Sacred No Longer Sacred
Chapter 52 (A suicide attempt )
Papa Fadil was devastated when he learned that Suci was his biological daughter, but Oma Rahma tried to strengthen Papa Fadil to be strong and tried to sincerely accept everything.
"Fadil, Mama knows that this must be hard for you, but now you must try to be sincere, because now Erina has received punishment for her actions. We must also keep all these truths a secret from Arya, because Mama is sure that Arya will definitely be even more devastated if she knows everything. Especially indirectly, Arya has become the cause of death of her own biological mother," said Oma Rahma.
Papa Fadil was so sorry for everything, especially that Papa Fadil had a chance to speak a no-no because everyone cared more about Suci.
"Why do we know all the truth now Ma? Fadil regretted not being given the opportunity to make Fadil's biological child happy. Pity the Holy, for from the moment he was born into this world, the Saints have suffered. It's all Fadil Ma's fault, if Fadil hadn't told Erina that if Fadil wanted the first boy, it probably wouldn't have happened like this, and Fadil won't lose Fadil's son."
"Son, now that Suci has calmed down in nature there, and we must sincerely let go."
"Maybe all this was a punishment for Fadil, because by the time Fadil found out who Fadil's real son was, God had already taken the Son of Fadil. Forgive Papa Nak, forgive Papa," said Papa Fadil with continued crying.
Oma Rahma continued to try to strengthen Papa Fadil, because regret was no longer useful.
"Fadil, we must not regret what has happened, because it has become a sign of destiny. However, we must try not to make mistakes in the future" said Oma Rahma by patting Papa Fadil on the shoulder.
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When entering his room, Arya's eyes were fixed on a frame of his photo together with Suci and Rizky, and Arya immediately took the photo and then hugged it tightly.
"Darling, why did you give me such a severe punishment? I would not be able to live without you Saints. We haven't been separated for a day, but it feels like we haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss you so much, baby, I hope we'll see you soon" Arya muttered.
Arya was struck by the idea of ending her life, because Arya thought if she died, she would soon meet with Saints.
At this time Arya seemed to hear a whisper to end her life, but Arya also heard another whisper if ending life is a major sin that God will not forgive, and death is the beginning of life is not the end of life, even if Arya died Arya could not possibly meet with Saints, because Arya will definitely go to Hell if she dies by suicide.
"I'd better catch up with you now, baby, so we can be together again soon" murmured Arya who had darkened her eyes, then took the cutter out of the drawer, and then took it from the drawer, because Arya was about to attempt suicide by cutting her veins.
Just now Arya put a knife on her wrist, suddenly Arya heard Rizky's cry so tight, that it made Arya realize if what she did was wrong.
"Astagfirullah, strengthen the heart of the servant O Allah," said Arya, then put back her cutter knife into the drawer, and rushed to take Rizky from the baby box.
"Dear thanks, Rizky has saved Papa from a big sin" said Arya by crying hugging Rizky's body.
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In the afternoon, at the residence Argadana held the first tahlil event Suci, but Mama Erina continued to rampage when the tahlil event was held.
"My son isn't dead yet, why are you holding a tahlil event?" mama Erina shouted, thus making all those who were there feel surprised, because as far as they knew Saints was her Son-in-law.
Everyone present at the tahlil event was heard whispering, and they were talking about the incident earlier this afternoon when Bu Rita scolded Mama Erina.
"It looks like Mrs Erina has committed a great crime against her late Son-in-law, so Madame Erina to such depression" whispered one of Mama Erina's neighbors.
Papa Fadil and Arya bring Mama Erina into the room, and Papa Fadil asks Ustad who is leading the event to continue his tahlil event.
"Sir Ustad, please continue his tahlil event, sorry because I have to take my wife to the room first," said Papa Fadil, then rushed to bring Mama Erina into the room.
Arya and Papa Fadil continue to try to calm Mama Erina, even Arya hugged Mama Erina's body tightly.
"Ma, Arya please don't be like this. Not only Mama who felt the loss of Saints, even Arya felt more loss of wife and Mother of the Son of Arya."
Mama Erina suddenly pushes Arya's body so that Arya slumps on the floor.
"You will never know what it's like to lose our biological child, and I haven't even had time to apologize to my child" Mama Erina said.
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Aryan's heart stopped beating when she heard Mama Erina's words.
"Ma, what do you mean by Mama?" arya asked with teary eyes.
Mama Erina just kept quiet without answering Arya's questions, and Mama Erina again took the doll that she considered as Sacred.
"Holy darling, now what will the Saints eat? let Mama bribe Suci yes," said Mama Erina with a smile and occasionally crying.
Papa Fadil decides to take Arya out of her room, and after locking the door so that Mama Erina does not run away, Papa Fadil invites Arya to sit down, because at this time Arya is still silent.
"Son, Arya don't listen to what Mama says, Doctor says Mama has a psychiatric disorder, so Mama talks slacking off. Maybe Mama really regretted her actions against Saints, so Mama continued to be haunted by guilt," said Papa Fadil.
"But Pa, Mama's attitude is like a Mother who lost her Son, Mama looks very regretful of everything. Is it possible if Arya is actually an adopted Son, while Saints is but the biological Son of Mama and Papa?"
Papa Fadil seems to think, because Papa Fadil does not want if Arya to know all the truth.
"Arya said what? where it may be like that, Son, Arya is the biological child of Papa and Mama, while Suci is our daughter-in-law," said Papa Fadil by hugging Arya's body which currently looks very fragile.
Forgive Holy Papa, Papa still can't acknowledge you as Papa's biological child. Although we still do not have any evidence, but Papa is very sure if you are Papa's flesh and blood, because Oma's words you are right, if the heart can never be lied to, he said, inner Papa Fadil.
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