Shean & Jenny
Storms and Memories About It

At 10 pm, we leave Atelier to go home, not to forget also some parcels containing cakes made by Mr. Sudirman we bring to the house.

It feels good to live among good people, to make life more positive, without thinking about what they will do to me in the future.

As before, I tried to hang out with some people while still an early semester student. Instead of becoming familiar, it turned out that they were just using me.

From that moment on, I no longer trusted anyone.

“Shean us first then. You're okay to go home alone?” ask Jenny's dad.

“Quiet Sir, I've ordered ojek online”.

“Thank you, it's all thanks to you. You said if I helped you a lot, right?, actually, unconsciously you also helped me and Jenny a lot. So don't look down on you too much, I'm sure, one day you can make Jenny” happy that sentence has always been the main advice he told me even since he first met Mr. Renaldy.

“Lain times stop by the house yes Shean.” he got in the car.

“Die on the road yes dear.” message me to Jenny.

“Sure, you also ya”.

“Dahhh.”.

For a moment, I forgot all about my work and everything about what I did, I was really happy when I was able to get a beautiful woman, her father was very kind and blessed our relationship. Years of living without the affection of parents made me forget the warmth of family.

And the figure of his father Jenny gave it to me when I was growing up, although still awkward but I could enjoy all the moments, all the chatter and advice, he said, as a form of parental love for a child.

It was like having a real father. He cared about me, not for college scholarships or just for my relationship with Jenny.

Mr. Renaldy gave me advice about life, how his perspective on the life he lived so far.

Despite all the shortcomings but did not discourage him to change, and I was carried away with the spirit of the old man in pursuing a career and building his own happiness.

Upon arrival at home, I cleaned various kinds of furniture and soak the laundry that has been piled up a week not to clean.not to forget to refill the water and pet cat food.

“Sorry yes, you will often leave me alone..”. I said to Miu.

“Miaw.” He replied, I don't know what he said, maybe protesting because of the often left alone at home or just saying asking for more food rations.

Miu doesn't usually go into my room and lay herself on the bed to the left. I gently stroked her hair that was dense and smooth, the more soundly she fell asleep and snored loudly ‘purrrr purrrr.r.’.

The snoring made me feel comfortable and stimulated my brain to rest and sleep like Miu who now looks sound asleep on her back exposing her distended stomach.

I closed my eyes and tried to think of the wonderful things that happened today. A kiss and a temper that made me even crazier because of it. The longer my consciousness the more blurry then detached from the body to the dreamland that I could not reach the limit where.

I just want to fall asleep tonight.

...----------------...

“Jean!!.. Jean!! Hoi realize.!” Shouts someone calling my name.

Plakkkkkkp.

The hard slap on my right cheek made me fully aware and it looked like blood was pouring from the temple, the whole body was stiff, unbearable pain, he said, I grimaced in pain until Juan, a friend I knew on the ship, pulled me to my feet.

“Come wake... We have to get out of here”. I didn't understand what he was saying, until a collision felt so great, we both slammed into the wall of the ship in the bedroom of the cruisers.

“Argggghhh... My leg!” solid wood beams hit the left leg, the pain and pain felt more and more. But it did not discourage me to wake up to save myself from strange situations.

“Juan.. Juan.. Where are you?” My shout called out his name, I heard the moans of someone not far behind me and I approached him but it was too late “Juan..!!!!! How can this happen!!, Hoi Wake up !!!”. His body had stiffened and blood was flowing from the back of his head from the impact earlier.

“Quick.. Quick...” heard the screams of some people on the deck of the ship.

I forced him to stand up to the ship and leave Juan's body lying on the floor "I'm sorry kawan”.

I struggled to climb the stairs to the deck of the ship, not yet up, suddenly the big waves hit the ship. My body was pushed along with the hard pounding of water.

I drowned in a ship that was getting farther and farther away from the surface. With a remnant of energy I pushed my body up. The pain that was growing in my body no longer ignored, I just wanted to live, I had to live to return to the lap of my beloved Elaine who was waiting for me to come home.

I shook my feet to keep moving to the surface in the middle of the dark night and the storm that kept raging. Cold sea water is weakening me, even to breathe is very difficult.

I think this is the end of the life I have. My mind made the situation worse, it felt like giving up and accepting all of this.

Perhaps fate has led me to die here in this vast sea.

Like there was a subtle whisper in the ear, which kept asking me to fight not to give up on death before trying to fight the strangeness of the whack.

For this time alone I must exert all my abilities in order to reach the surface of the sea in the vast ocean that I do not know where we are now.

The thundering of the storm that struck and the howling of the wind continued to exhale a chill that further aggravated the situation. I was shivering violently, trying to keep waking up so as not to fall asleep.

It was very dangerous that if I fell unconscious, I would definitely die from the cold and no one would help me.

I tried to look around me, maybe there were survivors on the lifeboat, but I never found them, the longer the storm the more intense with the wind that continues to blow making the big waves that roiled hit my body.

