Strong Women's
Part 138's
My mind was so messed up mixed with sad feelings that I could no longer say. Today it all just collapsed without any rest. There's nothing more I can do to fix this overly complicated situation. Even things got worse with the existence of the son who was dragged into my problems. We both ended up in the same bed with only a blanket covering this body. I can't even remember the slightest incident that night with the son, whether we were having that relationship or we were just lying down for losing consciousness. But it's not all that important anymore because of the fact that I'm not that clean and I can't hope that my son will understand my situation. A girl who is pregnant with another man but spends the night with him. Who would believe in this condition that I am experiencing, no one can explain this situation that is happening.
"You come home with us, said Roy. I know they're so good at thinking about my condition that I'm pregnant with. But this problem I myself have to solve it and not should they take the trouble to think about me.
"I'll stay here first Roy, you guys go home. My gang who don't want to see them all continue to grieve.
"What about your pregnancy? asked the son to throw away all our daydreams.
"Yes last time we were going to the doctor but was hindered by helena, said Nisa considering the previous incident.
"I'm asking not judging you so answer. Putra.
"I don't know what it's going to be like I could have dropped it or held it. I said with a flat face because actually I myself am not able to face all this alone.
"Don't be rash, aborting it won't be as easy as when you make it. You could lose your life if you go the wrong way. Said the son who was still worried about me at times like this. The scariest thing was the fact that Andrew knew this all the sooner than I prepared. Nothing goes according to my wishes.
"I know that's why let me think first, I said as I felt my own stomach. When I first learned of my actual pregnancy, all I thought about was why the fetus that was given life to live had to come inside my womb, I still wanted to have fun, she said, I still want to have a future with the man of my choice and not be bound by the responsibilities that will bind me to this lifetime. But this little seed is not present because of my own actions that enjoy the world too much, do not think about the risks after it and just follow the passions. I am the one who presents it through worldly pleasures that I should not feel before marriage.
"I'm willing to be a father and to bother you if you really want to hold him back, said the son kneeling before me with a face so serious this man begged me.
"This son will not be as easy as you imagine, said Nisa warned the son not to be rash to make a decision even though they know the son did save the taste for sera all this time.
"I'm grateful but I can't ruin someone else's life just to save mine. I said while holding my son's hand.
"Why do you have to offer yourself, I will marry you myself. Roy said loudly.
"Roy, the surprised Vina-guman heard the decision of the older brother.
"Even if you two share a bed tonight, it won't change if you're pregnant before you're together tonight, so I don't think the son should bother to take responsibility and carry this burden. Roy.
"And you think you deserve better to bear all this roy, you should stay away instead of trying to help me. You thought I'd thank you for helping me, but I'm the real one who's going to ruin all of you're futures. My words with eyes that are already berlinang overshadow my problems become a burden for others.
"And you son should you not be involved with all this, I'm dragging you into my troubles. So please think right before you speak non-nonsense.
"We're right to do it or neither of us alone can not be sure it is not, let's assume all this never happened. I won't ruin your lives so please leave me alone. Speak to me as I pass the hand of the son who still holds my hand.
"If we're gonna take care of this slowly, first we have to figure out why you can be in this room just the two of us. I'm sure something's wrong Roy said.
"Don't go first there is something I want to discuss with you, I said slowly to the son.
"I will not leave you even if you refuse me, said the son while giving me his sweet smile. This man can still laugh even though his face is no longer as handsome as before.
"You comfortable sitting like this? stand up I will find you decent clothes to keep you warm, said the son.
"Stay here I am very afraid, my mummy who will not let the son out of this room alone and risk meeting again with the bagas out there.
"Don't be held back and cry as hard as you can, don't just stare blankly like that. Said Vina who continued to babble incoherently.
"Of course, here we are and never fear anything. Nisa's saying gives me spirit.
"You have many guards who will protect you and your mother, said the son slowly while stroking my shoulder.
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