Rapa & Cleona: Keeping the Heart
39. The growing sadness

A week had already passed between Rapa, Clara and Cleona. From that moment on, Cleona felt that her world had changed, there was no more laughter and jokes that they had always done, even herself as if in a crowd that could not be separated from a blasphemy.

Almost everyone in Kebaperan High School knows the problems that have befallen him, and all assume that the affair is really done Cleona. Wanted to argue, but it was useless, because he knew that they would not believe.

Choosing to let might indeed be better, his hands were only two and it was clearly not enough to silence the mouths of everyone talking about it so, as much as he could use to cover his ears, he was not, although still the sneer sounded so clear in his senses

The other four friends also had time to ask the truth of the rumor, but Cleona only replied with a smile. Let those who interpret, let them consider it all to be true, for according to Cleona himself his defense could no longer be useful for the present, everyone, he said, moreover Clara and Rapa already believed what was witnessed rather than demanding an explanation from him.

Cleona spends more time alone lately, or sometimes with Alvin who comes to just know the news of the girl. There was not much Cleona did other than cry or contemplate alone. His spirit to live the day as if floating out of nowhere, let alone seeing the attitude of Rapa who seemed reluctant just face to face.

Not once did she try to approach her lover twice, intending to apologize, but the neglect that the man often did made Cleona only able to bow down and finally chose to give up, there was no more message he sent, nor to meet him. He knew enough himself, Rapa did not want to see his existence so, as much as possible Cleona avoided and chose to be alone in the park that always accompanied his loneliness and sadness.

Mother and father Rapa had several times come to the house, check his condition and ask where he is who no longer always comes to visit. With the reason to study for the semester repetition that Cleona said, although it can be seen in the look of disbelief on the faces of the two parents, but as much as possible he always assured that there was no problem between him, but as much as possible, Clara and Rapa, although in fact their relationship is in the middle of the waves.

“If any of you have a problem, solve it with a cool head. And do not hesitate to tell the same mother and father, because we are your parents.”

That's what Lyra said the other night. Cleona could only nod and give a brief smile. His sadness was indeed that same, because he was not good at hiding, but as much as possible Cleona remained silent. This is the case, then as much as possible not to involve other people, especially his parents and parents Clara and Rapa. Cleona wanted to learn to solve it by herself, even if one day, maybe she would need the help of her parents, once the problems she faced could not be solved alone.

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The semester repetition in the past is quite good, thanks to learning that became a diversion of his sadness and loneliness. While class XII immediately went to camp, class X and XI actually did Class meeting activities.

Cleona who was not even excited just to watch, chose to be alone. In this park, Cleona's tears always dripped endless, despite trying to no longer think of Rapa who was getting away, but still not easy to do. His longing was too deep for the man.

I don't know how long Cleona had been silent under the shade of a shady tree, until then the sound of the ringing of a cell phone surprised her a little.

Frowning, Cleona picked up the incoming phone from her bundle. “Hallo, Mother.”

“Queen where?”

“You go home now, baby, take the Queen with you. Since then Mommy connected, but he did not lift it also.”

“What's up, Mommy?”

“You go home, yes, Queen. Later Mommy contact the school for permission.”

After the phone connection was cut off, Cleona was still staring at the darkened flat screen in confusion. But he quickly got up and immediately looked for Clara along the school hallway. Her feeling turned unpleasant as she recalled the tone of her mother's voice sounding sad.

Choosing to stop to look for Clara, Cleona stepped over to one of the people who seemed to want to go to the field where the event took place and left a message to convey to her best friend, while himself ran towards the gate, intercepted a taxi to drive him home.

The closer the distance to the housing complex, the faster the pounding in his heart, the more unpleasant his feelings and confusion immediately perched once he saw in front of his house was crowded by many people. Cleona quickly got off the taxi and ran in through the people who were blocking her way, the tears could no longer be weathered once he saw the yellow flag as well as some flower arrangements on the left right side of the gate.

The mother greeted the terrace with tears and immediately hugged Cleona who was about to break into the house.

“What happened, Mother? Why are so many people here, and why is there a yellow flag in front?” Cleona raised a question repeatedly while crying and begging to be let go.

“You are patient yes, Queen, Mami you are happy with God.” Heavy Lyra said that, but how else would she have to say it.

What Lyara said left Cleona speechless to digest, before then screaming loudly and pushing Lyra's body until the hug came off. Running into the house, Cleona found her papa sitting next to the stiff, cloth-covered body in the middle of the room, looking down with her shoulders moving up and down.

Cleona quickly ran over to Leo, shaking the body of the papi while forcing the papi to say that all this was a lie and a dream. But as soon as the burly hand gave a tight hug and a sobbing sound, Cleona heard, her body did not suddenly soften and her cries grew louder, shaking her head several times, Cleona refused to believe.

“Mami why go stayin Queen, Mi. Wake up, Mi, don't leave Queen alone, Mami wakes up …!"

Cleona who kept crying let go of her papi embrace, turned her head to the stiff supine body beside her, opened the covering cloth, Cleona getting hysterical as soon as Luna's pale face was clearly in front of her.

Several times Cleona shook Luna's body which did not respond as well. “Mommy wakes up, Mi, Queen needs mommy, Queen doesn't want to lose mommy. Waking up, Mi,” he said weakly, shedding all sorrow through tears, Cleona hugged the stiff body and soon her consciousness gradually disappeared along with the arrival of Clara, who was no less hysterical.