PREGNANT WITHOUT BEING TOUCHED
Chapter 5

PREGNANT WITHOUT TOUCH (5)

Namira Pov

If I don't think about Dad's health, I will refuse this arranged marriage. Not because I felt that man was inappropriate for me, but instead I was the one who did not deserve him.

What if he knew I was just a dirty woman, and despised would he still accept me?

Dad said tomorrow the man I just know is named Gus Aslan, because he is the son of the owner of the boarding school and his parents are friends of Dad, they will come to preach me. It was heartless to argue with Dad about my rejection.

Father is condemned by the decree if his age is not long.qudarullah life and death someone God determines.and Father does not want me later a kara. Dad was also eager to see me married and become a guardian in my marriage before the death of picking him up.

Really all that makes me tight, shadowing it has made my heart hurt, how would I if later father. ahh I can not imagine it if only there was no such fateful incident, it was not, then I will be very happy to marry a righteous man like Aslan. I am sure he can also take me to the path of his heaven God. A man who will guide me on the journey of the Hereafter.

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Kiayi Karim's family came around 9 a.m. Kiayi Karim is only with his wife, and his son Gus Aslan. I just lowered my head, there was no way I could look at the man who had not yet become my mahrom.

"Son!" call Daddy who managed to break my daydream.

I turned to look at Father who happened to be beside me.

"You don't want to show your face to your family and your future husband, he has the right to look at your face for a moment?"

Indeed, when there is a sermon that men who want to propose you deserve to see your face.

While I was silent, I wanted to speak first before answering this proposal. I told myself to ask for the opportunity to Father and Aslan's parents.

"Dad, Kiayi, Umi, may I speak with Gus Aslan first, before answering this proposal?" I asked with my head still down.

"Of course you can, it's your right to ask what you want to know about your future husband" Umi Farah replied.

There's relief in this heart, at least I'll have a chance to apply some conditions to Gus Aslan.

"Alright, I also want to talk to you," Aslan finally opened his voice.

After getting my approval I walked to the garden behind my house, of course I was not alone, there was my cousin's sister who accompanied.

A meter away I and Aslan were sitting on a park bench, while my cousin's sister was standing a little away from us, so as not to hear our conversation.

I don't know what kind of man in front of me right now, he will be my future husband. What it looks like, I don't know myself. But Isma had said that Gus Aslan was very handsome.

"Assalamualaikim Namira," said Aslan first open the chat, because frankly I was confused where to start.

"Wa'alaikumsalam," I answered, then went back to silence.

Why is my heart pounding, whether because of my trauma, my body suddenly trembled, the sweat of a grain of corn began to fall on the temple. Of course Aslan did not see and realized my uneasiness.

"O Allah calm down my servant for a moment" I said in my heart.

"What do you want to know about me?" ask Aslan back ahead.

"No gus, me...? I don't know suddenly my tongue complains of doubt, where there are men who will accept the conditions that I propose later.

Aslan was silent, seemingly wanting to give me some time. For a second I take as much oxygen as possible to loosen the tightness of my did*d.

"I want to make conditions for you, can I?" I doubt back.

I twisted the veil to remove my fear, and also to my worry.

"Alright, please what's your condition."

Laluku mentioned the 3rd condition of mine, I did not think Aslan accepted it without asking anything. I was confused by his attitude.

I finally agreed to this proposal, and our wedding day was immediately decided today as well. And I also resigned to follow because I did not want to make Dad disappointed.

Let me keep this wound myself, until I come to the place where I shall be honest about my situation to the man who is briefly a man of the title of husband.

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Aslan kept his promise, after marriage he took me to his private home. I always avoided even our separate sleep.I occupied the guest room.

It didn't feel like 2 weeks we had been living together without touching at all, and I felt so guilty for ignoring my husband's inner needs. But how else I fear, my trauma still scares me even in dreams.

Plus when Aslan took me to his best friend's wedding, I was like looking at him, the man who ruined my life. I'm sure the man was him, I remember with the titanium necklace he was wearing.

when my body shook, I immediately cried, wanting to feel like I was running, when I turned around I was surprised to see Aslan was already behind me.

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This morning it rained again just like yesterday, I made black coffee and fried bananas, very suitable to be enjoyed in this weather.

I put it on the small table, I had no intention of accompanying my husband either, but just as I was about to leave Aslan called me and asked me to accompany him.

Not have the heart to refuse, at least I can accompany her to sit instead of accompanying her in the room. I also took a seat next to him. I know aslan was looking at me. But suddenly aslan was gathered in front of me and it made me embarrassed.

"Gus what did Gus do?" I said I felt a little uncomfortable.

Aslan only smiled and when she touched my hand, I was shocked and scared. There was a strange feeling running through my body, my heart was pounding for some reason. Her net looked at me, and Aslan told me the truth about her matchmaking and her feelings, which really surprised me.

How can he not say if he has loved me for a long time, honestly hearing it was like something was in my heart. My lips were immediately pulled upwards. I'm happy that's how I feel.

Until suddenly there were questions that returned to remind me of the dark events, my body shook again, fear re-ruled me. Aslan moved to sit down and immediately his hands hugged me, buried my head in his chest. I was nervous and panicked and tried to escape, but Aslan stopped him.

It was clear his heartbeat was racing, really his rhythm makes me opiate. "O Allah, I really want it, but what I despise deserves a man as good as my husband" I said in my heart.

My tears broke, Aslan let go of her embrace the net we met for a moment, I couldn't bear it and left her.

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Azan reverberated, entering the ashar time, the sound of the knocking of my hustle opened. handsome men who were fully dressed in sarongs and sturdy with matching colors, and, plus the black peci perched on his head really makes a vibration in my body organ called the heart. It was her tenderness and patience that made me start to feel that a seed was beginning to grow, but as hard as I could bear to keep it from developing.

"You want worshipers?" asked Aslan with a smile.

I just nodded, sign agreed. I have intended to say everything after praying.

When I finished my prayer was about to say all, taoi heard a phone call from Aslan's room. Aslan immediately saw me, I understood immediately nodded my head.

"Now," Aslan gave the lipih object that had been held since.

"Umi" continued Aslan.

I took off my face and walked towards the back garden. After saying my greetings, I had a short conversation with Umi Farah, she asked me and Aslan to go to Pesantren.

I ended the banghilan with Umi, and behind there was already an aslan carrying 2 cups, one handed to me.

"What did you say, honey?"

Deggs....

"Darling?" I said inwardly repeating Aslan's words just now.

Immediately tell me what purpose Umi called, and we agreed after dinner we will go to Umi Farah's house.

And I've made up my mind to say honesty to my husband at my in-laws' house later.