No more energy left. The longer I am, the weaker I become helpless.

...----------------...

“Argh.. Heat.. Uhhh” The sun-drenched sting was like about to burn me, I woke up to it and found myself tossed about in the vast ocean.

Throughout the vision I saw no signs of land I could stop by. Now I can only lie on a wooden slab from the wreck of a cruiser. Continuing to drift in uncertain directions.

After being freed from the storm, I now had to think about finding land, because the wet clothes and wounds on my legs and hands were getting worse and worse. Thirst and hunger can I hold, but the right leg seems to be sprained feels pain and pain in the ankle.

“Elaine.. I regret leaving you, really” my monologue in the heat of the sun that is getting stinging and I also fell asleep for the umpteenth time, because the body was weak helpless.

The sound of a bird was heard in the distance, I woke up and squinted at the sound I had heard. Although not very clear but I am sure it is a land that may be very far away. Slowly, I paddled with my right hand towards the land.

Blowing wind and waves also pushed me towards an island, although it took a long time but I managed to touch the land, the, with a step I walked towards the beach covered with white sand there is a shady tree that I can occupy to shelter from the hot sun.

“Where is this actually.” My mind wonders where I am now. Many of the trees that I do not know the type, in addition to the trees that are usually found on the beach there are also large trees that are towering high there in the lush tropical forest that I now incandesce.

Luckily I was able to find a coconut tree that was quite short, driven by thirst and hunger, I tried to climb the coconut trunk and drop 4 grains enough to wet the esophagus that had dried up and itched because there was no water I could drink.

The outer skin of the young coconut is not too thick making it easier for me to tear it with a folding knife that I have, he said, then stab the back of the coconut shell so I can quickly sip water to treat dehydration that makes my head dizzy.

Cold and refreshing in the throat, somehow how many days do not drink also eat. It tastes delicious a little sour but there is still a sweet taste in the coconut water that I drink until it runs out of nothing.

Then I hit it with a stone to eat coconut meat that is still very young. The flesh is soft and textured and also sweet. It's a pleasure, but not enough to relieve hunger, then reopen the other two coconuts.at least today I can get nutrition.

After estimating the conditions and situation, I knew that I was in a tropical region but the exact location I did not know, there was no map and there was only the sun as a pointer to the west and east.

I grabbed a log long enough to help me walk through the forest before nightfall. There is no life but plants and some insects.

I hope there are no wild animals in this forest.

Some time I went through the forest carrying some mushrooms that seemed safe for human consumption, there were herbs and wild berries in red.

I decided to go back to the beach because it was getting dusk, it would be very dangerous to keep walking inside. For now I have to light the fireplace cooking some mushrooms that I picked up in the forest as my dinner menu.

I started the fire by making a bow with shoelaces and twigs that were quite sturdy. The bow is used to drill the part of the wood that I have hollowed first, then insert fine wood fibers to make embers from the friction of the bow in the wood.

Although tired continue to swipe the bow, but this is needed to make embers.the longer friction occurs, the finer fibers will get hotter and produce small coals.

There is a little smoke sign there are embers that have been lit, continued by blowing slowly until it produces fire and which continues to spread burning and wood and also small branches.

This is what I usually do in the forest when I am collecting herbs as medicine that I usually sell to drugstore craftsmen in my country. I never thought, now my skills can be used to survive in the middle of nowhere.

The blazing fire makes my body warm no longer shivering cold due to the weather at night which will certainly be very cold if it gets late.

With the potluck I had found in the forest, I filled my stomach and some young coconuts became drinking water for a while.

The wound on my leg I had to treat first, afraid that it would get bigger. I smoothed out some heart-shaped Heartleaf leaves and also tore off a bit of trouser cloth for the straps.

After that I had to burn the wound that had started to fester an unpleasant smell. Although in doubt, but I have to do, so that the wound dries quickly.

I took the finger-sized wood with the burning embers, hesitating a bit but I had to do this. I quickly stabbed the embers into the wound on my leg.

“Arrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhh” The pain I had never felt before made me limp for a while.

Instantly my mind drifted deep into the days with Elaine in the shack I had on the outskirts of the woods in France. I saw her beautiful smile, as well as a warm kiss when we were about to sleep. I miss those moments, miss all the chatter, miss the scent of her body, I miss everything about her.

After tying the wound with the concoction of Heartleaf leaves, I lay my body on the grass with coconut leaves piled up.

I try to understand the situation and think about tomorrow, at least I have to explore more deeply, in order to find a more suitable place for me to use as a temporary residence. Of course, I also have to find a source of fresh water to drink, because consuming coconut water continuously is not too good for the body.

I don't know how much longer I have to stay in a place like this, only to be able to wait for a miracle to come so that I can be free from the terrible situation that has befallen me since far from Elaine.

All regrets must have come too late, but I had to control my mind to keep trying to go home at all costs.

“Oh Elaine's.. I must have stayed and come home to you”.

...****************...