PREGNANT WITHOUT BEING TOUCHED
Chapter 11

PREGNANT WITHOUT TOUCH (11)

Namira Pov

My heart aches for hurting the man who loves me so much and has also succeeded in making the seeds of love in my heart flourish.

It was past the time but Aslan had not returned, it was fitting that he behave like that, anyone who wants to have a wife is not holy. Aslan's attitude was only because he didn't want to hurt me, not accept me.

Not long heard a knock on the door, I deliberately did not say, I just turned to look for a while and continued to put clothes back in the suitcase.

The door opened and showed Aslan, in a confused look, and stepped quickly towards me. I feel so ashamed to just look at him.

Aslan said something that surprised me, he told me that he had told Abah and Umi and that it was even more surprising that my in-laws accepted my past. I am very happy when I doubt my husband's words, it could be just to please my heart.

Even so I still feel inappropriate, they are good people while I? Just a dirty and unholy woman.

Aslan led me to the garden, indeed tonight the sky looks very beautiful full of stars. When Aslan gave a touch, I tried to calm down not want Aslan back disappointed. His black eyes were always on me, and it embarrassed me a lot.

When we got very close, I suddenly felt nauseous and dizzy, I did not care about Aslan, I immediately ran to the bathroom, I was,

"What's wrong with me? Did I catch a cold, 'cause I was out there too long?"

A call was heard, from his voice heard if my husband was so worried. But there's no way I let her in, she must have seen me vomiting like this, but I was wrong, my ban wasn't in the beautiful right by my husband who did look very panicked.

"You are not pa-pa dear," asked Aslan as he approached.

I felt one of his hands slipping into my hijab and gave a gentle massage at the nape, and the other rubbed my back.

"Have you? Come on, help me!"

I only resigned when he took me, nausea and dizziness still overwhelm me. I sat on the edge of the bed waiting for Aslan who was tidying up the pillow.

"Abang help open the hijab yah?"

Now that my body was suddenly stiff, I was confused because all this time I had never seen my hair.I was also ashamed of my current state which must have been very messy.

Because I was not strong with dizziness in my head I finally nodded.

Aslan stretched out his hand, slowly starting to open my hijab,

"Why is aslan silent?" ask in my heart

"Is my current appearance so messy?"

I turned my face away, but Aslan held it back and faced my face until I met Aslan's black eyes. Now our eyes meet, tie together and our hearts are busy talking to themselves.

"Thank God for all your blessings and blessings, You have come to a man like my husband who loves me so much. Make a good wife's servant to her, and complete our worship, amen." My gratitude and prayers are said together in my heart.

I don't know what time I slept, now I feel a gentle rub on my shoulder. Because the eyes were heavy due to dizziness, I was only able to open my eyes a little, and Aslan was already sitting near me.

I closed my eyes again, to relieve the pain in my head, I forced my eyes open, Aslan smiled as he looked at me,

"Still sick, still nauseous?"

One finger is used to remove the child's hair that is near my eyes.

"Alhamdulillah has been humbled" I said lying.

I just don't want to go back to worrying Aslan.

"You want to follow the prayer?"

Scroll clock, it's been 3 hours over 15 minutes. Aslan wants to take me to prayer one third of the night.

"If you are not strong do not be forced hmm, let brother pray alone, you go back to sleep he. Later at dawn, my brother woke up again." his hand rubbed my head again.

I could feel her feelings, which seemed to flow through my body in every touch.

"But no one is alone? I asked while lifting up a little body for me to lean on.

"No pa-pa dong dear beautiful brother of God," he replied while poking my chin.

"Idihh her cheeks are red, hahahah." Aslan laughed because he managed to tease me.

The one who was embarrassed could only smile.

"Bang!" call me.

My serious call and face suddenly made Aslan stop laughing. He looked at me seriously too,

"What's the matter, baby, sick again?" aslan asked worriedly while sticking the butt of his hand on my forehead.

"I'll see Abah and Umi next morning, what can I do?"

Aslan seemed to understand my point, he nodded in response.

I no longer asked, I let my husband perform his night prayers, I myself laid back, with a fixed gaze focused on the man who was facing Robnya.

Back the call was heard, this time I opened my eyes immediately, I saw my handsome husband smiling with his hand that kept wiping my hair.

There was tarhim from the mosque, the sign was already in the morning prayer time, I lifted the body and shifted it to the back leaning. Collecting lives with great difficulty, rubbing my eyes made Aslan chuckle.

I also put on a pouting face, then got up and walked to the bathroom, from the bathroom I can still hear Aslan's hardness.

"Bring to the mosque first well." said Aslan after I finished cleaning myself.

"Wait Bang, I also want to come," I said while taking sajana and mukena subordinates, because for the superior I have used.

Aslan furrowed his brows, "you pray at home only dear!"

"I have not pa-pa bang, since here I have not been outside the house once," I said a little annoyed.

after saying all, and after knowing that my husband and in-laws had accepted my past, I felt this burden run loose. I also have to get used to interacting with others so that my trauma gradually disappears.

"Yes, come on, let's go now!" take Aslan while walking.

I followed Aslan who was walking first, as she was going down the stairs Aslan aligned her body with mine, and grasped the hand that was holding the prayer mat. Seeing that I immediately moved the prayer mat I was holding onto the other hand.

The house looks quiet maybe Abah and Umi have already gone to the mosque.when out of the gate many of the santri who reprimand and greet you and Aslan.

