PREGNANT WITHOUT BEING TOUCHED
Chapter 12

PREGNANT WITHOUT TOUCH (12)

Aslan Pov

"You take a break!" I just drove Namira to the front door of the room, after returning from the hospital.

Namira just silently stared, somehow this time I seemed reluctant to do something to him, because of the news? I don't know.

I walked straight to the guest room next to mine, without waiting for Namira to enter. I went straight into the bathroom, closed it and locked it, but in this room it was just me, but right now I really want to be alone.

I lit the syower, let the water wash over my whole body without me caring about my wet clothes.

Arrrrgh....!

I growled, pulling my hair hard.

My hands clenched, punched the wall and made my hands bleed.

"You're angry at who Aslan is? To you or to the news, huh?" I said speak for myself.

"Astagfirullahalazim." I am interested in heart.

Soon I finished my business in the bathroom, and after that I prepared to go to the mosque because I would soon be entering Islamic prayer.

When I went out of the room before going down the stairs, I turned to Namira's room for a while, I was still reluctant, right now my mind is so messed up, I need time and I want to complain to Robku, I want to, find the best way to this problem.

"I'm sorry, brother," I said muttering softly, and went back down the stairs.

All the way to the Mosque my heart was not calm, I kept thinking about Namira what she was doing now.I was not focused even scattered from some santri I ignored.

"O Allah, am I wrong to have behaved this way to my wife, but I myself say that I accept it with all its shortcomings." I'm monologuing, stop myself for a second.

Suddenly I felt a pat on my back, as I turned my head,

"Assalamualaikum Gus." Ustadz Fatih was standing behind me.

"Wa'alaikumsalam Ustadz."

He looked around, maybe it was strange to see me standing still alone while I was about to enter.

"Let's Gus, just enter prayer time again," he asked without saying stale.

"Oh.iya Ustadz please," I said to extend my hand forward to let him go first.

"We are both Gus" he asked.

I also agreed and walked parallel while discussing the development of the students. I must not neglect my responsibility as the son of the owner of this boarding school, nor should I mix personal matters with my duties as successor of my parents.

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This time I became a priest, I gave up all my world affairs, I put my intention to face my Rob.

After finishing, I also took the time to listen to the santri sons who want to murojaah, with them a little to make my heart calm, but still my mind can not be separated from Namira, Namira, I'm worried about him right now, I'm afraid he's doing something he'll regret later.

"No .. no." I shook my head.

"No, why Gus, is my reading not correct" asked one of the students who was currently in front of me, as if he had seen me.

"Ehh .. not .. not you, we've been." I refocused myself on listening to the chants of my students.

When it was 11 o'clock, after teaching, I deliberately did not go home, I still feel at home here, I also want to pray a third of the night in the mosque. only seen a few santri, I still feel at home, I also want to pray a third night in the mosque, they were senior students reading the book. For junior santri it is necessary to return to the kobong (bedroom) after 10 o'clock, respectively, and then wake up later to perform evening prayers in further remembrance and teaching while waiting for dawn.

I lay down my back with my two hands behind my head, looking up with my mind always on Namira.

I tried to close my eyes, to sleep even if only briefly in order to perform the night prayer.

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Sounded out loud voice teaching, I forced open my eyes to look around, it turns out there are still some students.

I forced to sit a body that felt weak, collecting lives for a while, in the sense that it was a bit stiff I also rose up to step into the bathroom of the mosque, just reach for myself and continue to take ablution.

Kulrik wall clock Mosque, the short needle has pointed at the number 3, I also prepare to pray a third of the night.

"Is Namira currently performing evening prayers?" my question is in my heart.

I let go of all the affairs of the world, I specifically faced my Rob, I lived every reading I recited, trying to find tranquility in my every bow.

Distinguishing and my remembrance chanting after completion, in order for my soul to calm down, I held it to my two hands, begging for forgiveness and a path to the problems I faced. I really leave it all to divine Robbi, whatever it is that's best.

While waiting for dawn, I teach to feed my soul which now feels lonely and empty, I am indeed a Gus but I am also just an ordinary human.

There was a pat on the shoulder, I turned to the origin of the clap, it turned out to be Abah,

"Assalamualaikum Son."

"Wa'alaikumsalam Bah" I answered while kissing the reverence of Abah's hand.

Abah sat cross-legged next to me, looking at me as if I knew I was in trouble,

"What's wrong, you want to talk to Abah and Umi about?" asked Abah while stroking my shoulder.

