
This story contains sliced onions. So please don't protest.
From
this story, a lot about Azka that tells about her pain
which he himself has said Azka's heart which he never showed
to Nagita.
Alexi Reynand, son
from Azka and Nagita. Five years have passed so quickly, relationship
they were still married because Azka never consented
nagita's request for divorce. He never made any trouble either
until nothing could make Nagita sue him.
Five
years were a very long time he lived during his tormented life
by his own feelings. visited his son and wife a week
once, even he sometimes did not visit because he never could
go straight to Nagita. There was a longing that tormented him in the heart
but he never revealed.
Azka's attitude turned cold again because he did not know what to do again if dealing with Nagita.
Di
his study, at one in the morning, Azka struggled with
his job is to live apart from Nagita and Reynand makes it
always misses his son. Nagita lives in her gift house,
he lived in his parents' house and went crazy to work
to divert his heartache from up to this time of war
the cold is not finished.
One day I was tired of being myself, forgetting the responsibility I had to protect my happiness.
It is precisely I who destroyed them to this day.in the end
this, I torment myself with unimportant busyness
just to shift my sense of longing, what this way was your idea for
slowly destroying me? You want to escape, but I don't
able to comply. You said you wanted to be free, then I didn't
being able to continue to be in this kind of self-torturing situation.
I'm trying to hold on, you still want to leave.
Azka stood on the balcony of her room while sipping her cigarette that had been exhausted no matter how many sticks.
I
want to quit my job and move on with you.
Defend you in my own way in order to return. My efforts never
you appreciate it again, when someone chooses to settle down, you are
there are many ways that the feeling disappears. I'm a dumb man on
generally, have pain and also love that is never all
people know that I want to stay with you.
Criings
Criings
“Ck, who called me at midnight like this?”
Azka
turn off his cigarette and grab his cell phone that's on his desk.
The figure of Nagita's name just appeared on the screen of his phone with weight.
his heart answered him because there was no way Nagita would contact him if
not important.
“Halo?” said cold.
“Can come here? Rey's sick, she called your name from earlier,”
Azka
hung up on her just like that, right, that Nagita contacted her
for something very important. The only thing that makes them
settled to this day is Rey, their son.
She grabbed a hoodie in the closet and put it on.
Azka out of the room, “Where are you going to midnight like this?”
“Rey is sick, Ma. Nagita phone just now, Mama what's here?”
“Mama just to see you're asleep or not. Because you often do not take care of your health,”
“I'm leaving, Ma,”
“Azka, you be careful not to speed!”
How
how to restore the heart of someone who has been disappointed? Meet
with you will only make me slammed by longing, longing
hugged you. Take you to comfort, embrace you, and let you
feel what this heart feels.
Lord
punishing me in this way, together but unable to
hugging each other, hurting each other that's what we do. Pretending to
fine for the sake of making one heart happy, namely the baby.
Don't
continue to avoid pain, the more avoidance, all will be felt
harder. Facing, with a heart that feels very bitter, with,
looking at you I'm sick. Your smile that used to be extinguished just like that when I was present
revert.
When with others, you
able to laugh so loosely. But with me, the smile and laughter disappeared
instantaneous. If only you would spend a minute with me,
I'll tell you about my pain that keeps wanting you.
When
it has survived but still the conscience is not heard. Perhaps
parting is the best option, because even together, never each other.
say hello, together, never see each other. We passed each other one
same other.
If the reason you survived is
because of him, then the reason I survived is because of you. Then, he.
Is there a chance to repeat? I miss when it was just me
who witnessed the beautiful smile on your lips. I miss when I'm the only one
able to see your eyeballs moving and closed in front of my eyes.
I miss the little hands that always hold me when I'm tired.
Azka
into his house and felt sad when he saw the son
his beloved lay weakly with a small towel attached to the
child's forehead. There, there was a woman he was trying to forget.
But the more he wanted to forget, the more his heart hurt. Meet, but
it just passes like nothing.
New
only when he gets there, Nagita gets out of Reynand's bed and wants
leave him. Azka's hand restrains Nagita. “Just a minute, I
please, for Rey's sake!”
Until when do you keep going
just avoid. We are human beings who hurt each other without any
desire to repair. We are hearts that always want
looks strong, but no one knows that we almost died holding back
pain that is hard to explain.
“I'm going,”
“Nagita!”
The woman stopped, “Just a moment, for Rey!”
Nagitas
stop and go back to sitting on the edge of the bed, dressed in clothes
his sleep. Azka still saw his wife so charming. Nagita Age 24
the more mature they look, the more they are ten years old.
desire to marry. Now, his desire to be together
it is a hope he is eager to reach.
