Raluna
Full Raka

All these years I have lived in regret, all those years I have been searching for you Aluna, you really left without news of incising such a deep wound.

This is how you punish me, if it is, I will accept it, but promise me that you will come to me even if I have to wait for decades.

All my people are changing, getting colder with uncontrollable emotions, you know why I'm like this, I feel that I don't have the right to laugh after making you suffer, I'm sorry Aluna I'm sorry, ahh it feels like thousands of rich sorry I said even though you didn't hear it.

You know Aluna Mommy wants me to get married, she introduces me to a lot of girls, but I can't, your face has gained control of my heart and mind, let my life run out to wait for your arrival, to wait for nature to support our meeting, when it happens I promise not to let go of your hand, even if you ask me to let go.

"honey. said you're normal, son, you're not gay, son" mother's words made me giggle amused, how could I be gay and I love you, I love you, but let me not care what everyone will say, if the gossip can make all the girls away from me then for me there is no problem.

you're happy not with my decision, not that you used to bully every gadia who tried to approach me, now look you don't have to do that Lun because I'm going to do it myself.

Tonight I look back at your smiling photo with a wide, sorry Lun I downloadloud your photo without permission, this I do so that my longing for you a little treated, "beautiful" one word that describes you.

"if your favorite food" isn't your first question, you know the answer to your question is already on the tip of your tongue "I love capcai" I don't know why that voice couldn't be said.

You know when I was alone with you at that time I was upset with you, can I be honest this time, why your skirt is so short? I really hate to hear my male friends say your skin is so smooth, your legs are so level, I hate to hear them admire you.

His taste was eager for me to tear their mouths one by one.

before I knew that you were my Dira I was trying to stay away from you, I was already bound by the promise that he would be my life companion.

But your persistence that never goes from me makes my ego touched, I hate to admit that little by little Dira's name is replaced by your name.

I'm happy and hurt that you two are the same person, I am happy that I did not renege on my promise I was hurt it turns out that the heart that I hurt every day is the heart that I promise will make her happy.

I've seen you in front of a church, and with the lightness of it you get in, one of the big reasons I kept you away from my life is that incident, in my mind we are different there is a big wall that blocks both of us, but it turns out I was wrong, "Aluna is Islam bego, christianity from where she tried" keysa scolded me Lun she said I was stupid for not asking you first.

well I was a fool at that time I asked you, not concluded it myself.

you know every day I've been researching the lives of your two best friends, just in case you let them know, I've been thrown by keysa using Lun "hahaha" drinking water bottle" he was very upset and tired of hearing the same question every day.

I failed Aluna, your laughter continues to reflect like encouraging me to work, just like it used to be when you laughed and shouted my name on the sidelines "Raka... Raka.. spirit" isn't it now I'm like Aluna's lunatic.

Lun how many more years I have to wait for you, may I be honest I have begun to frustrate, my fear is increasingly becoming that we will forever never meet again.

Could this be a sign that I should try harder to forget you, is that what you want right? if he's good slowly I'll try to forget you.

of course my first step is to go from the city where all the memories of you exist, I decided to take care of papa branch company located far from Jakarta.

it's possible that with a new atmosphere I can slowly erase your name.

I've been here for a week, like you've really cursed me, all my efforts are free, you really follow me wherever I go.

Today was my first meeting with the marketing division, a note dropped right under my feet, when I saw it written exactly like yours, you remember you sent me love letters, if you knew none of your letters that I threw away were neatly stored in my personal safe.

My hope suddenly appeared so great that the book was indeed yours, but when I asked it turned out that I could only be disappointed, she was not you, she said, why does it feel like it is your writing.

tell Aluna what else this time I fantasize?? throughout the meeting my mind was only focused on the writing, the sense that you were so close to me.

That day my cousin came from Jakarta, his name is sienna, his nature is very coercive, with as nice as he pulled me towards the cinema to accompany him to watch the movie "training ntar if his Aluna has met not awkward watching with a girlfriend" hahaha he is like that always scapegoating your name so that I realize all his wishes "Aluna does not like stingy guys, he is like that is always scapegoating your name so that I realize all his wishes "Aluna does not like stingy guys, buy me shopping".

but I'm pretty sure that if fate brings us together you and he will join forces to trick me, aahh, it's beautiful if it's all real.

while I was waiting in line somehow my heart said you were here, repeatedly I turned back, looking right and left but nil, apparently just my hallucinations.

Aluna when we meet I won't waste time.

I'll tell you "you have to be Raka Adtmaja's mistress" yes you have to want whatever happens.