I shook my head, there is no way I am currently telling Sbah and Umi about Namira's condition, if yesterday they could accept Namira's lack of power, if now they could also accept Namira's condition.

"There's no pa-pa Bah, all is well." I said trying to be calm.

"Yes, come on!" take Abah while getting up from her seat.

After I finished my morning prayers, I looked around for a woman I hadn't seen all night.

"Nothing," I murmured.

"Don't you, I better go home now, lest this attitude of mine make amira do something I finally regret."

I saw that I had gone home first, with Ustadz Fatih and the students.

I set my legs wide, even half-running, worried I could no longer ignore, wanting to be home soon to see the woman I had neglected last night, I don't know what he's thinking right now about my attitude last night.

Upon arrival at the door of the house I slightly bent my body with both hands holding my knees, breathing a little cringe and irregular heart rhythm made me a little tired. Sebetul not tired because of running, but my mind at this time that makes my heart and physical tired.

I open the door and say hello, it doesn't look ready." Tumben is usually crowded in the kitchen, why do I not hear the sound of Umi?"

Curious I also stepped into the kitchen, sure in the kitchen there is only Mbok dalem and some santri are busy cooking.

I stepped back up the stairs to see Namira. After standing right in front of the door, I hesitated.

"Bismillah." I said

Htok ..tok ..!

"Assalamualaik."

Knock the door while saying greetings but there is no sahutan. I try again just by saying greetings, say hello,

"Assalamualaikum, Namira!" still no answer.

I held the doorknob that was not in the key, I pushed slowly, before entering, I lowered half my head, saying, I said,

"Depart in yeah."

I spread out the door and my body was completely inside, quiet. There was no sign of anyone in the bathroom.

"Where's Namira?" my monologue

Now my heart's beating so much tighter, scared? Yes, afraid that Namira thought nothing of my attitude, Namira left this house and I.

I also ran down the stairs looking for all the rooms in this house, even to the vegetable garden, who knows Namira was wanting to eat vegetables. it turns out there is not only one room left, but there is only one room left, the rooms of Abah and Umi,

"Is Namira there? Don't let Namira say everything the doctor said.

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The flash back

"After the examination we see the results yes Mr, Madam, hopefully the results are as expected," said the obstetrician.

"If only the result was positive and it was my flesh and blood, I would be very happy, but this?" just thinking about it makes my feelings difficult to understand.

I saw Namira gelisa, her hands clasping fingers together, she must have felt the same feeling as me, even more.

I couldn't bear to see her like that, I stretched out one hand and clasped her already cold hand.

The doctor opened a white envelope that read Miss Namira Aslan, when the sheet inside had been held, The doctor smiled, I just briefly saw it and again threw away the view.

"Congratulations, sir, your wife is pregnant."

Duarrr..

My blood immediately flowed profusely maybe even to the crown. My heart beat faster, my heart ached, I took off my hand with Namira. I saw Namira looking at me for a moment and then looking down deep. I clenched it to my two hands.

Didn't want the doctor to realize my attitude I hurriedly normalized my facial expression.

"Thank you Doc." I said that while trying to smile.

"The gestation age of your wife is already 5 weeks, so be careful well, in the first tri mester the content is still vulnerable."

"Is there anything you want to ask?" The doctor asked.

I asked myself what to ask, Namira was silent but only for a moment and,

"Doc, said my obstetrician of 5 weeks, but within that 5-week period I did****si, how could I be pregnant?" Namira asked me something I didn't understand.

I just listened to their conversation without any intention of interfering.

"Dar*h mens**what color is it, and is it in large numbers?" ask the woman in front of me.

"It's just like flecks, and it's not as usual" Namira replied.

"It is not a real mens***, it is a sign of pregnancy spots or also called implantation bleeding. Implantation bleeding occurs when the fertilized egg or embryo attaches to the lining of the uterine wall. So many think hai* when in fact pregnant, this is also what Nonya experienced." The doctor explained at length.

"But Doc all this time I didn't feel nausea and vomiting just today." Namira asked again.

"Not all pregnant women experience the name morning sickness, can also the husbands who experience it." The doctor looked at me with a smile.

After feeling enough and obviously we came out of the all-white room, we decided to go straight home, there was no talk all the way.

Flash back off

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I stepped into Umi's room, I immediately tapped and greeted her, but there was no answer. I slowly opened the door of the room, and immediately entered a quiet walk, there was a sound of sobbing from the garden in this room. Arriving at the garden boundary door with a room, I saw the woman I had been looking for now sitting together in front of Umi and Abah.