THE SOUL OF MAYRA
71 (Dear that I admire #therealend)
The moonlight highlighted the beautiful face of a teenage boy who was lying on his chest in bed, bearing one of his arms.
The reality that felt like just a dream was imagined by him. Zikra got up from his factory to the balcony of the room. He defends the starry night sky with his hands holding the balcony barrier.
One star was the most glittering among the others, pulling the corners of his lips formed a line of sincere smiles.
"Why did you make me back off before I tracked down the fight, Mayra?" muttered.
Zikra endured bitter and heart-slashed. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. He wanted to be angry, but he couldn't. The more he could not bring out what he felt, the more his heart slashed.
"Maybe you're leaving this fast, because God doesn't want you to drown in an increasingly sane world."
"How else should I be able to let you go without interspersing sorrow? I want you to be happy there, not tormented."
Zikra lowered his gaze, no longer looking at the brightest stars in the night sky. Zikra looked down in the old.
"I want you to be happy even though it is not me who is happy, but God who will replace me to paint a smile on your shady face."
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Still in the same day and night, a young boy in a white T-shirt with an abstract image on his front was writing something on his light blue paper. The color of the paper reminded him of all the memories filled by the same girl.
...Dear that I admire...
...The first time I met you that day, I was probably prejudiced about you. You always duck, playin fingers while komat-kamit, always far away if the distance of the interlocutor lo close the same lo....
...Worse yet, before I met you, just look at your photos. I have dared to guess, if you are a typical girl who is old-fashioned and certainly nebosenin. But, those statements I deny since I met you accidentally....
...Time works by itself. Show you to me, if you're the most beautiful pearl in the sand. I was amazed to see you even though I could never look you in the eye. I am amazed because of the words that always make me mute. I admire you because your style of clothing is different from others. I'm amazed you, but I always avoid, do not ngaku cake to confess my feelings to lo....
...To the extent that I have the intention to enter the pesantren because of lo. Yeah, I want you to fall for me. But, before that happens, God invites you to make it on His side. As if God is not willing if you have the same feelings of one of His creatures, because you are too perfect and valuable for His creatures to have....
...But, I realized that God is not evil or unjust. God just doesn't want a girl as good and beautiful as you to be hurt by one of His creatures. God only wants you to be happy without hurt....
...Until now, I didn't know about you and your parents. What I see from lo it, you are always tough and good as everyone. I have never seen you cry, because before you cry, God has already picked you up....
...You need to know, even if it seems impossible. My feelings will remain even if there is no one. You may go, but your feelings will not go away until God replaces you in my life. It's impossible, right, I hurt my soul mate because I feel for someone who doesn't exist?...
...I am a fool when it comes to admiring. Have a taste but don't want to confess. And stupidly again, I did not reveal the feeling I was left at a time that God loves. Maybe not all of those things need to be revealed. Perhaps, sometimes it is just self-inflicted....
...I don't know what love is. But, I was amazed, liked, flowered when you were near me or just I looked from afar....
...Mayra Athifa, I'm the coward you've ever met....
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Date: 6th July 2021
Note Author:
●Such satisfaction can finally revise the plot to some characters in this story. Which story/story of Mayra is my first.
●Bab after chapter 71 REMOVED