Substitute Woman
Open to Each Other

That look always makes me miss. Every gentle swipe as I cried, the always soothing words of advice and hugs, made me feel at ease. Until I realized that comfort brought me into a sense that might be difficult to forget.

It's too wonderful to have to give up for her happiness.

“I'll unmask Lilis! Brother Mey is calm.” The words of Raisa this morning always ring in the ears.

Yes, from every word and gaze of Raisa, it could be concluded that she hated Lilis so much. I don't know what happened between them. But here I am not happy.

Happy that Raisa doesn't like Lilis and there's still a chance for me to be close to Brother Tomy. Not like that! Unless this is too painful. Sick more precisely.

Even though that man doesn't know what I'm feeling.

“Mey, are you angry with Brother?” A silly question in my opinion.

He should have better understood the feelings of someone who had always been together since childhood.

Why ask if he actually knows.

‘Yes, I'm angry! I hate it and I'm reluctant to see you.’

I can only say it in my heart. Unable to say because the heart withstood the pain and both eyes held the glass so as not to break, becoming a clear circle.

“Mey, why is it?” He asked back. This time I pulled both of my shoulders so I could look at him.

Our gazes met, but the heart warmed when we saw that face.

The always smiling face enjoyed being with Lilis. A face that looks comfortable when Lilis smiles along.

“Sister, I'm tired. I want to rest first. Tomorrow I want to go home,” said I immediately left without waiting for the answer.

The glass finally broke into tears. I subconsciously hit Mom who was apparently standing by the door. Looks like he saw me.

“Mey,” call it down.

This time I ignored him. Being alone is my goal right now. If she wasn't a mother's child, I might be hugging her and crying in my lap right now.

“What are you doing Mey, Tom?” I heard her asking as I opened the door.

My room is close to the terrace. So that they can listen to me. Even with a soft voice.

“It's wrong Tomy, Mom. If only it was the talk of mother.”

I heard the breath of my mother. Maybe he was disappointed in his son.

“Ya already if so, mother does not want to interfere. I can only tell you, express your heart to who will be your future!”

Looks like mom already knows everything. Somehow the incident was this morning, to make Brother Tomy can be with Lilis.

Could it be that they love each other and Brother Tomy doesn't feel good about me. Could they be hiding a relationship? Because Brother Tomy still remembers that promise?

It shouldn't be this way. It's too painful for me to fall into a deep abyss.

“I have to how, Bu?”

“Think carefully. I hope you didn't choose wrong.”

No more hearing their conversation. However, there was a slow knock from outside.

But

“Mey, I want to talk for a minute,” says mom.

I wiped the tears and opened the door.

“Mother can enter?”

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“Mey, are you all right? Are you sick?” ask mother.

“Ngak, Mom. Mey is fine.”

Mother stroked my face gently.

“Soal earlier ... Sorry Tomy yes, Mey. Actually don't mean to lie to you with Raisa.”

I cringed, not understanding what Mom meant.

“Mom's Mean ... Brother Tomy does not nganter mom to the market?”

Mom shakes. His eyes showed regret.

“Mother is indeed to the market. But on his own, Tomy meets Lilis who takes him for a jog. I no longer know how to give advice. Tomy always treated women gently. Making the treatment like giving hope.”

“As he treated me?”

Mother nodded. This time his face showed seriousness.

“Actually he already has someone who becomes his future later, Mey,” said mother. His eyes turned out the window.

There are thousands of needles stuck in the heart. Apparently someone was chosen. Definitely not me. Lilis kah or any other woman I don't know yet.

“Bu, tomorrow I'll go home.” I switched the subject.

“Go back?” My mother seemed surprised by my words.

“I miss Papa. After all the same people who take care of boutiques alone.” I reasoned.

In fact, I have no power to endure this pain. Taking too long to look even close to her the more the pain grew.

“Not because of this problem?” Mom confirmed.

“Not, after all I consider Brother Tomy like his own brother. Whoever the woman who will be his wife later for sure I always support, most importantly she also loves Mother.”

Mom hugged me. “Padalaat mom still wants you here.”

“Next week alone yes home.”

“Ngak, Mom. I have to go home tomorrow.”

“Yeah, whereas Tuesday night there is an event in this house.”

“What way, Bu?”

“Marriage Tomy.”

Duuuaarrrr

This heart feels broken. The heart may soon be out of place. Is this fast enough to tie the woman who knows who it is? Without knowing in advance how I really feel.

“Sama Lilis?” many ensure.

“Not, darling. You'll know that you're still here. Unfortunately you go home, maybe the engagement event in the retreat first.”

“I can take a train or a plane, Mom. It's okay, the important thing is that the show is not in undur.”

“Do not, Nduk. Time home___”

“Mother! Mother where?” shout Raisa.

“Ah, briefly yes, Mey.”

I'm nodding. Mom passed by while closing the door. I lock it up immediately. Want to be alone until this heart has been steady to meet Brother Tomy.

I still don't believe everything that happened. The meeting, seeing him with another woman, togetherness that night was so beautiful. Then now get the news that he's going to be engaged.

What was the ring she gave me that night? Just want to break this heart?

Is that so bad you, brother? Don't you know I've been waiting for you all along.

Hope our togetherness will be as beautiful as ever. It's not painful like this.

This is the taste I hate so much. Love makes me unable to get up to try to forget. Even smiling and pretending to be okay does not detract from that feeling. It's even growing.

I didn't think it would all end just like that.

'I hate you, Brother.’

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