SERUNI
Chapter 2 Continuing School
Seruni straightened her body, rubbing the clear fur that soaked her cheeks. "Mas Satria impregnated another woman, Well," said the woman with a trembling voice and a stifled sob. Clearly, he was trying to brace himself in the middle of the storm.
Subroto immediately stood up, his facial lines hardened, his hands clenched perfectly. Subroto was angry and disappointed in himself. No matter how hard he kept Seruni's heart, it ultimately failed as well. Seruni still felt pain and disappointment because of other men who had trusted him.
"Cry as much as you are now. But remember, your life still has to go on. You must be strong Ser, don't let those who betray you feel like what they do is worth you. Prove it! You don't break easily. If your heart hurts, let it know." Subroto took a deep breath. Muffled his own emotions that were almost overflowing.
"Don't bring your eyes to feel. Seruni son father. Remember that! Soldiers may be shot and bleed, but do not wipe the wound while the enemy is still there, drag your body even though the wound is getting gaping, do not let their feet step on our helpless body. Do not give up as long as life is still in the body. Keep moving-away-looking for gaps to heal wounds, then back to attack them for our victory and honor!" subroto continued the fiery.
Subroto is not a mother who can be calm full of gentleness to say soft words to calm her child's heart. Subroto does the best version of himself. A little harsh for others, but it was common for Seruni.
"Let Seruni apply for duty in the area, Well," said Seruni. For the umpteenth time, the request was made.
"Ser, don't make decisions when your own heart doesn't know what it's feeling. Do not do anything when you are in doubt. Take your time alone for a moment. Silence does not mean not moving. Think carefully. Life in the area is not easy. The profession of a doctor is more difficult to accept than a soldier. They believe more in shamans and healers or the forces of nature than a doctor" Subroto said.
"No Dad, Seruni felt this was the best. It is time for Seruni to truly serve the earth. Let Seruni serve the land. Seruni also wants to have a proud story that can be told to the children of Seruni later. Seruni, wants to be like father. Seruni wants to be close to nature with people who are only preoccupied with needs, not desires" said Seruni. Although his voice was still trembling, there was not the slightest hesitation from the look on his face.
Subroto did not answer. The man chose to think for a moment. Not once twice did Seruni ask her permission to apply for duty in the area. But Subroto is still heavy to take off the princess just wayang far from him. Only the Seruni of precious and priceless treasures that Subroto had in the world. However, it was unfair that he continuously held back Seruni's steps to pursue his dream.
"Alright, I'm blessing you, Ser. Take good care of yourself. Do your best for our country. Don't demand revenge for your services, don't expect material things. Let the universe repay your kindness. Do not try to sell your profession just for its own sake. Every life is precious. Make me even more proud of you, son," Subroto said as he patted Seruni on the shoulder. Not rubbing hair like the treatment of fathers to daughters in general.
Seruni hugged her father tightly. "Thank you, Seruni will never disappoint you."
Subroto returned the embrace of his only puppet princess. No more words were spoken from the lips of both. Silence ...they seemed to exchange feelings and thoughts in silence. This heartbreak doesn't just belong to Seruni. Deep down, Subroto's heart was more and more broken when he saw his son's tears fall for crying over a man's betrayal.
Subroto's heavy breathing, signalling how much he thought the matter was not trivial. Feeling failed because they cannot take care of Seruni's heart properly. At times like now, Subroto felt that what he was doing was not enough. Maybe Seruni needs someone more gentle, which can make Seruni evaporate and spill her feelings without hesitation and embarrassment.
The old man realized, in front of him Seruni always tried hard as he always showed. But women are still women, sometimes it takes a slashing cry and thrashing to remove all the burden on the chest.
There is no one more hurt than a father who saw his beloved daughter hurt. This was all Seruni could do to not add any sadness to his father's face. Stop crying, pretend to be tough and take big steps for her life.
Subroto stretched out their embrace, then he patted Seruni's arm gently. "Suchlasse! Thank God for showing us sooner - Knights are not good men. Someday, God will surely give you a much better soul mate" entertained Subroto.
The sincerity for the current Seruni is to accept reality by force. And over time, the forced will become accustomed.
Seruni slightly forced her smile. Breathe in deeply and breathe out slowly. Trying to smile, remind yourself that it's not just you who's ever felt a wound. The earth is still spinning. The clock ticks are still moving as usual. Above the sky, the moon also reflects sunlight as usual.
The sky is also blue. Even if it's a little gray, it's because of the cloudiness that is disturbing. Whether blue, gray or orange. The sky is still the sky. Need a little head up to be able to see the breadth perfectly. That's how Seruni would judge him. Not arrogant, in fact only a shadow that we get if we continue to look down.
"Would you like to be placed in what area Ser?" subroto asked, leading Seruni to sit on the sofa.
"The people want it in the border area Yah. It must be nice to be in the area around the boundary. Front page of our country. The main homepage of a country, but sometimes even neglected its development. They are no strangers to other countries, but are alienated from their own. Seruni wanted to know, whether it was true that the love of the homeland there was so rare." Seruni replied without hesitation.
"Alright, I can only pray. Focus on your work, do not interfere with other things that you cannot reach. There are things that for us are wrong and not commonplace, but there it is considered ordinary. All because of the demands of life. We can't be too hard on him. They don't know the state rules. Is that a country? they do not know and do not want to know. Always use your conscience, forward humanity." said Subroto, Seruni nodded his head to understand.
"Thank you Dad. Thank you for everything you gave to Seruni. Sorry if Seruni disappointed me, sorry because Seruni chose the wrong mate. Sorry to make you sad. Sorry have not been able to repay the slightest happiness that you have given so far." said Seruni so sad and sincere.
"Dad doesn't like the words Sorry Ser, let alone that much. Apologizing is good, but too often apologizing shows your inability to respect others. Save that apology, let your attitude prove your sincerity!" subroto said, very firmly.
That's how he talks to Seruni. No wonder, despite being an only child, it was so difficult to find the spoiled side of the woman.
Seruni rushed to her feet as soon as she heard the sound of a car stopping in front of her unfenced yard. Before long the doorbell rang, Seruni and Subroto both walked towards their main door. Quickly, Seruni opened the object before the second bell rang. Instantly Seruni's face turned cynical.