The Former Cassanova
Dilemmas

The results of the laboratory examination stated that Deka infected human immunodeficiency virus (HIV). Viruses that attack the immune system, which can further weaken the body's ability to fight infections and diseases.

Deka was surprised not to play with the results of the laboratory. How did he get infected with HIV. When he was in a period of repentance, why was it that big problems befell his life.

“Neg. Here, it's not possible.” Deka uttered a frown while shaking his head in frustration.

“Not likely. Not likely. Not likely. Huaaaa ..” Deka grabbed her own hair. Her tears broke when she remembered her wedding plans with Ririn.

“Hey, Bang! What’s wrong? What's up?” Bella's hands touched Deka's face. Directing Deka to look him in the eye . “Hey, what happened?” ask Bella again.

She looked back at Bella. “A-Is this really my blood test lab results, Bell?” tanyakanya.

“Yes, of course. Is not there your name. What's wrong?”

“Ta-but this is impossible. I-this must be wrong,” said Deka stammered. His voice sounded trembling.

Bella glanced at the laboratory results that were still held by Deka. “May I know that? Can I read the lab results?”

Deka nodded weakly. Bella takes the lab results from Deka's hand and reads them.

“Oh my God.” Bella's mouth opened. “HIV?!”

“You're patient, Bang.” Bella held Deka in her arms. His hand gently rubbed Deka's back.

“What should I do, Bell?” Deka was crying in Bella's arms.

“I will always be by your side. Because I'm your best friend.” Deka took off her hug and looked at Bella.

“Bell, I beg .. don’t tell this to anyone, including my family. I don't want my family to know this. Please,” please Deka.

“Ok. I'm not gonna say this to anyone. I promise.” Bella rubs Deka's arm to give her strength.

“Thanks, Bell. Now you go home. I want to own.”

“Keep, you don't want to go to the doctor after getting the results of this lab?”

Deka. “No, Bell. If infected with this virus, it cannot be cured. Then what to see the doctor," he said flat.

“Bang, may I have an opinion?”

“Yes. Please.”

“You must remain calm in the face of your problems. Don't get crushed. Life doesn’t end. The thing you're thinking about now is your wedding plans. You have to cancel it. You have to cancel or at least delay" Bella said.

“No way, Bell. I love Ririn so much. Marrying her is my dream" Deka said.

“Because you love her, so you have to cancel it. Poor Ririn, Bang.”

Deka was stunned to hear Bella's words.

“You're home, Bell! Please leave me alone. Leave me alone!”

Bella took a slow breath. “OK. I came home yes, Bang,” he said.

“If need a talkative. Call me, please.” Bella rubs Deka's shoulder. Then it passed leaving Deka.

Deka re-spreads his body. Lying on his side, he pulled the blanket up to his shoulder.

O Allah, he said, You will not give a test beyond the limits of His servant's ability. Why then did You give me this great test. Do you think I am willing to face it. Or is this a punishment in return for the sins I have committed in the past. It is not enough to repent. Or have you not accepted my repentance.

The tears of Deka shed for a moment, while remembering all sins. Had he owned Doraemon's time machine, he would have gone to the time when Deka was in London first. At the beginning he fell into the free world.

If only he could have gone on a night where for the first time he slept with a woman. If he could he would approach the foolish young Deka so as not to stay at his lover's apartment. With his girlfriend Kimberly Richardson in college, he gave up his virginity.

The regret that is now approaching Deka. Shredding his happy plan. Destroying dreams.

It's been three days since Deka went to the office. Actually, his body has improved. No more fever and weakness. It can be said that his body is in a fit condition, but his soul is now not fit.

Deka also never contacted Ririn as usual. It was Ririn who first contacted Deka to just ask the news every day.

Ririn was not suspicious of Deka's attitude. He thought maybe Deka was busy with work in the office so rarely contact him.

Deka was sitting in the pond behind the house with God's beloved turtle, while looking at the beautiful fish that swim freely to and fro in the pond.

It seems that the fish move agile and carefree every Deka throw fish feed. It should be this time, it is like that too. Nimble and carefree welcome the wedding day that just counts the day. But what is now, it is precisely the sense of dilemma that plagues his heart and mind.

The dilemma between having to continue with the wedding plan or canceling it. He felt that what Bella said was true. If he continued forward, it would be Ririn who would become the victim. Ririn will not be happy with this marriage.

What happiness can be promised by a person infected with a deadly virus like himself. Although the death rate due to the HIV virus is relatively smaller when compared to cancer and other types of degenerative diseases. But still there is no medicine that can cure or kill this virus.

The thing that makes Deka anxious and preoccupy his mind is about the transmission of this virus. He didn't want to pass the virus on to Ririn. That's what keeps him daydreaming.

“Bang!” the newly arrived gods. Deka was silent because his heart and mind were exploring the dilemma.

“Bang Deka!” exclaims God again, but Deka has not yet realized from his daydream.

“Dooorr!!”

“Astagfirullah!” Deka jumped in shock because of the actions of the gods. The problems that befall him make him always special in the heart. So when shocked the sentence ‘astagfirullah’ that came out of his mouth.

“God is fooled by me. My brother is his keget now already use Istighfar. Pantesan was fitting into the house already kiss the smells of heaven howaaa .. so,” as far as God.

Deka just smiled bitterly in response to the care of his sister. Mana probably smelled the smell of heaven from her who was a sinner. Then he looked back at the colorful fish dancing.

“Abang why? Any more problems?” The god took a sitting position at the edge of the pool opposite Deka.

“Beginning soon as a bride! Seneng napa, don't be pitiful so his face,” God's joke.

The god frowned because Deka did not understand his words. In fact, his face looked even more miserable.

“But it is, if you want marriage it is millions of tastes . Many thoughts, this fear, that fear. I used to be that too. I'm afraid I can't make Mina happy because my work is not yet established. But if Bang Deka ‘kan well established already, handsome already, there should be nothing else to fear,” said Dewa.

“Last time I was bad.” Deka turned to stare at the God. “According to you, how about my marriage with Ririn was canceled?”

“What?!” The god was surprised to hear Deka's question.

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Deka's life will be like a roller coster, problems come and go.

Patient ones, read it.

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