The Love of the Racer
It hurts so much

"Jennis honey, where are you going?" Jenny pulls the hand of her youngest son, preventing his footsteps that are believed to be looking for Jesslyn's whereabouts.

It's not that Jenny doesn't care about Jesslyn's circumstances. It's just that his son's current health condition requires close supervision, especially when doing activities outside the home.

Today, the news of Jeaven and Verlin's marriage is frustrating for parents Jeffrey and Jenny. Not long ago they had to be upset because of Jesslyn's sad look and now changed Jennis who was stirred by anxiety.

Moments after Jesslyn's departure, Jenny again complained to her husband about Jesslyn knowing the news of Jeaven's marriage. And their conversation was unintentionally heard in Jennis's ears.

"Jesslyn must be really bad right now. He needs someone's shoulder to lean on, Mom." Jennis expressed all his worries in front of his parents.

"We know that, but you mustn't be negligent about your health either." Jeffrey warned.

"What your Daddy said is right, honey. If you go back down Jesslyn's gotta be sad," Jenny said.

Jennis scoops in the air in front of his nose, trying to calm down and simultaneously digest well the advice of Jeffrey and Jenny. A second later he made a gaze asking for understanding to his parents who were having an anxious dream in turn.

"Can Mommy and Daddy trust me like you trust Jeaven? Take it easy, I just went to Jesslyn's house next door. I'll wait for him there."

"Mommy is with you?"

"Come, Mom. Don't make me feel like a weak man in front of Jesslyn." Jennis refused with a little laugh.

"Let me be a useful man to the woman I love before closing my eyes forever" Jennis said, closing the gray cloud on her face with her best smile.

Which parent's heart does not quiver when he hears the son's words reminding him of separation? Moreover, the separation in question is related to death. Jeffrey and Jenny were both pressing a heart-pounding pulse above fortitude.

"Well, honey," said Jenny finally let Jennis do what he wanted.

"Thank you." Jennis immediately passed after saying.

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Jesslyn treaded the weak coastal path without any direction, just following where her feet were stepping with a feeling of unworthiness. The variety of tinkling in the chest weakens the mind.

Jesslyn ... is now like a dry flower in the dry season. The hope of love dashed like a fall petal blown by the wind howling. Flying along with raucous sobbing, then sprawled weakly under the fierceness of the sparkling sun.

Indeed he tried to give up his love, but the fact says that the heart is not ready to be perfect. Jeaven married another woman of course he reaped wounds in the recesses of the soul.

Plus the stained purity followed by love no longer hold on to despair. Complete is the suffering.

Tiiinn ...!

"Jesslyn!"

Jesslyn was stunned from the daydream when someone pulled her body. Until he realized that Jennis had just saved him from the speed of the car that almost hit him.

"Do you want to die?!" Jennis's touch mixed with worry that was very high.

Jesslyn did not immediately answer and instead scanned into the surroundings. It turned out that he was now at a crossroads located not far from his home. And he also just remembered that after getting out of the church building the car was abandoned just like that.

"Jesslyn, are you okay?"

Jennis's voice this time successfully attracted the full attention of Jesslyn.

"Jennis," she shrieked along with the throbbing pain that broke the tears. "Jennis, I just want to die." Jesslyn's cry broke already. Once again his heart's kink ended in the arms of the man who had always been there when he was injured.

"Why does it hurt so much? I'm in real pain!" The woman's whimpering is growing. Really, his chest cavity felt full and wanted to explode.

I'm a lot sicker when I see you like this. Even the pain exceeded the pain when the disease gnawed at my body.

Complaints of Jennis in the heart.

For a while Jennis made room for Jesslyn to spill all her wounds into her arms. Not to forget the man gave a sedative rub on the back and a kiss of affection on the tip of the woman's head. Until the body's shock due to crying shrinks along with the stuffing that slowly subsides.

"Jennis, I'm not sure this wound of my heart will heal. Jeaven stuck his knife too deep." Jesslyn was still groaning in Jennis's arms.

Jennis slightly untied her embrace, making it easier for her eyes to reach Jesslyn's wet-looking face. Jemari gently wipe the liquid of sadness that is not allowed to colonize the beauty of the woman for too long.

"I've said it over and over again, if you get hurt, make me your medicine."

"I would be so wicked if I made you my escape." The voice still rang out, marked his sadness had not yet fully gone away.

"Try saying, are you comfortable with me right now?" Jennis stared fixedly at Jesslyn's pair of hazel pearls.

"I'm always comfortable with you" Jesslyn replied to the heart that said. However, another heart chamber also whispered that he was more comfortable in Jeaven's arms even though the man often cut his heart.

A happy smile immediately rose on Jennis's lips. Jesslyn's answer is like the sweet spring of heaven.

"That means I'm not your escape, but your comfort. It's okay to remember me only in times of sadness. At least my existence can be useful to you rather than nothing." Jennis again gave a soft kiss on the forehead making Jesslyn reflex blink her eyes in surprise.

"The reality does not always go hand in hand with hope but that does not mean we have to be overwhelmed by despair" said the man again.

"Jennis," Jesslyn said with a stare. He did not deny that Jennis was always present when he broke into tears.

"I love you, Jesslyn. Please choose me as your medicine." Infused with the expression of love that slid from her own lips, Jennis immediately kissed Jesslyn's lips without permission.

The man felt a slight push in the chest as Jesslyn did a rejection. "Give me a chance once." Jennis asked for all his heart.

"But, Jenn."

"Please." Jennis is not giving up. He kissed Jesslyn again, who looked unmoved.

While from a corner not far from Jesslyn and Jennis were, a pair of eyes watched the sweet scene between them with various feelings wrestling on the chest. From behind the windshield a smile is formed, but no one knows what that smile really means.

"As a sister, this is all I can do for you. Be happy."

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