“Daddy!”
“Daddy is here, Rey, sorry just came. What hurts, hm?” Azka stroked Reynand's still-covered head.
”Rey peeper Daddy same Mommy sleep beside Re. all this time Daddy is always busy working, do not stay Rey again Daddy, hiks,”
Utterance
it was heartbreaking for Azka, all this time she pretended to be busy working only
to avoid Nagita. He could not resist his longing for
his wife, about Rey, really loves her son now. Five
years go by in a way that should look fine up ahead
Reynand, so that his son does not know the cold war they are living in
now it's.
“Nagita, for Rey,”
Nagita kept shaking. “Rey, there's Daddy, Mommy out huh, baby?”
“Rey wants both of you, don't want to be the same Daddy,”
Azka
seeing Nagita resigned and immediately lying on Reynand's bed, he also
following his son's desire to stay there. Azka's Heart
really should be bombarded with pain often met with
Nagita and Rey.
“Rey Bay, Mom, Dad,”
Both
look at Rey when she says that. Azka pulled the blanket
to cover his body. He hugged Rey right above
nagita's hand. The woman was about to extend her hand, but Azka
hold it. “Please, this time only. for Rey.”'s sake
Flavored
what pain you feel until your heart is petrified and never wants to
staring at me? Is there no chance to make you happy? What
only I can feel this pain while you are
the director for all the pain he's created?
What
how do you feel when I'm in front of you like this? are
just a little bit of your attention, which used to be gone. Lost together
thousands of pain. For years we've been through all this with
falsehood. During that time I had to be the one to accept the child
the arrows continue to rain down on my chest. Tight, when you think I don't exist.
Azka
hugging her son, for the first time after Rey was born they slept
threes. Until he was five years old, there was never one word
even the ones said to come back.
Azka didn't want to
talked too much with Nagita, because she always
firm on his stance is to ask for a divorce.
******
Next
the next day, the three of them were still sleeping in a state of hugging Rey who
still asleep. Rey's fever had started to drop last night, but Azka chose to
stay to look after his son.
That morning, Azka opened her eyes slowly, opening her eyes many times this felt like a dream to her.
Stare
the sweet face and serenity inside Nagita made her feel homesick
for five years, Azka continued to feel the pain
in him who can't reach Nagita.
Realizing Nagita is starting to move. Azka let go of her embrace.
Azka rushed to the bathroom to clean herself up.
When she is finished, Azka steps down from Rey's room and meets Nagita in the living room.
“So
when will you fulfill my request? Isn't all that a requirement
I've done it, from living in this house, to letting you
meet with our son. When will you comply with my request Azka?”
Azka fell silent and clenched her fist. He looked towards Nagita.
“Ence
again you ask to part ways, I will follow, Nagita!” heed
it was cold and looked at the woman with great desire to attack. His emotions
it was built so early by Nagita.
He rushed out of the house.
*******
Tak
I wonder how long Nagita has been holding back from staying
together with Reynand, in Azka's giving house. Requirements for Azka to want
parting ways is that they both have to live in the house.
rey's five years old. Azka never dropped talak to
Nagitas.
Rey has a fever, just keeps calling names
Azka. Inevitably Nagita was forced to contact Azka because it was
what he had to do to get his son to sleep.
Stare
Azka who had just come in a sad state. Lately Nagita
realizing that Azka's attitude was back to what it used to be, which was cold.
Heartless.
Rey asked them both
to sleep and hug Rey. Even though he actually wanted to refuse. But
Nagita can't resist her son's wishes, given that Rey
being ill.
Until one morning, when Azka came down from Rey's room.
“So
when will you fulfill my request? Isn't all that a requirement
I've done it, from living in this house, to letting you
meet with our son. When will you comply with my request Azka?”
Nagitas
looking into Azka's eyes was very fixed. There was anger in her husband's eyes
and Azka's hand was clenched. Nagita also looked at Azka
tightens jaws.
“Once again you ask to part ways, I will follow, Nagita!”
Nagitas
smothering his mouth when Azka said so, perhaps a question
he had thrown it a hundred times, but Azka never did
want to separate.
He understands that
all this time the pain was comparable and wanted to part with Azka.
But until now Nagita never found the expression of Azka
like earlier.
Nagita was still frozen in the living room and stared at Azka's drowned back out of their house.
What
what should I do when we can't be together? my heart has already
choosing to end, but looking at you like this makes me
I feel like a stupid woman who doesn't know how
loves. I don't know if it's love and hate. I hate having to
admit that I love and hate you.