
Rosa sees her son at all times, because ever since she spoke to him for four eyes and asked him to marry Cici, her only child that day, Candra never again comes out of the room, shutting herself up.
Candra looked at him from the front door of the room. There was no light on his face. Rosa stroked his chest, trying to stay positive thinking, maybe this was only temporary because she was surprised by Melinda's departure.
But her little heart rejected the positive, all these events, what Candra experienced was the result of her actions.
He regretted it, but refused to admit it.
"Son," call Rosa. A big smile is shown for the child.
Candra just turned her head, then looked back at the ceiling. The more days his body grew weaker, there was no energy at all. He really doesn't want to live anymore if there's no Melinda.
"Aren't you going out of the room?" ask again. The food he made specifically for Candra was put on the table. "You didn't eat yesterday, did you? Now eat yuk!" In fact, for days Candra did not enter food at all.
The rest of the water on the table is still almost full, it's a sign that Candra only drank a few sips. Still with the pain in Rosa's heart, she sat down next to where Candra was lying. He stared at the sideburns that began to grow around his son's chin, as well as a mustache that began to grow and not shaved as usual.
"Son, you're sad to see you like this." Rosa unconsciously shed tears. "You can't see you're always locked up and have no hope of living like this."
Still as before, Candra was not in action at all. His gaze was blank and his spirit disappeared without a trace.
"Sorry Mama, yes, son." Rosa stroked Candra's arm softly, hoping that her son would talk to her even if she had only one or two words.
But her hope was futile, Candra did not respond at all. He was quite happy if Candra flushed him, scolded him or whatever, the important thing was to talk to him. But no, Candra chose silence and hid her own heart wound.
"Son, you're the only reason you're alive, so please, when you're done, you're back like the old Candra. Mama's really sorry, 'cause mama, you're like this. Because of my mom, Melinda's gone. It's all mama's fault. Just get angry at mama, you can berate mama, but please don't just shut up."
Candra still remained silent and did not look over. He listened to everything his mother said, but did not want to chim in the words of the woman who gave birth to him.
Still not believing, Melinda who he knew patiently and not strangely could do like that, cheated on him. But he was still not sure if it was Melinda's act, it could be the woman was framed. And unfortunately he rushed his emotions to expel and drop talaq to Melinda.
"Son, mama's really sorry." Rosa hugged Candra before she finally stood up and walked out of Candra's room.
At the door, he turned back and saw Candra. He took a deep breath, then continued his steps. The more regret he felt.
Rosa could only leave the man alone in her room again. He had tried to entertain, even invite her to speak from heart to heart, but still there was no meaningful change.
Day after day passed, now two weeks Candra was like that, and during that time Rosa always comforted also apologized to her son.
He was wrong in this, because this idea originated from him. Unexpectedly, if it turns out that makes Candra lose her soul. Candra's body is still in the world, but her soul is out of nowhere.
"Son, you ate a little, yeah." Rosa held out a piece of bread.
Candra shook her head weakly. "I'm not hungry."
Rosa took a breath. "Your body is getting thinner. How long do you want to be like this?"
"What am I living for, Ma? There's no longer a spirit I live for the only one who understands me is gone." Candra revealed the contents of her heart that she had been quieting.
Because no food and drink entered Candra's body, Rosa was forced to call a doctor so that Candra was infused. He couldn't see Candra getting weaker and weaker.
"What do you want to say to me, son!" Rosa stroked Candra's arm. "You want the wedding with Cici to be canceled?" ask again.
Candra who was lying on the bed did not answer. He chose to sleep in the guest room, while the room was left empty. Candra still can't erase Melinda's shadow under the same blanket as Johan.
"You need to heal, son. You can't keep going like this." Rosa wiped her tears. He is looking for a way to get his son back to what he used to be, even if he has to be hated for life. It doesn't matter if he is hated by Candra, as long as his son can return to the way he was. Instead of long time Candra does not want to eat, does not have the spirit of life, and finally died with sadness and regret, it is better for her to hold her ego.
"Mama will be honest now, mama planned all this. Mama and Cici are trapping the two of them so they can be in the room. Mama's sorry, Candra!" Rosa hugged her son and cried.
His heart was pierced deeper and deeper. He should have done this a long time ago. It should have been three weeks ago that he was honest, so that Candra didn't get to this.
Candra heard everything that my mother said, the honesty of her mother and also slander to Melinda. He wants to be angry, wants to curse but the energy is no longer there. He could only shed tears. The longer the harder it is.
Not only is Rosa sorry, Candra too.
If only he could restrain himself from finding the source of his problem and not act rashly, maybe now Melinda was still beside him. But he also accused, even expelled the angel-hearted woman.
Candra cried silently, along with Rosa who kept saying her apology.
"Mama will make up for all your mistakes. I'm sorry, Candra. Sorry!"
She wiped her tears, as well as Candra's tears. After that, he began to devise a plan to return his son as before. After all, Cici does not care about Candra because now it is rare for the girl to ask about Candra's condition, which Cici thinks is only getting married soon. So with the reason busy preparing for the wedding alone, Cici is reluctant to take care of Candra.
Every day did come, but not to see the condition of Candra's development, but to inform the wedding plan to where and all things about the marriage, but during that time Candra did not respond at all.
"Mama will find and bring Melinda back to this house again. Mama promised you, son!" He smiled and rubbed his son's forehead. "But you promise to be upbeat and get back to health, yeah."