Substitute Woman
Shirt Matters

Getting closer does not make us more free to express the word. It's getting awkward. A few moments of silence, sometimes staring at each other and smiling and averted their eyes together with their thoughts.

Enjoy the night air getting colder. Some vehicles started to get quiet. Likewise the visitors of the square were not as crowded as before.

“Mey,” call it down.

I'm turning. “Ya?”

“Back home, yuk!”

I'm nodding. Then get up from your seat and get ready to go home.

Brother Tomy clasped my hand on the way to the parking lot.

There, near the mosque my gaze fell on the figure I had previously met.

The figure of a woman who always looked at me cynically and as if I had snatched something from her.

“Lilis?” Apparently Brother Tomy also saw the woman.

Didn't he just go home with Rendra and Nia? Then why is it here?

Waiting us?

“Kok you're still here? Where's Rendra with Nia?” ask Brother Tomy.

The woman sitting at the edge of the mosque stood up. Staring at me for a moment then smiling towards Brother Tomy.

“I have someone to buy earlier. Uh they went home first.”

The classic reason. Just tell me if it was actually intentionally waiting for us.

“Whom are you waiting for here?”

“I Nungguin ... Ojek. But not here.”

I can see from his sight there is hope for Brother Tomy to give a ride. As a woman, I understand her purpose and purpose.

“Oh, yes already. I go home first. Are you okay alone?”

His face was a little disappointed. Hope was instantly destroyed because Kak Tomy's speech was not like his shadow.

“Tom, wait!” That hand pulled Tomy's sister.

“I'm scared. Moreover, it's malem, can I be with you?”

Brother Tomy sighed then looked at me. Maybe he was confused as to how. Between nemenin or nungguin. Or even choose to take him home.

Then what about? Just shut up and wait for an answer from Brother Tomy.

“Yes can't do it, Lis. I'm on a motorcycle. There's Mey too.”

“He told me to wait here. You take me first.”

“If he tells you to wait, why are you coming home with me?”

I want to laugh at this moment. Too stupid just to want to be close to a man. Everything I guessed was true. If the woman only reasoned to be able to go home with Brother Tomy.

“But I'm scared, Tom. Moreover, must cepet home.”

“Yes has her anterin, Brother. I can take a taxi.”

“There are taxis here, Mey.”

We're speechless. Then Brother Tomy stepped up leaving us both. Lilis still looks at me not like. Keep your distance away.

I don't know what kind of relationship has ever been established between them. Here maybe Lilis thinks I'm the real destroyer of her relationship with Kak Tomy. While I don't know what's going on.

Just know that the man is single, because there is a heart that must be guarded. Ah, could it be that she meant Lilis' heart? What did she say she wanted to marry me for?

What all these words sound romantic for.

“Lis, let's go home,” said Brother Tomy.

Lilis smiled happily. He looked at me like he was a winner. Tomy's sister pulled her wrist. Stepping out of the parking lot, not toward the parked motorbike.

Here I keep seeing him. Seeing the annoyed behavior of Lilis who turned out to be Kak Tomy ordered a motorcycle taxi driver. Not going home with him.

I smile at the smile. How nice to see Lilis like that.

“Why smile?” asked Brother Tomy who I did not realize was already on the side.

“Nothing. Brother really do?”

“Biarin.” He held out his helmet to me.

“Again maksa really go home together,” he continued again.

“Who knows kangen, Kak.”

“Halah! Come on up.”

I sat behind Brother Tomy. Wrap his hand around his waist. Ignoring the murmur and thump for a moment.

“She's Sister's boyfriend?”

I finally ventured to ask about all this curiosity.

“Boyfriend Brother is you, dear.”

Ah, that call made me blush. Men are good at making women's hearts flower.

“Ih, seriously what!” I hit her shoulder.

Brother Tomy complained of pain. Then no longer answer that question. Maybe lazy to talk about Lilis.

All right, I'll ask you another time. Tonight I let this feel happy. Even if it is only for a moment or will be forever happy.

***

A woman will definitely feel happy if it turns out the man she likes has the same taste. Then establish the relationship as desired all along.

Different me. Maybe this is the most complicated feeling I've ever felt. It's not that I'm naive or don't care about other people's feelings.

But I have to really understand the feelings of someone who has expressed his love.

Brother Tomy for example. He just wanted to keep his promise, but did not say anything about his heart. Be happy or even forced because there is a promise that has been said.

This is my reason why I don't want to fall deeper into all of his treatment. Just limit myself when she treats me like a lover.

“Mey, Brother wants to propose to you.”

“Mey, Brother wants to keep his old promise.”

“You want to marry your sister?”

The words kept ringing in the ears. Not a single expression of feeling came out from his lips.

There is a sense of regret and tightness that continues to haunt. Blaming himself for accepting his invitation to return to his village.

Sorry about the incident in the kitchen. He has taken what I've been guarding all this time.

Although it was just a kiss, I kept it for my husband later.

Tight because Brother Tomy just wants to keep his promise without me knowing how his heart is. Then he's keeping someone's feelings.

It was not the woman in his heart that was injured. Unless I'm gonna get hurt. Facing reality that turned out not as expected.

It could have been married without love, coercion might have been more precise. Will there be happiness in that relationship? If each other is not open in their own feelings.

“You haven't slept, baby?” asked Brother Tomy who saw me still sitting pensively on the sofa while staring out the window.

“Numbered, Brother. Brother, why haven't you slept?”

Brother Tomy sat on the side, then grabbed my head and placed it on his chest. I can hear the sound of her heart beating.

“So I don't know you're thinking big brother. That's why Sister is here.”

I raised my head, slightly giving her a calm embrace earlier.

“Ih, how do you care anyway?”

Brother Tomy smiled. Then he clamped my chin. Staring at me. My feelings are getting less and less.

I distanced myself. But he forced me to stay close.

“What do you think? If you ask about the heart, then Brother will answer that this heart is only for you.”

“I .... Only___”

“If you ask about Lilis ..”

Brother Tomy turned his eyes. Maybe he was wondering something that had happened between them.

“She is the woman Kakaka is keeping her heart, right?” my spoken.

Pain says this, but at least I'm relieved because all the stored tightness has come out.

“If big brother wants to marry me just because of a promise in the past, you better forget it.”

There was shock on Brother Tomy's face. That view ... I don't understand what that means.

“Before the pain increases, you should pursue his love. Don't be lying just because of the past.”

I don't care what you say is wrong or right. No need to wait for an answer from her, I just walked into the room.

Together with the tightness also tears that flow. This is what it looks like when someone has a broken heart.

I slowly loved her. Comfort that has changed the sense of being a sister, to feel like a loved woman.

He made me fly and I dropped myself before it was too late until I flew further.

I hate this situation.

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