THE SNOW-COLD DUDA
GATHERINGS

The clock has shown twelve o'clock over forty-five minutes. Ara was busy with the medical report of a child who became her special patient. Sister Leni came in to him.

" Fifteen minutes you have an appointment with Mr. Radit for a consultation with, Doctor Ara. But he's come and waiting ahead." Leni.

" Okay, just ask him to come straight here. I'll finish my job as soon as I can." Ara.

" Okay Doc, I'll call you." Leni's out of the room.

Ara is back on her computer.

Chequek...

" Please sit down Sir! Please wait a minute! I finish my job first." Said Ara without looking.

Yoga sat in front of Ara while continuing to smile holding back the happiness that was bubbling in her heart. Ara did not realize that the one sitting in front of her was her husband because Yoga was wearing a mask.

" You're more beautiful baby, I'm so happy I finally found you after all this time. I hope you don't avoid me anymore, I will explain all our misunderstandings and I will bring you back home as soon as possible. I'll also express my feelings for you, I'm sure you'll be happy to hear my expressions of love." Batin Yoga.

" It's done." Ara smiled happily.

The heart of Yoga is like being doused in ice water looking at the smile of Ara.

" Is there anything I can help you with, sir?" Tanya Ara looked at Yoga.

" Come back to me."

Degs...

Ara's heart was beating very fast when she heard a voice that was very familiar to her. His body felt stiff as if it could not be moved.

" Goodbye Ara." Yoga opened the mask.

Realizing that, Ara immediately moved from her place.

" I'm sorry I have a sudden affair." Ara.

" Don't run away from me!" Yoga blocks Ara's hands.

" Take my hand off!" Ara.

" Ara listen to my explanation! L'm...

" I don't need any explanation from you. Our paths are different, behave like two strangers who have just met." Said Ara pulling her hand.

Yoga stood in front of Ara while continuing to stare at her.

" Ara I admit I was wrong, I'm sorry! I'm sorry I hurt you all this time. I wasted your presence by my side, it was because I was unaware of my feelings for you back then. But after your departure, I realized everything. I realize that if I can't live without you, I realize that I love you." Yoga Reals.

" Do you think I believe in that word that comes out of your lips? Didn't I ever tell you that if one day you said you were in love with me, even though I wouldn't believe it. Because what? Because you're the one who didn't allow me to give you faith, right? And that goes for today." Said Ara firmly.

" It's only natural that you don't believe me because I'm wrong. But this time I speak the truth, I really love you, even my love for you is still the same today." Ujar Yoga's.

" Is not your heart and love for your late wife forever?" Tanya Ara mimicked the saying Yoga five years ago.

" I was wrong about that. Actually I had long held feelings for you before that incident. But I always dodged it because I didn't want to break my promise to my late wife. I've always felt guilty since his disappearance left me. Early in marriage I treated Rebecca badly. Just like what I did to you, back then he couldn't stand living with me either. She left me when Rere was three months old in the womb. I was as screwed up as I was when I lost you. After that, I realized that I loved him. I searched for him for three months and I could find him."

" I brought him back home and built a new life with him. We lived happily in love, but that happiness didn't last long because I had to lose Rebecca back when she gave birth to Rere. I was so overwhelmed at the time, I really felt frustrated. Why is it that when we start living happily, he leaves me? I feel so guilty for wasting her all my life with me, that I can't forgive myself that she's gone for giving birth to my son."

" I promised Rebecca in front of her body that I would love no other woman but her. I promise I won't betray her at any time. Until the moment you came into my life, I felt reborn with a new identity. All the attention you give me makes me depend on you, all the gentleness you show me makes my heart lean towards you."

" I felt like I had betrayed Rebecca's love. The guilt re-emerged in my heart. I always denied that I didn't love you because I didn't want to be tormented by my guilt for Rebecca. But every day my feelings get bigger for you, and it makes me even more tormented. I felt cramped and claustrophobic with two feelings that I was unable to control Ara. It's love and guilt." Yoga breathes out his breath. He looked at Ara who was silent.

" When I picked you up at the cafe, I saw you holding Rere affectionately made my feelings even more uncontrollable. I felt very confused at that moment. I was confused between having to choose to express my feelings or keep it hidden. Because I was so confused I went to the club. I was drunk there, and I couldn't go home. I finally got Karina to her house."

" When I got home, I saw Rere convulsing like that. I felt it was my chance to kick you out. I hope that by driving you away this feeling will go with you Ara, that way I don't feel guilty for betraying Rebecca. But it turns out I was wrong. This feeling is getting clearer and bigger after your departure. I really feel bad since your departure Ara. I can't live without you, please forgive me and come back to me!" Yoga at length.

" Have you finished talking?" Ask Ara.

" I told you the truth Ara, there was no one lie in my words just now. I love you, come back to me Ara!" Yoga holds Ara's hand.

" It's free for you to say and explain all that. It's all too late. There's no point in you explaining all that to me, you're just wasting my time." Said Ara letting go of her hand.

" What do you mean late Ara? Don't you love me anymore?" Ask Yoga.

" What does the word love mean if it only makes us hurt. My presence back then was only for Rere, and now Rere is big. She doesn't need me to be her mama because there's already a better replacement than me right? Then why did you ask me to come back to you? Five years made everything change. I'm no longer the Ara you used to be. Now we have a path with each other's goals, so there's no way we can be together like we used to." Ara.

" Why can't we be with Ara? You still...

" fra."

Ara and Yoga turned to the origin of the voice.

" Let's go! We have an appointment with investors today. Come on!" Dean holds Ara's hand and leaves Yoga.

" Ara wait!" Call Yoga.

Ara and Dean ignored the call of Yoga.

" Argh... " Yoga pulled her hair rough.

" I have to ask Ara for an explanation, why would she say that we can't be together? Did Ara remarry that man? Or did she give her love? No. gabe... This can't happen. I have to do something, I don't want to lose Ara anymore. Yep... I have to do something." Batin Yoga.