THE SNOW-COLD DUDA
YOGA TRAUMA

" This darling... " Yoga pauses his speech. He did not believe what he was seeing right now.

" That's a line of two mas, which means I'm pregnant right now. I'm pregnant with our child." Said Ara rubbing her stomach.

" Really?" Ask Yoga with sparkling eyes.

" God willing, it's true, the pregnancy test is accurate." Sahut Ara's.

" I can't believe what's going on right now, Mas is going to be a father to our dear second son. I am so happy that God finally gave us what we were waiting for. Oh my... Thank you for what you gave me today." Yoga Sayings.

" Yes, yes." Ara.

" Thank you dear." Yoga Hugs Ara.

" Thank you for this happiness. I am so happy, dear, you are the source of happiness. I wish you could keep him for all of us." Ujar Yoga's.

" God willing I will take good care of him. I am also very happy that finally my nature as a woman has approached perfect. Pray that we will always be healthy and protect Him. Hopefully, during labor, I will be given ease and long life."

Degs...

Ara's speech makes Yoga feel dejavu. Suddenly he took off his embrace just like that made Ara astonished.

" Why is it?" Tanya Ara looked at Yoga.

" Well... " Yoga sits in a closed closet.

Suddenly cold sweat just flowed down his forehead.

" Why are you? Why are you sweating like this? Don't worry me like this, Mum!" Ara shakes Yoga's shoulders.

" G*g*rkan your content!"

Jedeurrr.....

Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight, Ara's stiff body could not be moved. He was really surprised to hear the words Yoga.

" aa... How could Mas ask me to do such a heinous thing? A.. Does this kid mean nothing to you? Wh.. Do you think this child will be a burden to you? Or is Mas worried that I won't love Rere after this child is born?" Tanya Ara was nervous. He could not hold back the tears flowing down his cheeks, he immediately wiped his tears.

" fra." Yoga holds Ara's hand.

" I don't want to lose you, I don't want you to give birth to that child."

" What is this Mas?" Jerky Ara jerking rough hand Yoga.

" Don't we all dream of this child? Do we not always look forward to this day? You want another child, Rere wants a sister. Then why did you change Mas? What reason?" Tanya Ara shook Yoga's shoulder.

Yoga could only be silent while wiping away her tears. He could not hold back his tears seeing Ara crying in front of him.

" Say Mas! What reason?" Jerky Ara.

" Because I don't want you not to just give birth to that child." Yoga jerks make Ara prance in shock.

" A.. What's?" Nervous Ara stared at Yoga.

" I don't want you to go through the same thing with Rebecca. I was afraid of losing you when I gave birth to that child Ara. It was possible that I could accept Rebecca's departure because you managed to become the antidote, but this time I won't be able to accept Ara's departure. I don't want to lose you... Please do not give birth to the child!" Yoga Speech sobbing.

" Athaghfirullahal... Where is your faith in God? Everything that happens is God's destiny. Every human being has his own destiny. Then why do you equate me with Mas's ex-wife?" Ara said he did not understand why Yoga can think like that.

Ara did not know that the trauma that Yoga felt was so profound. He does not want to lose his wife again after giving birth later.

" I'm traumatized Ara hiks... " Isak Yoga.

" I was traumatized by the loss of my wife when she gave birth to my son, I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't want to lose you, Ara, I can't live without you... " Switch Yoga hugging Ara's waist. He put his face into Ara's stomach.

" Istighfar Mas! Many pray to God that what He fears will never happen again. Even if it happens, it is the will of destiny. Do not be afraid because we have God. He is everything, He is the owner of everything. God knows what's best for his servant." Ara stroked the head of Yoga.

" What if your destiny is the same as Rebecca's? What if you're gone after giving birth to that child, Ara? I don't want to take any chances, before the kid gets older, I beg you g"g"rkan the kid."

" Mad." Oh." Ara's yelling annoyed.

Arrive arrive...

" Mom... Mama why? Why is Mama screaming?" Tanya Rere approached Ara.

Ara clenched tightly her hand, she took a deep breath and then threw it away violently.

" It's okay, baby." Sahut Ara's.

" Are you guys fighting?" Ask Rere to make sure.

" No, who said we had a fight? We are just happy, baby. Did Rere know that Rere was gonna be a big brother any minute." Ara.

" Is it really Ma? Does that mean your mom is pregnant?" Ask Rere.

" Dear, in here is Rere's growing sister." Said Ara sticking Rere's small hand into her stomach.

" Hey baby sister, this is brother. Get big fast in here huh, brother can't wait to play with you." Rere.

" What's a girl's baby brother?" Tanya Rere looked up at Ara.

" Mama doesn't know yet, wait a few more months. Now let's go to Rere's room! We can play together first, tomorrow when our sister is born we play three." Ara.

" Yey.... Rere's happy to have a sister, Rere will tell Rere's friend's friend that he's grown up because he's called brother." Rere said happily.

" Alright, come!" Bring Ara.

Ara holding Rere's hand left Yoga alone.

Yoga pulled her hair out violently. He cursed his stupidity by saying such a bad thing to Ara.

" Oh my God, how should I be? I'm afraid of losing Ara but I don't want to destroy Rere and Ara's happiness either. I have to how is God?" Monologue Yoga.

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The night after putting Rere to sleep, Ara returned to her room. He approached Yoga who was currently sitting on the edge of the sofa while supporting his head.

" Why don't you have dinner? Is she angry with me because of me...

" I'm sorry." Yoga cuts Ara's speech.

" For what?" Ask Ara.

" Because I've been talking badly about our son. I changed my mind, sorry I hurt you and our son. I hope you understand how I feel right now, dear." Yoga holds Ara's hand.

Ara sighed softly, she closed her eyes trying to understand what Yoga was feeling right now.

" I forgive Mas. Do not be afraid and do not be sad anymore! Not necessarily everything I was afraid of happened to me. I will take good care of this child. And I will take good care of myself too. God willing God will always be with us to take care of our families." Connect Ara.

" Please promise me to stay by my side, never leave me and our children behind." Yoga Sayings.

" God willing." Sahut Ara's.

Yoga took off his embrace, he looked up to Ara when he hugged Ara again. He really did not want to lose Ara.

" Well... " Say Ara.

" Mad will always pray for health, safety and a long life for you and our dear child. I will always ask God for that so that we can be together forever until we are old." Yoga Sayings.

" Amin." Sahut Ara's.

" Tighten yourself now! Live what is like running water. Be assured God has a wonderful plan for both of us." Ara.

" Yes dear." Sahut Yoga's.

" Sadly Papa, forgive Papa for speaking ill of your mother. Papa doesn't mean to reject you, baby, but Papa is just scared of what's coming. Papa loves you baby, healthy in here. May you and your mother always be healthy, long and smooth in the process of delivery later. Take care of your mom for your dear Papa. Papa loves you." Yoga kiss Ara's belly.

" We love you too." Ara.

TBC..

Is there anyone experiencing what Yoga feels like today? There must be yes... Everyone has their own trauma.

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