THE SNOW-COLD DUDA
THE PENT-UP TASTE

Until the day before noon, Riani had not. It made Dean feel anxious, restless, agitated and languished into one.

" Where the hell is he? Why is he not responsible for his patients? Not really professional." Grouse Dean.

Czech....

Dean turned his head towards the door, he smiled as he saw Riani walking up to him.

" Where did Sister Riani come from? Is this how you treat your patients? You're right...

" Why am I treating a patient who doesn't want to heal Doctor Dean?" Riani's question cut Dean's speech.

" the... Who doesn't want to heal?" Dean asked back while looking at Riani.

" you... The proof that you are not taking the medicine means that you do not want to recover, right? Why am I wasting my time taking care of you? There's still a lot of patients who need my manpower doctor Dean." Riani.

" It's not that Riani won't heal, but because... " Dean paused his words. He had to give a proper reason so that Riani would not be angry anymore.

" For what?" Investigate Riani.

" Because I can't take medicine." Dean's words were soft but still heard by Riani.

" What???" Pekik Riani chuckled.

" It's true you can't believe, how you can't take medicine when you're a doctor. And don't forget as long as I've treated you before, you've been fine taking the medicine." Riani.

" You don't know if I actually threw the cure away."

" Huh???" Riani gawked rounding her eyes while opening a little of her mouth.

" yes.. I threw away all the medicine. Just ask Sister Puput if you don't believe." Dean Said.

" I hope he doesn't ask me the truth, he'll be able to kill me if he knows my lies." Inner Dean.

" Yes now the doctor must eat, after taking the medicine so that it heals quickly. And let's get you out of here." Riani.

" I don't know why it feels so hard to part with Dean's doctor." Inner Riani.

" If I go home later, you come home too."

" huh? What's?" Riani asked in surprise.

" Yes, you're not a nurse in this hospital anymore but you're my personal nurse. You've signed a contract with me in a time that only I can determine when we're working for me. Without you knowing from now on your fate depends on me. I can fire you anytime I want, so just obey and be nice to me or you'll lose your job. " South Dean.

Riani rounded her eyes while opening her mouth slightly. He really doesn't believe that his life will be tied to Dean forever.

" wuck.... How can I not read carefully when signing the contract. I thought I was his nurse when he was treated here. If this is how I can fortify my heart not to be interested in him anymore. My heart is so fragile about love. Oh my... Why does it have to be like this? Fuck shit." Riani in the heart.

" Riani." Dean said with great emphasis.

" Oh yes Doc." Riani Sahut.

" From now on don't call me Doc anymore because I'm not a doctor in this hospital anymore. Now my name is Dean, I'm a businessman who's going to run my papa business. You got it, right?" Dean looked at Riani.

" What should I call you? Sir or Sir?" Ask Riani.

Riani smothers her mouth holding back her laughter.

" Why laugh?" Dean asked looking at Riani.

" Not only funny, your face blaster of time' want to be called mas same nurse. Sounds weird, I'm your subordinate and you're my superior. Is it worth calling you Mr. Dean." Riani pressed her last word.

Suddenly Dean clasped Riani's hand. Riani looked at Dean and vice versa.

" As I said before Ria, I love you. I don't know since when but I realized it after your departure. It's so hard for me to be away from you, I feel uneasy if I don't see you for a day. Let alone a day, an hour I already feel tremendous anxiety Ria. I made you my nurse was the only way I could always be around you. Be honest... I didn't take the medicine on purpose, I didn't want to get well. Because if I get well, you'll leave me. And I don't want to until that happens Ria. I'm willing to be paralyzed for the rest of my life as long as you're always with me. I hope you can understand my wishes and understand my feelings. I'm not forcing you to reciprocate my feelings right now, I want us to walk as the water flows until you feel the same way as me. Stay with me, if as long as you're with me you can't have feelings of love for me then I'll let you go." Dean lowered his head. He was not happy with what he said at the end of his sentence.

" When?" Ask Riani.

Dean looked up at Riani.

" When you want. How many days do you need? Or how many months? Or maybe how many years? I'll give it to you." Dean said.

" What if for one year, two years, three years, even five years like you waited for Doctor Ara all this time I couldn't return your feelings? Are you sure you'll just take me off? You're not going to do something that harms others like you did to Master Yoga?" Tanya Riani made sure.

" I won't do anything that harms others, but I will do something that harms myself." Dean's Law.

" What do you mean, Doctor Dean?" Tanya Riani frowned.

" You're gonna see me die in front of your eyes."

Jeduars.....

Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight. Riani was really surprised.

" How can you talk like that Doc? Does your life mean nothing more than my feelings?" Investigate Riani.

" no... I've felt the loss of Ara, after which you managed to steal my heart. I put my heart and my love for you, so why would I live if I lost it all again? Maybe I'm destined to love but not destined to be loved." Dean said sadly.

" You know I have it all, the treasure, the throne, the office I have. Luxury cars, luxury homes and anything I want I can afford. But what does all that mean if I can't get love? I want to live happily with the person I love and love me like any other man. I want to have a whole family like those who are always happy with their family. From childhood I've been used to myself, I've been lonely until now. Do I not deserve to be happy? Do I have to endure this lonely feeling of being alone for good?" Dean asked, cupping Riani's face.

Riani's heart trepid to see the man who had always looked perfect turned out to have a side of fragility that he had been hiding from others. Even with Ara he didn't say what.

" Ria's... Don't you want to accompany me to drive away the loneliness in my life? Maybe you think I'm just making you an escape. But trust me, Ria, I'm not like that. I really want you and I'll make sure you're the last woman in my life. I beg Riani, learn to accept me and return my feelings at this time. I will wait for you, I will wait until you have feelings for me. Do you want Riani?" Ask Dean expectantly.

Riani seemed to think a little.

" I'll try." Riani.

Grep...

Dean pulled Riani into his arms.

" Thank you Riani. I am very happy, from now on I will take the medicine so that I can recover quickly. Let's not be ashamed of having a disabled partner like me." Dean Said.

" Without you asking me, I've long since given you my heart and love, Doctor Dean. It's just you can't see any of it. Honestly I am very happy to hear your love expression but I am too ashamed to reply to it. I won't let you know if I love you first." Inner Riani.

TBC....