The Loss of Love of My Husband
Reminiscences

Abi appears to be carrying Viona's coffin. Viona's body began to be placed on the ground. Renaldi came down to the final resting place of his wife. His face looked sad, but he tried to hold back his tears. He's trying to toughen up. Viona's body is now covered in dirt.

"Goodbye Ay, your name will always be in my heart. May you be happy there" Reynaldi said in his heart.

Viona's funeral procession is complete. Abi pamit returned to Reynaldi, his former mother-in-law, and also his former sister-in-law. He apologized for not being able to attend the event tonight. Abi only gave the envelope to Reynaldi, as an accusation for Viona's death. Reynaldi handed the money over to his mother-in-law, for the needs of a seven-day tahlilan event.

Reynaldi will just go home, after the tahlilan event is over. He wants to pray for his wife. Reynaldi kept thinking of the wife's face, the last time Viona was intimate with her. His chest felt tight when he remembered his last memories with his wife. When they did the congregational dawn prayer, when he fed Viona, and when he accompanied the wife during the sakaratul death earlier.

"Maybe, God loves you more. That is why God took you from me. Now you don't feel pain anymore, you're happy" Reynaldi said.

Reynaldi looked pensive, his gaze blank. To the point that he had forgotten that he had not eaten since lunch.

"Rey, eat first! Come eat, you will be sick. Later Viona is sad, if you see you like this," said the sister-in-law.

"Yes, Brother. But I'm not hungry yet. Later, Brother," said Reynaldi.

"Rey's character, although it's a little. You should eat, later if you are sick. You're so bothered you can't work." Her sister Viona tried to remind her sister-in-law.

Reynaldi finally wants to eat. Even though he only ate a little, it felt so hard that he swallowed food. The event went well, many people prayed for Viona.

Abi just got to the apartment. He decided to take a shower, clean his body. Before he approached his wife. After finishing, then he approached the wife who was preparing food for him to eat. For the sake of being able to join in polishing and burying Viona, she forgot her lunch.

Nisa has prepared the food at the dining table. Khanza also came to his parents. The three of them eat together.

"So have you sent greetings from me? You're gonna go bury it?" Nisa asked her husband.

"Who died Bun?" Khanza asked as his hands were busy feeding food into his mouth.

"Tante Viona is dead. Papa came to worship after the completion of the practice, all of you buried," explained Abi.

"Oh, finally dead too it's people. Good indeed, reducing the population in Jakarta," said Khanza ketus.

"So sorry Aunt Viona! Poor thing, the person is dead, let it calm there," said Nisa trying to remind the child.

"No going! Until I will never forgive him. Let him die curious, not in the same way as Allah" said Khanza.

"Son, it can't be like that! As Muslims, we should forgive each other. Especially now that he was dead, pity! Allah is forgiving, his servant is wrong." Nisa tries to remind the child to forgive the mistake that Viona made first.

Khanza chose not to answer again the mother's words, he chose to be silent. His decision remains the same, he will never forgive his father or Viona.

"Prophey! Let it go first!" Abi always reminds Nisa to be patient, when Nisa feels confused to face the child.

There's not much Abi has to say about Viona to his wife, because there's nothing worth talking about. Abi actually prefers to indulge with his wife.

"Yes, can. Mama and Papa must be glad we're home. But the time is tight, so you can't see the factory first. I'll try to get permission to the management first, so we can go home on Monday. Tomorrow try to call mom, talk about this event," said Abi and Nisa assented.

After the event, Reynaldi decided to go home. He came home with an online motorcycle, because his motorcycle was still in the hospital.

"Ma, Rey said yes! Tomorrow Rey can not participate in the event tahlilan, because Rey entered shift 2 just returned home at 10:00 pm. Rey will send her own prayers" said Reynaldi.

"It's okay, if you can't. The most important thing is to send a prayer for Viona not to be interrupted" said Mama Susan and Reynaldi nodding his head.

Rey is on her way home. He looked at Viona from afar who seemed to be smiling at him. Viona looks happy. After giving a smile to her husband, she just left.

"Alhamdulillah. I'm happy to see you smiling in nature" Reynaldi said. Viona's not tormented anymore.

Reynaldi had just arrived home, and immediately approached the mother's room. Now only the mother that Reynaldi has. Unfortunately, my mother was sleeping at the time.

Mama Ratih opened her eyes, as she felt someone was holding her hand.

"Rey, you're finally home. Mama misses you," said Mama Ratih. Just a few days did not meet, the mother already felt confused with the child. As if I hadn't seen each other in years.

"Yes, ma. Sorry Rey, ma! Sorry Rey, because yesterday had to leave mom, to accompany Viona in the hospital. Now Rey, won't leave mom again. Viona was dead, this morning Viona breathed her last. Reynaldi immediately took care of his funeral, and this has just come home, finished tahlilan," said Reynaldi.

"I'm sorry Viona's mistake Ma, let her calm down there. He doesn't feel pain anymore" Reynaldi said.

"Good, if he's dead. So, you don't have to bother taking care of him anymore" said Mama Ratih.

"Astaghfirullah al 'azim. Mama said that. Mama don't talk like that, however she has struggled a lot taking care of mama. He didn't even think about his own health. He was willing to endure the pain, in order to take care of my mother" said Reynaldi. She was disappointed with her mother's attitude, which had not changed.

"Yes, yeah. Yes, get some rest! You may have been lacking rest in the hospital. Not bad, reduce your burden," said Mama Ratih.

Reynaldi finally left the mother, choosing to take a shower. Cleaned his sticky body. He was praying before the event began. Now he just needs to rest.

"Oh my God, I beg you! Lower your direction to my mother. Hopefully he can turn into a better person, before the death to pick him up" said Reynaldi.

Seeing what happened to his ex-wife, Reynaldi remembers death. That the death of a person no one knows. All according to God's will. In fact, yesterday Viona's condition has been seen improving, but in fact Viona suddenly dropped. In the end, his life was no longer helped.

Reynaldi grabbed his phone, he looked at a photo of him together with Viona while in the park. It was the last photo of her with Viona. Now everything is just a memory.

"I miss you" Reynaldi said, peeping at the photo he saw on his phone screen.

Still Rey remembered the last time he whispered and led the wife to say two sentences of shahadah. Reynaldi also remembered, when he had kissed the head, forehead, and lips of the wife who felt cold.