Rapa & Cleona: Keeping the Heart
41. For Your Sakes I Am Soaking Sick

Queen ♥

1 Week ago

Bang, sorry Queen who might have let your brother down.

I'm sorry to make you angry by ending up hating Queen.

But you have to know that what you are accusing is not true.

Queen never betrayed you.

Queen ♥

2 Days ago

Mommy's gone, Bang

Leaving the Queen for good

Queen needs a brother, brother,

Queen needs a brother's hug

Queen needs a backrest. Queen isn't that strong to accept this reality, Bang.

Is it okay for Queen to ask for all that, when you actually hate Queen?

But can the Queen be selfish, wanting a brother to be next to the Queen at the moment?

Is that so much hate, brother, because of Queen's mistake the other day?

Brother why hasn't he come yet? Queen realized, maybe Queen's mistake is not easy to forgive, but what should Mami also be his impingement?

For the last time, Mami must also expect the presence of a brother, at least for the sake of Mami, Abang came to take Mami's departure until her final resting place.

Queen could not bear, Bang saw Mami in the cucumber by the ground, Queen wanted to accompany Mami in there.

Rapa did not think that his anger the other day even backfired for himself, he was too close to his eyes because of his disappointment in the betrayal of the lover. But can he regret it now?

The message Cleona had been sending for a few days had just been read after two days of Luna's departure. And that of course he did not read all, because so much, plus he really could not, the tears of regret did not stop flowing, Rapa really felt stupid! If at that time his phone is not turned off and he takes it everywhere as usual, maybe regret it will not be too he felt.

Now that it's all for nothing, his regrets are no longer useful. Her queen no longer even cared about her existence.

Maybe at this time Rapa had to put aside her ego and let Alvin be beside Cleona, hugging her girl even though her heart was clearly unwilling. But at least it's better, Alvin can calm his grieving lover. For the sake of the Queen, he was willing to take pain.

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Luna's departure has passed almost a month, but the sadness is still real. Leo who used to be a tile turned into quiet, busy themselves with work or daydreaming staring at the photo of the wife, who unknowingly tears it back metes wet the cheeks and heart.

The house that was usually crowded with shouts, jokes and laughter now turned quiet like it was uninhabited. Cleona who also became quiet more often locked himself in the room, even until now the girl is still reluctant just to go to school. The sadness was clear and heavy.

Unlike Leo and Cleona, the young Laura can actually be more rigid and accept the departure of the mother with a spacious chest. Not because she was not sad to lose the figure of the mother who had given birth and raised her, but she knew that her mother in heaven there would not be happy to see her departure in tears.

Since long ago his mother always taught him to be a strong child, a strong child and not easily give up. Can be said, Luna used to ask him to be more independent. Of course this makes Laura feel that her parents are unfair, the older Cleona is allowed to be spoiled while she is required to grow up where her age is even still far reaching.

But now Laura understood, her mother knew that the usual spoiled Cleona would rebel when affection was no longer in her possession. That childish Cleona won't understand. And her mom knew that Laura was different. So, since the Doctor confirmed that he was suffering from Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy which is nothing but a heart disorder, Luna had started preparing for it, preparing for the worst that would happen to him in the future.

Leo himself did not even tell Luna from the beginning, the reason was because he did not want to make the people closest to him sad for too long, he said, Luna did not want to worry everyone including her son and husband and everyone who loved her.

The honesty Luna gave once she felt she could not survive, at least to Leo and his parents. While the children are not allowed to know.

Can you imagine as hard as Leo, who had not realized that his wife was not okay? Can you imagine how sad and angry Leo is when honesty is not his wife said? Offending about life is not something that anyone can take for granted. Leo wanted to be angry, but what he wanted more was to get his wife healed and to last another hundred years. But anyone knows that destiny cannot be changed, His provision is already the final decision, and as a human being only has to accept it even if it is not there.

“You should take me, Lun. Don't you know that I can't live without you?” Leo who was sitting on the edge of the bed spoke to the photo of Luna he was holding.

While Laura who was standing watched the sadness of the papi had shed her tears, added with the old man's words that really made her angry.

“Do I have to die too, so I can go back with you? Continuing our love that I never wanted to end.”

“What is papi aware of what papi said just now?!” snapped Laura approached the papi who was currently looking over. His anger could no longer be saved by that selfish-sounding remark. “If papi goes after Mami, then who is Priela? Queen sister how? Don't you realize what our fate is without you?!”

Lyra, Clara and Pandu who were in the middle room immediately approached as soon as a commotion sounded. Cleona who initially did not care and was too tired to step was finally approached with in the papah Alvin, barged into Luna-Leo's room and witnessed how angry Laura was at the papi who was staring with sadness.

“Not only the sad papi, not only did Sister Queen lose, Priela also felt it all, but don't you think the torment of Mami in the afterlife there? Didn't you think how painful Mami was to see you crying over her departure?”

Cleona who had been crying since then immediately hugged her sister. Never thought that Laura who was still sitting on the SD bench actually already had thoughts up to there, he did not expect the sister who often irritated him could be this loud. Hiding the sadness alone, unlike her who can only cry and shut herself up.

“Don't you realize we still need you? If papi can't live without mami, then what do you think, Priela and Kak Queen can live without you?” Laura completely spilled it all out, spilling her grief and anger. Not because of hate, but rather a sense of annoyance due to his feelings that do not come in thought.

“Sorry Papi, dear, sorry that Papi ignored your existence. Sorry Papi was selfish. Sorry!” leo hugged his two children with regret.

What his son said was true, he still had Cleona and Laura who needed his attention, needed affection and needed a parent figure that would ensure his growth. His wife will not be happy if until she neglects his flesh and blood, therefore Leo must be strong, he must continue to survive for the sake of his children.

“I promise I will take care of our children, Lun, raising them with what love and affection you always say. Go in peace, I sincerely.”