"Assalamualaikum Gus, Ning" said several male and female students when they met in front of the mosque.

Aslan smiled and chuckled as she looked at my bumbling face,

"It's okay it's a form of their respect, because you are now their Ning, so they ask for blessings." Aslan explained.

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After performing the morning prayer, Aslan did not immediately invite me home, Aslan asked me to leave the prayer mat and mukena to Mbok dalem that we had met.

"Where are you taking me?" I asked while walking to enjoy the atmosphere in the pesantren with the cool air.

It seems like the sunlight is still reluctant to show tinge of jungle, rice fields, and vegetable gardens, not only adding to the coolness of the air here but making the eyes feel at home for a long time to see its beauty.

Aslan invited me to walk through the rice fields, there were some farmers and also santri was harvesting yellowed rice, Aslan said if the rice fields were also part of the pesantren.

After passing through the rice field we see empty land around which there are banana plants.In the empty land there are some chicken coop that only take the eggs, only in the egg, goats are in milk milk and not far from the place there is a fish nursery or where the santri cultivate various types of fish.

I was very amazed by the learning system in the boarding school owned by my father-in-law, gotong royongnya, togetherness, family, really felt.

"May I ask you a bang?" We have been sitting in a small saung that made the santri to rest.

The green view of the vegetable garden, really very pampering the eyes, many santri princess is picking and plucking vegetables or even yam trees. indeed, for the task of cultivating vegetable land was handed over to Ustazah who was assisted by the princess santri, and for the livestock was handed over to Ustadz, assisted by the sons santri.

I was a little curious about the division of tasks, why not do it together? I asked Aslan to get rid of the curiosity, too,

"Bang!" call slowly.

like his view of Aslan was focused on seeing the activities of the princess, somehow it made my heart uncomfortable.

"Am I jealous?" I monologue while holding my chest.

"Why hmm, want to go home?" replied Aslan who had turned to face me.

"Emm...."

"Why I'm not so excited, I'm really jealous." I said back in my heart.

"Why baby, how come? Not feeling well, nausea again, dizziness again?" asked Aslan with a worried face.

Aslan got up and took my hand, I went to stand. When Aslan pulled my hand, I stopped. Aslan turned to look at me and furrowed his brows.

"I don't want to go home now, I want to help them" I said pointing to the vegetable garden, where many princesses were harvesting various kinds of vegetables.

"Yes but not for long well, we're lightening up. Oh yes, later in the afternoon we go to the hospital yah!"

"To the hospital?" I said repeating Aslan's question.

"Yes, I don't want you to do anything, I'm afraid you're getting stomach acid."

"I'm more worried if I'm not exposed to stomach acid, but rather." I said in my heart, holding back.

Since last night I have been feeling nauseous and nauseous I have been thinking no-no. But I tried to break my belief with the fact that I had been mens**punishment after the incident.

"Come on!" Aslan led me back.

The sun was shining, it was getting warm, and again my head was suddenly dizzy.

Aslan was seen running towards me as I held the temple and was already among the santriwati.

He immediately grabbed my waist and made me walk back to the saung where we were sitting.

"Are we going home, Brother hm?"

The question embarrassed me, I shook my head quickly, before Aslan actually did what he had just said.

"I can still walk by myself" I said, rising from my seat.

Aslan looked at me as if he could not believe that I could walk on my own.

"Yes, come on!" Aslan stretched out his hand.

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After performing the duha prayer, I intend to meet Umi and Abah, but my two in-laws are not there. Mbok dalem said that they were attending an invitation to one of the pesantren in this city as well. Mbok dalem also told me that tonight they are back.

Suddenly there was a hand that hugged me from behind, I was very surprised, afraid to make my body tremble a little, I immediately dodged.

"Astagfirullahalazim sorry I'm not sure." I said feeling bad.

I thought Aslan was disappointed with my attitude, but I was wrong, Aslan is indeed a very good man.

"No dear pa-pa, brother who is sorry has missed you," he replied with a smile and ruffled the tip of my head.

"We have breakfast?"

I just nodded and followed in my handsome husband's footsteps.

It did not feel like it was late afternoon, Aslan had told me if my schedule was with the doctor at 5 pm. After Ashar we also left for the hospital where Aslan registered me.

Arriving at the hospital, we only waited for one more queue, Aslan enrolled me to the general practitioner, because according to Aslan I was exposed to stomach acid, in my heart I pray that what Aslan says is true, I only get stomach acid.

"Mrs Namira Aslan?" panggiLan of the sisters in my name.

I rushed into the room followed by Aslan. the room was all white, with a doctor can tik and one nurse who accompanied.

We were invited to sit down and ask questions about the complaint before conducting further checks,

"What does the Lady feel?"

"I'm dizzy, nauseous, and vomiting, I seem to catch a cold" I said, concluding for myself what my illness was.

The beautiful doctor smiled and got up from his seat, let me go up to the safe next to him, assisted by the nurse, the doctor also did an examination.

"I made a letter of introduction to the obstetrician yes sir, to make sure, I suspect your wife is pregnant." The doctor said with a smile.

The doctor did not know if what he said just now was news that destroyed my heart and world. Kulirik looked at Aslan for a moment, silent, his hands clenched tightly, but aslan immediately normalized his expression.

Aslan smiled as he heard the news, and I just silently stared, my feelings were mixed, I was afraid and surely Aslan would no longer accept me after this.

I am currently pregnant with a child from another man who forced himself to be present in my life.