationship with the opposite sex ?"my many.

"If you can know why you don't want to have a relationship with the opposite sex?" ask Anin.

"3 times I failed to get into a relationship with the same problem" Aya said.

"May Aunt know the reason why 3 times failed?"ask Anin.

"I first liked men when I was 14 years old I liked Kak Nanda, but mas Nanda only considered me a child even almost forced me to do acts like making out "aya said as she squeezed her hands which started to sweat.

"The second time I was in a relationship in college I broke it off because I saw him making out with another woman,he said I was too old-fashioned dating but didn't want the skin ship to hold the third one we were married to because he was trying to force me to kiss. When in trying to kiss me I imagined what mas Nanda did to me that forced me at that time" said Aya while dripping her tears.

"therefore you are afraid to be in a relationship with the opposite sex again" said Anin while embracing Aya's shoulder rubbing Aya's back gives peace to Aya.

"I feel that my relationship will definitely end like the previous one, when they start forcing me to skin ship and I refuse them they will cheat on me or force their will on me" Aya said.

"Therefore you chose not to have any romance at all since then,?"asked Anin who was nodding Aya.

" What does Aya feel why not want a skin ship?"ask Anin.

"If our interaction exceeds the touch of the hand I will feel panic, my heart rate is irregular, and cold sweat when someone touches other than the hand" said Aya

"Because Aya doesn't want to fall in love anymore?"ask Anin.

"Make Aya Love is pseudo Auntie, She no longer wants to be hurt because of love" said Aya.

"But a life without love is empty what Aya wants to live alone continues what Aya does not feel lonely and does not want to be loved?"ask Anin.

"What about Aya's parents don't they love each other ?"ask Anin.

"They love each other" said Aya.

"That Aya knows, 'She must believe that there is still love for Aya, like the love of Aya's parents" Anin said.

"How can Auntie, after breaking up from sister Nanda twice I

relationships all fail" said Aya.

"Learn to be at peace with yourself.One way is to forgive yourself for something that cannot be changed, like the past" Anin said.

"Can I?"ask Aya.

"Well, a great woman, can surely rise up believe that falling in love not only gives wounds, but also gives the cure of falling in love

also offering beautiful things" Anin said, Anin stopped her speech and noticed Aya's change of face.

"Learning to accept and love yourself. Remember that no human being is perfect and everyone has their own advantages and disadvantages. Rest assured you can throw away the fear" Anin said as she continued rubbing Aya's shoulder until Aya fell asleep in Anin's arms.

"Bun "said Nanda who had been standing next to Anin, Anin just glanced at him without being in his sitting position.

"Do I need to move her to my room?"ask Nanda.

"Move it to the guest room only, then contact his family so as not to worry, you who call later the mother who will speak directly "said Anin.

"Nanda can also contact her own mother, rich teenage son, "said Nanda.

"If the mother contacts her parents they will calm down, but if you contact them they will also ask why her daughter is the same as you and also beware "said Anin.

Ahkirnya Anin contacted Aya's parents and said that Nanda invited her home to chat, after eating while chatting Aya even overslept when the sister chatted.

"So according to Mother Aya why ?"nanda asked as Aya had already moved into the guest room.

"While mother concluded that Aya experienced philophobia "said Anin.

"What is philophobia, bun?"ask Nanda.

" The condition when someone is afraid to fall in love and afraid to start and maintain a committed relationship. This fear will make philophobia sufferers trapped in solitude or feel lonely" said Anin.

"What is it that makes him feel at home working freelance?"ask Nanda.

"Actually the trigger initially emang from you mas, but he tried to rise by establishing a relationship during college and while working of course mas also listened to Aya's complaints earlier" said Anin.

"Yes Bun, the honest mas when it was the first time I tried to shake Bun if it could be replayed mas would never do it" said Nanda.

"Porridge can not turn into rice, but the porridge becomes more delicious if added with salt, soy sauce, fried onions, leeks, chicken milk, sambal and crackers. No need to grieve a lot, anyway chicken porridge is also delicious kok" said Anin.

"So I have to turn Aya's sadness into more pleasant like porridge that can not be turned into rice but can be more delicious if we are given the right topping" said Nanda.

"good boy "said Anin while putting 2 thumbs up towards Nanda.

"THANK you bun for his advice from today I will fight to restore Aya's condition so as not to be afraid to fall in love again" Nanda said.