Sharing Love: She's My Husband
Chapter 19

The atmosphere in the middle room became tense, Kayla who was surprised to hear the sound of amih yelling, crying. She said, Mala carried her and took her to her room.

" Mrs Najwa .sorry, but we better leave this business to them, let them decide !" Mother's Advice.

" If it depended on them, they would not go on a honeymoon, then Hasbi and Mala's relationship would forever be like this. They're husband and wife, but Hasbi treats her like a babysitter who's just babysitting Kayla !"

" Amih knows not to interfere but amih can not be silent to see Mala always crying alone, pity Mala. "

" That's right, there's no need to interfere. Mala already knew the risks when she was going to marry me ! I told him I have a wife, and children, I love my wife very much too, I also said that I would treat her like a friend . She already knew that .she knew the risk if she married me. What to expect from marrying a married man !" Hasbi spoke out loudly taking out everything she harbored.

" Happiness ! even now I have no happiness.Mala cried alone, then what about Fathi ? she also cried alone. I know that even though he smiles his heart is hurt. I have to how amih, with whoever I am, I will eventually still hurt them ! I never imagined my life would be like this !" continue Hasbi.

"Amih.please amih ! tell me how to keep no one from getting hurt from this marriage. I've been thinking about this all the time, but I can't find the answer ! " Hasbi let out her tears.

" Mas.istigfar mas, If you ask the destiny that God has laid down, then you will never find the answer. Don't question destiny but just live it ! Accept good and bad qadar . Sometimes it feels heavy and painful, we return it all to God. How God finally solved all these problems, it was the best. Just live the destiny mas in accordance with His provisions . Be a husband to Mala not just a friend !" Fathi tried to calm Hasbi down and advise her.

" I'm sorry .I'm sorry Fathi, I'm indeed a jerk husband I've hurt you. Sorry ." Hasbi hugged Fathi and cried.

" I have to how ? can I turn Fathi's time around ?"

" No mas.alah mas.don't like this ! I'm fine, we're fine ..trust me all this pain will pass !" Fathi took off Hasbi's embrace and looked at her face .

" How ? how does it pass ? another 10 or 50 years is the same, you are my wife and I will always be in the wrong position !"

" Then let go ! let go of the one that is your burden !" Fathi fell silent and looked at the teary-eyed Hasbi.

"let go of me mas.I am your biggest burden !" Hasbi is back in Fathi.

" No.what are you saying ! don't be Fathi.don't leave me, or I'll die. Forgive me for hurting you, don't leave me. I love you Fathi, I love you "Hasbi tightened her arms.

" Fathi take Hasbi to your room, rest. Let Hasbi calm down first don't say much about what else to say about the breakup .Calm yourself first, pray that your hearts are calm. Dad and mom go home first ."

" Yes father ..sorry you have to see all this, Fathi is fine you don't have to worry. Be careful on the road well.bun, sorry can't usher ahead ."

" Yes ..dad understands you've gone take Hasbi to room !" Fathi nodded, and passed away with Hasbi who was still holding her.

" Mrs Najwa, I beg you not to press them, their condition is not good at the moment, their marriage is fractured because someone forced their way in . If not careful acting this marriage can be destroyed not only 1 even to 3 can be slumped !" Father says.

" Yes bu Najwa, let alone Hasbi as a husband who loved his wife very much, who always kept his feelings and always tried to make Fathi happy, suddenly indirectly had to be forced to hurt his wife. He must be very much in Najwa's dilemma. Think of the 3 feelings here, not just 1, not just Mala !" Silence does not respond to mother's words.

" Okay, ma'am Najwa, excuse me, thank you for the invitation. Please think carefully about what we said ! Assalamu'alaikum "Pak Kamil and Bu Siti go home.

Mala listened to everything . He sat on a pensive bed and shed tears. He wiped his tears.

" Why does everything feel hard but Fathi is so tough . If I became Fathi maybe I would have wanted a divorce for a long time or forced Mas Hasbi to divorce his second wife or I would have tortured a second wife so that she herself would have chosen to step down. But Fathi is different he wants to make peace with me, make a deal with me and advise Hasbi to do his duty to me, what his heart is made of" muttered Mala.

I'll talk to Amih later not to press Hasbi's mas, kill him.

While in Fathi's room. Hasbi is sleeping while continuing to embrace Fathi .He did not want to let go especially after Fathi said to be released. No. Surely he would never let go of Fathi.

" Fathiyah.. do you really want me to be the real husband for Mala ? Is it because I don't want to do that with Mala that you want to separate from me ?"

Fathi silently did not answer because she was not willing, but it was her husband's duty. He wanted to split up because he didn't want to be polygamous . Fathi did not answer he only shed tears.

" If that's what you want, if it's gonna keep you by my side, then I'll give you !"

Hasbi got up and got out of bed, he was going to Mala's room.

Fathi silently watched Hasbi.he was crying as Hasbi would open the door. Fathi immediately got up and pulled Hasbi's hand.

" No mas.. no. I have to how mas... this torments me !" Fathi cried. Hasbi hugged him they sat on the floor staring at each other.

" O Allah forgive me, it is very difficult to willingly allow him to associate with my honey.I'm sorry O Allah, guide me, strengthen me." Inward Fathi.

Hasbi deciphered her decoction she wiped away Fathi's tears..

" Ssh.don't cry.you know my heart hurts to see you cry, especially because of me. I wouldn't betray you, you know I love you so much. Even though Mala's my wife you know why I married her. I'll never touch her Fathi ..just you !"

" sst ..mas don't talk like that please !"

" Okay.. !"

Hasbi then kissed both of Fathi's eyelids alternately . then he kissed Fathi's right cheek, nose and lastly the pink lip.

Hasbi held Fathi and kissed her again.

Fathi was in his lap. The activity continues..

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