The Neglected Wife
S3 EPISODE 90 - USE ME
After eating without saying much, Nissa and Ben returned to Collin's room after previously taking Collin's medicine at the pharmacy that was on the first floor of the hospital.
The atmosphere was very quiet in the elevator, Nissa felt that she needed to find a conversation, Nissa hated the silence she felt when she was with Ben.
"Ben... Can I hold your hand? I feel like you're always warm, this time I'm so cold"
Ben only glanced at Nissa slightly from the corner of his eye, but Ben's large hand immediately grasped Nissa's hand. The warmth that Nissa always gets from Ben, will never be replaced.
"Adel, papa brought food for you and Collin" Ben said as he walked into Collin's room.
"Ashiikk, from earlier Adel was hungry pa" Adel immediately glanced at Ben's hand who was holding his mother.
"Hmmm mama must be happy, so mommy's equally better huh?" Adel teases Ben and Nissa out.
"Yes, this is thanks to Adel's advice, so you dare to apologize equally papa" replied Nissa with a smile.
Doctor Eric is getting sick of being among the couple. "I'm sorry sir, I have to take care of the night" said doctor Eric.
Midnight......
Ben's looking for Nissa's whereabouts. The sofa in Collin's room had only two. So one is for Adel and the other is for Ben and Nissa. At that time Ben was sure that they had fallen asleep while hugging, but when he woke up Nissa was not beside him.
Ben then checked Collin's body temperature which had started to fall, Collin's face also looked not too pale as before.
Ben actually hates having to feel suspicion that is not necessarily the truth. He is afraid and in the future may be suspicious of Nissa again when Nissa is not there beside him.
I have to use my wits....Nissa won't betray me a second time....Where the hell is he?
Ben searches for Nissa and opens the door to Collin's room, as he walks down the hall, Ben hears the sound of people crying from behind the door next to the vending machine.
"Who is that?"
Ben walked up and opened the door, surprised that he saw Nissa crying near the emergency stairs. The door connects to the emergency staircase.
"What are you doing here, at night like this?" Ask Ben.
"I feel so bad, somehow I feel like a bad mother, I feel like a failure as a mother or as a wife, Ben I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't know how much more sorry I have to say"
Ben always feels hate for himself, he wants to be angry at Nissa's attitude, but when Nissa is sad because of the anger she gives Nissa, he is angry with her, his heart was many times more injured than Nissa felt.
Ben approached Nissa who was sitting down and still crying. Ben extended his hand towards Nissa.
"Wake up, don't make yourself sick, you're pregnant, our child will be sad if you continue to be sad" Ben said gently.
Nissa welcomed the helping hand and stood before Ben.
"I want to curse myself, I won't be able to forgive myself if something bad happens to Collin, now I just can't forgive myself"
Ben hugs Nissa slowly, however angry she is, Nissa is still his wife, and he loves Nissa unconditionally.
"You are wrong, but it is a valuable lesson, man must always learn from his mistakes, in order to be better in the future".
Nissa returned the hug, her tears as worthless, as too many came out endlessly. Those tears will not be able to atone for her sins and negligence as a mother and wife.
"Sorry Ben and thank you....I'm called a fool because I'm a fool"
"Then use me, Nissa, because you're a fool, don't do everything alone, use me as if you can't live without me!!"
"I wouldn't be able to live without you, Ben, but I don't want to use you"
What does Nissa mean? Why would not you? Is it because he wants to depend on Andhika?!!
An uncomfortable feeling enveloped Ben's heart, jealousy was united with a ridiculous annoyance but it was because Ben had felt the hurt of Nissa.
"I can't use you, because I want to love you for the rest of my life, I want to be with you and continue to love you"
Nissa always melted her heart, warming her heart like the spring that wipes out winter in an instant. A sense of happiness that he did not want to show too clearly.
"Then, you'll hear me right from now on?" Ask Ben firmly.
"of course! I'll listen to my husband, I'll treat you better in the future"
"Then stop being sad, Collin's sister will follow her sadly in there" Ben stroked Nissa's stomach softly.
Before long Nissa kept glancing right and left. Trying to make sure that on the stairs no one will see them.
"Is silence - silence does it feel like this?" Nissa plays her index finger towards Ben's chest.
"Oho!! you want to tease me? It's still very less baby" The sweet answer from Ben makes tired and sad Nissa feel lost in an instant.
This is Ben, Ben whom he knows, Ben who is always gentle and charming in his presence.
"Then what does my husband want in the middle of the night?"
"Didn't my wife know that best?" Ben drew himself closer to Nissa.
Getting closer and finally Nissa was cornered into the wall that was there. Ben closed the distance between them.
"With this position?"
"Why not?I could stay all night in this position"
"I think it's excessive, just for the sake of kissing"
His lips that were beginning to heat up opened slowly - the ground, their breath was getting closer and starting to almost unite.
"I can endure it just for the sake of kissing these lips all night, silent - silent.in a quiet place"
In an instant, Ben had already kissed Nissa's lips ferociously. Ben wants to convey his heart that misses Nissa Karen is worried. Ben wants to make Nissa understand him with all the kisses he gives. Nissa receives the kiss very intensely and she reluctantly accepts Ben leading her.
"Lawgghhhhhh!!!!!"
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