The Roxena Prison of Love
Chapter 44 Roxena Prison of Love

"Since you're reading the philosophy book 'A World as Will and representation', may I ask you something?"ask Gerald to start the conversation.

Gerald has been in Roxena's room for a long time. They do not make physical contact. Roxena sat on the couch reading a book. Glasses framing his hazel eyes. While Gerald, the man silently observed.

A World as Will and Representation, also known as the World as will and representation, is a book written by philosophers was German in the 18th century. Briefly, the book discusses the actions or desires of a person that refers to or is based on two things, namely emotions (feeling) and logic (real thinking).

Gerald remembered the title of the book long enough. He also searched a bit of information from the internet and finally asked the question. For him it was a bit less suitable if Roxena read the book. In Gerald's eyes, Roxena's actions to him are out of control of both feeling and logic. He doesn't understand at all.

"What?"ask Roxena without multiplying the views from her book.

"What type of you are you? Emotion or logic?"ask Gerald.

"Oh. You curious about that?"asked Roxena who was called Gerald briefly.

"Daniel Goleman, American author, psychologist, and science journalist posited several forms of emotions including anger, sadness, fear, pleasure, love, surprise, annoyance, and shame. I have all those emotions. I doubt one of them is love."

Gerald gasped. Roxena smiled smirk. "I haven't felt it in a long time. I don't know, the weird debating can't be concluded love, can it? It might be a disease" Roxena cheered later.

"Okay." Gerald controlled his emotions. He heard back.

"Every person has all emotions. The world thinks that women are more emotional than men. That's because women are more willing to express their emotions than men."

Gerald agreed with that. Although, it's not entirely like that. Sometimes a man is more emotional than a woman.

"Do you believe in someone who only always uses logic and forgets emotions?"roxena asked Gerald for his opinion.

"Eitherway. I've never seen anything like it, or maybe it's you" Gerald said.

"Yes, you're right. Even a war general, a sadistic killer, a rape offender, and a madman still use their flawed emotions and wits."

Roxena smiled. "Humans are creatures that have feelings and reason. So, if you ask me which type, I'm an ordinary human being who acts on emotion and logic."

"If you ask me I tend to use which one, where I use rationality more often. And for you it is emotional. Hows it? Answer your question?"roxena asked after explaining at length.

"Yes." Yeah." Gerald touched his bumbling hair. The answer is simple why is it explained at length?

"Since you're a little interested in philosophy, what if we had a discussion?"bargain Roxena. His eyes were very interested in this conversation.

"My knowledge is not much. If you're not satisfied, please be understood."

"It's okay."

"In some countries there are lovers. They had married secretly and planned to tell the family. However, on the way home, they were intercepted by the husband's brother. Accused of committing a fatal crime to be sentenced to death. The wife was arrested and forced to marry her husband's murderer."

Gerald was silent to Roxena's words. It was very disturbing, calling out a small painful hole.

"The wife refused firmly because she was married. However, her husband's killer was very cruel and knew no rejection. The wife's family members were slaughtered one by one until the wife agreed. And finally his family's gone to leave himself."

"Next do you know what's going on, Gerald?"ask Roxena.

"The woman should have committed suicide or been killed." Gerald answered quickly.

Roxena tripped thin. "You're right. It should be the end of suffering because it will soon overtake her husband and family. But destiny says something else. The woman ... pregnant." Highlight Roxena's eyes dimmed a moment after saying that.

"In the end, the woman surrendered after all her family perished. He's so stupid, isn't he? Just because the baby is not yet fully grown, just from remembering the dream when the baby was born, he wavers. To be the wife of the murderer. Next, do you know what happened? Was he tortured or exalted?"

Roxena asked the question. This time Gerald thought about it for quite a while.

Her husband and family members were destroyed. However, no one discussed the husband's family members. From the beginning of the story to the present, it raises many traces of questions.

Married secretly, why?

Suddenly accused of a fatal crime and executed by his own brother.

His wife was forcibly married. Too many questions and speculations.

Gerald thought hard to answer him, "He was forcibly married, even though he was glorified, he would not feel it. It would be perceived as the hell of the world by him. If she was married just to be tortured, what would she marry? It was no longer the age of slavery. But slavery will never go away" replied Gerald. He looks sad.

"The woman .. is pathetic."

Roxena rounded her eyes. Pathetic said?

"Heh .. heheheh…." Chapped. Roxena really didn't expect it.

"So, do you think ... Who's wrong? That woman, her husband, or the killer?"ask Roxena again.

