Rapa & Cleona: Keeping the Heart
49. Should have been me

Finished parking his car, Rapa entered the cafe owned by Chiko which is currently so crowded by visitors considering this is the night of the week, because on Saturday nights and weeks like this the owner always holds live music. Rapa had occasionally filled events to just fill empty time or indeed because of the coercion of his friends.

There is no need to wander to find the whereabouts of his other friends, because Rapa already clearly knows where they are, Chiko has always prepared a place for them to gather. And therefore, regardless of the surroundings Rapa went straight into the kitchen and asked to make coffee, after which he went upstairs, to meet his other friends.

“Rap, really you want to stay married to a lo girl?” Akbar immediately asked as soon as Rapa's whereabouts were seen.

Daniel, Dava and Chiko immediately turned their heads and looked curiously, while Nino casually commented on the smile, not caring that Rapa had already cast a murderous gaze.

“Who is Cleona married to? It must be very lucky for that guy to get a Cleo,” kayak angel, Daniel said staring at the open window, looking up, while imagining Cleona who stood in the mop with the lucky man.

“Ck! My nysel came here!” rapa's snort then threw her body on the sofa.

The five handsome men stared at each other for a while, before then turning to Rapa who looked lethargic and chaotic. Seeing the turmoil of his best friend was not for the first time, but somehow now Rapa even looks increasingly desperate, making them pity and also concerned.

“Do not worry, Rap, there are still many girls who are more everything than Cleona. Better now you move on. He was able to escape lo, yes you want gini aja?” said Dava who then got a sharp delicacy from Rapa.

“Speaking is easy, but very difficult to do. You know for yourself how much I love Queen."

The five can no longer argue, Rapa's love is indeed that big, and they understand that it is not easy to forget, moreover, Cleona is the first love for a handsome man who later often melow it. And hearing the news that his beloved girl is getting married, of course, becomes the hardest blow for Rapa who today looks as if she is reluctant to live.

For almost six years it was evident that Cleona was the one Rapa wanted, although many women came to her, but not the slightest bit of feeling was shaky, even some women were Daniel, who was a woman, Chiko and Nino offer a lot of times.

“Let's down, the live music has to start, but the band I invited was late he said. So you fill it first,” invite Chiko to pull Rapa who just follows with resignation.

Lazily, Rapa went up on stage and grabbed her guitar, followed by Nino who then sat next to her, greeting the visitors for pleasantries, and, while Rapa down visitors Cafe owned by Chiko hinga motion his eyes stopped in the corner of the room.

Not for how many times since this morning his heart rang kretek and throbbing pain to see the figure he really wants to avoid at this time. Their eyes met and locked for a while and the little smile the woman gave, before turning away and busily returning with her partner.

Pranks. The sound of shards opening from the glass was heard, suffocating Rapa's chest.

Maybe if in a better situation, the smile will look beautiful and make him fall in love more. But now it feels painful and makes it even more hurt.

Nino will ask Rapa to get off the stage, because she feels unbearable. But his best friend had already strummed his guitar, to cause a soft melody and make Cafe visitors turn towards the stage. The atmosphere that was originally quite crowded now became quiet, as everyone focused on watching Rapa's appearance.

I'm not happy

...

Rapa's gaze could not be separated from the beautiful figure of Cleona who was currently watching her as well. Their eyes locked onto each other, and Rapa missed the beautiful woman so much. The song that Rapa sings now seems to represent her feelings, where she is not at all happy to see her ex-lover happy with a man other than herself.

I should have been there

...

Isn't it natural that Rapa would sing this time? Anyone knew that her love for Cleona had never diminished, perhaps growing more and more with each passing day, even though the beautiful figure had once disappeared from her sight. But his love is never lost for the heart.

...

What you should have chosen was not him...

Rapa finished her song along with tears that were dripping without her asking, she said, fortunately, he quickly lowered his head to the possibility that the circle was not seen by Cafe visitors including Cleona and Alvin who became one of the visitors, and watched his appearance.

Boisterous applause sounded earthy and cheers were cheering tonight, although it could be seen many of them wiping the corners of his eyes, who may be touched by the song that Rapa brought tonight, because after all Rapa sang it while living it with emotion.

If usually he would end his performance with a big smile towards the audience, this time of course he could not do, because honestly he wanted to cry as hard as he could, she said, shouting on this stage expressed his heart that was currently filled with wounds and disappointed, if only the shame did not have him.

Rapa put the guitar she had used before stepping off the stage and handed the rest to Nino. He was unable to speak, his tears could no longer hold him, and to cry in public like this was certainly not the right decision.

Maybe everyone thinks that Rapa is too lovable and crybaby, it's because you're not in her current position, everyone won't know how she feels and whatever people say to her, not at all want Rapa to ignore, because in reality Rapa is indeed weak if it is about Cleona.