THE SNOW-COLD DUDA
FEELING DISAPPOINTED

Arriving at the house Yoga brought Ara to his room. Ara put Rere to bed in his box. He approached Yoga sitting on the sofa.

" Well, I'm going downstairs to prepare dinner, before that do you need anything? Or do you want to request a dish that you want to eat? I'll cook it specially for Mas." Ara stared at Yoga.

" You don't have to play a real wife, you don't have to do anything for me. I can be alone, you better focus on taking care of Rere so you don't fuss anymore." The Yoga speech made Ara frown.

" I'm your wife, Mas, it's my duty to take care of you, right? So whatever you need I'll take care of it." Ara.

" Your status is indeed the wife and mother of my son. But you will never be able to have my heart and love. For both shall belong to my late wife forever."

Jedeurrr...

Pain, tightness, pain, that's what Ara is feeling right now. The hope of a happy life full of love with her husband and stepson is extinct already. He thought Yoga would accept him as his wife even if they had not loved each other. But who would have thought if Yoga even broke his hopes.

He wants to cry but he has to look strong and strong in front of Yoga. Ara does not want Yoga to oppress him even more if he knows the weakness of Ara.

" I don't expect anything from this marriage except the happiness of my daughter. Ah not more precisely my stepdaughter. Although you have taken away my rights as your wife but I hope you do not take away my rights as the mother of your child. Because I'm not the one who's gonna lose, but yourself. It doesn't matter if you don't want to give me your heart and love, it means you made a false promise to my father. And I'll always remember what you said Mas, if someday you say you love me, I won't believe it at all. You've committed yourself. For that, fortify your heart as hard as possible so that you do not fall into my charm. Stay in love with your late wife and just think of me as your daughter's nanny. I'm sure you'll feel lost a second time someday." Ara leaves the Yoga room.

Ara leaned her back against the door leaf. She stroked her chest, several times she said Istighfar for having dared to speak harshly to her husband.

" Oh my God... Give strength and patience for me to face yoga in the future. I'm sure it's not just this I feel heartache, maybe tomorrow I feel more pain than this. I must be strong! Don't let me give up before my time. Now my only goal here is to take care of Rere. Ara's spirit! Everything will be beautiful in time." Ara's words passed from there.

Yoga pulled her hair rough. He cursed his folly for speaking so to Ara.

" Why am I doing this to him? At least if I can't love her I can't say it, right? He was offended like that. Stupid you Yoga. What did he say? Fall into his charm? So confident of him."

" What if I fall in love with her one day?" Yoga seems to think.

" No no... That can't happen. She's right I have to fortify my heart, I don't want to love anyone else but Rebecca. This is all I do for you, baby. You're my last love, I won't love anyone but you." Monologue Yoga.

In the kitchen Ara is concocting vegetables, he will cook chicken soy sauce and beef rendang and vegetable capcay with delicious beef meatballs.

" Duh diligently sister-in-law." The princess approached Ara.

" A housewife must be diligent, right? If lazy later the child with her husband starved." Sahut Ara's.

" You are indeed a good and responsible girl Ra. May sister Yoga accept you and love you with all her heart." Princess Saying.

" I didn't think about it Put. Because I felt that it wouldn't be possible if your own brother closed his heart to another woman. My goal right now is just to take care of Rere until Rere is big, love issues I leave to God Put. If indeed we are paired for sure love will come by itself, but if there is no possibility of us separating." Ara looked at the Princess.

" What do you mean Ra? You have no intention of leaving Yoga, do you?" Search Princess.

" I can't promise you that Put, I'm afraid I can't keep it. Whatever happens in front of him I leave it to God alone. I've obviously been trying." Sahut Ara continued his activities.

" I don't know why I feel Ara's words are full of meaning. What is he really planning? Or maybe Yoga sister said something to him that made his heart ache? I saw his face look sad too. His smile was also forced. I hope nothing bad happens to their relationship." The Princess in my heart.

" Where is Yoga?" Gumam Ara circulated the view to all corners of the room.

Ara walked up to the balcony of the open room, from between the doors she could see clearly Yoga who was sitting on the chair while staring at Rebecca's photo on her phone.

" I'm sorry baby, today I married another woman besides you. But you don't get me wrong, I married her because I needed her to take care of our daughter not for loving her or wanting to make her my wife. Rere needs someone to take care of him, baby. I'll do anything for our daughter. I even made a promise that I couldn't possibly keep in front of the woman's father to get it." Yoga stroked her phone screen as if she was stroking Rebecca's cheek.

" Never think that I will forget you until you are always in my heart. I cannot love another woman because this heart has died with you. Sleep quietly there baby, I love you so much." Yoga hugged her phone screen.

" Bad Rebecca is lucky to have your love so deep. I hope one day I can be as lucky as him. I can have your heart and love." Inner Ara.

" Mad." Oh." Call Ara open the door.

" Lunches are ready." Ara.

Yoga rubbed his tears, he looked up at Ara at a glance then passed leaving Ara without saying a word. Ara sighed softly, she immediately followed Yoga down.

Arriving at the dining table it turns out there already has a mistress Hana and Princess of course.

" Why are you bothering to cook Ara? You're a newlywed, you should serve your husband." Madame Hana said.

" It's okay Ma, it's one of my duties as a wife." Sahut Ara's.

Ara took a Yoga plate, she was about to get Yoga food but Yoga refused it.

" I can take it myself." Yoga took his plate from Ara's hand.

again Ara sighed slowly.

" I'm sorry! If you don't like me, at least don't embarrass me in front of your family like this." Tegur Ara hums the heart of Yoga.

Yoga looked at his mother and daughter, they threw their faces away.

" Ara if Yoga doesn't want you to serve, just let him. At least you won't be hurt by his rejection." Madame Hana said.

" No Ma, I don't want to sin for that. No matter what rejection Mas Yoga gives me, I will still serve him." Sahut Ara made Yoga a little surprised. He thought that if he refused, Ara would no longer serve him.

Ara smiled glancing at Yoga's face.

" I want to see when you'll turn me down." Inner Ara.

TBC.....