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In the end I returned with the solitude that always accompanied. It's all over and the singles predicate will stick in me. I don't know until when, I definitely don't want to fall in love anymore.

Love is painful. Make the heart always pounding when meeting someone we love. I always feel nervous when I talk.

That love ... Nothing is beautiful. Lying if someone says love will be beautiful in time.

The proof is that the love I feel ends in grief. Do you know what it's like to stay fit again, alas?

So hurt.

Yeah, especially when I meet that woman in person. Waking up from fainting because of love.

You idiot!

“Mey, are you aware?” Mom asked as I opened my eyes.

The head feels dizzy. Half conscious and half unconscious. Maybe half crazy and half sane.

“Kok me here?” many confused.

“So my sister passed out at the airport,” said the man who made me lazy to see her.

“Mey, drink the tea first.” Mom gave me a cup of warm tea.

I slowly sat down and leaned against the shoulder of the bed and grabbed the cup. Momentary atmosphere in the quiet room. Mom and she looked at me with an inexplicable look.

Maybe feel kasian to me. Ah, am I that stupid?

“Tom, I've bought__” The voice of a foreign woman is heard from outside. His words stopped when he entered my room and saw me who had come to his senses.

She's surprised. So do I. Then the man who had hurt my heart went to attract the woman.

“Who is he, Bu?” manya curious.

Mother sighed. I stroked my hair softly and wiped the corners of her eyes.

There was sadness coming from my mother's face.

“Namea Ana. She's Tomy's future wife.” Mom's voice sounded so heavy.

It ruined all my hopes. The sense that was beginning to grow had gone to change in wounds. I didn't expect that Brother Tomy would actually marry another woman.

“Mey, I want you to understand. Everything is not as you imagined.”

I cringe. I don't understand what mom's words mean.

“She's pregnant with Tomy's child. The accident happened accidentally.”

“Pregnant?”

I was more surprised to hear this news. Brother Tomy who looks very different from other men, apparently remains the same. A man who only sees napsu as love.

“She's sister from Lilis. I also don't understand what's going on. Tomy never told me the same story. He chose to marry the girl without defending himself.”

There seems to be something strange. However, if Brother Tomy is innocent where might he want to marry the girl.

The thing that made my memory go back to the first time I came to my mother's house. Where she suddenly looks romantic and has taken my first kiss.

He almost did something more. I was lucky to avoid him. If not cooking, maybe Brother Tomy has ....

Ah, nevermind. Everything I value about that guy is wrong.

“Bu, if Brother Tomy is innocent, he will definitely reject the girl.”

“Mom sure it wasn't Tomy. Originally before this incident happened, I wanted Tomy to propose to you.”

I smile. The news is stale. Hope was lost with the wounds.

“Already, Mom. After all, he was Tomy's choice. I will still love you with Mother.”

I hugged Mom. A hug I might miss. Maybe this is the last time I'll meet. After Tomy gets married, there will be a new life. So where might I come here. Unlock old memories that will ruin their household.

Going as far away as possible and removing traces, maybe is the way that they can forget about me.

.

Until I got to Jakarta, I just called once. It was also with a feeling of sadness because of Mother. So many stories about me and my mom. It's hard to be apart again. Just been a few days together. Fate has said something else.

If at first I wish he was the soul mate God sent me. This time my hope was gone. He's not for me. The answer I have been answering all this time.

Yeah, it's all over. The story between me and Tomy. Even when I came home yesterday, he didn't know.

Nor did he explain everything that had happened. Just calling and sending a message containing my whereabouts and apologies.

I don't know what's on his mind. As if I had no guilt for hurting my heart.

“Mey, Papa noticed since you came home from Tomy's house you always daydreamed. What's up, Son?”

“What's the problem?”

“Ngga is there, Pa. I miss it again with Mom.” I had to lie so Papa wouldn't think too much about what was going on.

Soon Papa will know everything. Although not from me.

“Yes, Papa knows. Since childhood, you have loved Amel. Your relationship is like a child and a mother.”

“Yes, that's why I still miss.”

“Why do the spouts come home?”

“Because I miss Papa.”

I hugged Papa tightly. A little to remove this sense of unease.

“Oh, yeah why didn't Tomy drive you home?”

I jerked. What should I tell Papa?

“It ... Said he was busy, Pa.”

Papa just nodded. He got up from his seat on the edge of my bed.

“Ya already, you just rest first.”

“I want to go to boutique.”

“Tomorrow, Mey. You are tired of traveling far.”

Not the tired I feel, Pah. If Papa knew the feeling of the heart that I am currently feeling. Maybe Papa won't let any of this happen. Maybe Papa will hug me and let me cry.

“Well if it is.”

****

Staying fit again unfortunately it hurts.

Even though we haven't told each other our hearts. However, that sense was very strong when I was beside him.

Comfortable. It makes me reluctant to stay away from him. Then now fate forces me to move further away. If this meeting was only for farewell, what was it for that moment we were rediscovered.

It is true, Novi said at the time. If the past is never in the harepin, there is even painful.

I miss Novi. How is he doing?

I just wanted to call Novi, a WhatsApp message from El Nomy came in. It's been a long time since I went to Brother Tomy's house, we've never communicated.

I think he forgot me. Actuallyno.

[Tests]

[Yes?] repay me

[How are you? I thought you changed the number.]

I smile. It turns out that a week is a long time. There I never open Facebook nor create a WhatsApp story.

Maybe from here El Nomy thinks that I've changed the number.

[No. I'm saying bad again. You how are you?]

[Worse why? Story me. I'm good]

I typed a reply. But many times I deleted it. Doubt to tell him everything. I have never met El Nomy in person.

[Maybe because you haven't read a story for a long time]

At last it was the only reply I sent.

El Nomy replied with a laugh. Then no longer visible online writing under his name. Maybe he's back to writing or he's busy with something else.

Well, the arrival of El Nomy made me forget a little about this lara. Despite every thought of Tomy's face, the pain grew.

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