"Everybody has a chance of guilt. It has to be done to get certainty. But whoever is wrong, karma will follow. Evil or good, small or big, there is a fair reward for that."

Quiescent. Roxena.

I can't believe you could say something like this.

But, you were right about that. Karma follows the culprit.

"Ah .. forget that story." Roxena saw the wall clock. It's almost too late. "It's time to sleep."

Roxena got up, kept her books and glasses in the closet and laid her body on the bed.

"I'll sleep here!"

"My body just bends in there. You have an operating schedule tomorrow, how can you do it with a stiff body?"

It would be more rigid to sleep in that bed.

"I won't pounce on you."

After saying that, Gerald moved on. Sit stiffly and then raise both of his legs lying down. Slowly close his eyes.

Strange ... initially rigid but why feel comfortable?

A knock on the door interfered with a pair of sleeping people hugging. The man opened his eyes first. Grazing quietly, feeling the roar of the female breath in her arms.

That messy hair looks adorable. That plain face is so pretty. The man reached out his hand touching the woman's face.

"Eh." Immediately retract that hand. Observing the woman's sleep. But the knock on the door did not stop.

Immediately carefully move and open the door. "Secretary Erin?"

"Good morning, sir. Is Miss awake?" That man is Gerald. Erin asked as she stuck her head peek inside.

"He's still sleeping. Get him to work?"

Erin was surprised by the question. Usually they are indifferent.

What hit his head?

"Miss is not going to the office today. I just want to discuss a few things before work" Erin explained. Usually he wakes up Roxena. However, considering Gerald is in it, of course it will violate the privacy of husband and wife.

"Please step aside, sir."

"Ah, yes!" Just realized that Gerald was blocking his way with his body.

Gerald turned his body. Looking at Erin who directly opened the curtains and turned off the lights. "Time to wake up, Miss." And also take off Roxena's blanket. Make the owner open his eyes.

"Today's off let me sleep longer, Erin." With his face his pillow cleared with an annoyed tone.

"Even if you're not going to the office, there are tasks that you have to complete" Erin explained.

"Later on."

"Can't! The file is necessary for a meeting later."

"You're a bitch!"roxena's grumbling in the end. He woke up with a sullen face and all that could not be separated from the observation of Gerald who was still in place.

To be honest, she is adorable.

Gerald left the place, returned to his room to prepare.

"Your relationship with the Master is getting better" Erin said.

"He was waving a white flag" Roxena said after washing her face.

"really? You're so arrogant." Erin can't believe it.

"Hope is very easy to destroy, Erin."

"But this is better. I hope the next one will go according to plan," hopes Erin who is owned by Roxena. Even so, he had to make many backup plans.

"Where's the file?"

Erin immediately gave the stack of files she had brought to Roxena. Roxena checked it out immediately. Back to using his glasses.

About 30 minutes later there was a knock on the door. It was Gerald who was ready to go to work. "I have an early schedule."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Don't forget breakfast. I'm leaving." After saying goodbye, Gerald went to work. Erin was stunned by that.

"From the results of my investigation, you are a romantic person towards your partner. Jesus, Miss! Master isn't really in love with you, is he?!"

"Maybe it's his karma" Roxena said. He focused on his work. After this, you will eat breakfast and then go back to doing something else.

About an hour later, it was all over. Roxena stretched her body. "Today I leave it to you."

"Good, Miss."

"Have you had breakfast?"

"Already, Miss. I'm more punctual than you," chuckled Erin who managed to make Roxena's face darken.

"Oh. You're too slow, Erin."

"Eh, no, Miss!" Smiling is dangerous. Immediately escape before Roxena is completely enraged.

"Em .. Miss, are you having breakfast in the dining room or in the room?" Out one comes one. Lily is waiting for an answer.

"Just here."

"Come, Miss!"

Lily immediately serves breakfast for Roxena. Simple, fresh bread, some types of jam including rose jam, and of course rose tea.

Roxena had breakfast with three loaves of bread, using chocolate jam and roses. I forgot to sip the rose tea.

"This atmosphere is very calm" Roxena murmured. Lily is out. Leaving Roxena with her silence.

His memory goes back to the time before waking up. Roxena can feel it. The warmth during sleep does not come from the blanket. It was a warm and comfortable deck.

And remember the conversation last night.

The woman .. is pathetic.

"Eitherway. I don't know because of numbness either. It might be so sad that the sky listened to his plea. But, I don't know why I've been reminded and worried. I was reborn and returned because of a grudge or something else?"