The Sweetest Harsh
Episode-22 Both Times

The weakly lying Tiara almost lost consciousness when her body was on the bed and was pushed towards the operating room. His pale face and wrinkled countenance showed how fragile and aching he was at the moment with his still vigorous efforts to maintain a conscious state. Alpha is not one step away from that side of the herder. One of the man's hands clasped Tiara's fingers just lying beside her body.

A few steps before arriving in the operating room, Tiara briefly tightened her finger links with Alpha fingers and said. “Alfa ... will it hurt?” His words were softened so that Alfa had to advance her body to hear the woman's words more clearly.

The man's body suddenly stiffened and his heart was muddled, slashed by the words of his wife who was so sad. Tiara felt scared at this moment. The man had not expected that his wife was pregnant again and carelessly left the rest of the oil droplets on the kitchen floor so that Tiara slipped. He wanted to slap his own face and hit his body hard for making Tiara like this. I don't know what can replace his regrets with circumstances that have already become porridge.

Now, in such a state that would certainly provide a great deterrent of pain, Tiara still asked, will the operation hurt her later? God, if only she could, Alpha would have loved to sleep lying on the bed in place of Tiara.

Without feeling it, the pain in his heart was pushing a sense of heat to his eyes. He really wants to cry now. But, with all his soul force, Alfa said softly to the side of Tiara's cheek and kissed her a glance.

“No dear Tiara. Hang on, you're my super strong woman.” Alfa straightened her body with a curve, then released her hand that was not released. Letting the officers who had been willing there bring Tiara into the room, leaving her the crumbling herself.

Doctor Jeni is not in place. Tiara was eventually treated by a surrogate doctor as soon as she came in with severe bleeding. The doctor said that his wife had a miscarriage due to a fall while at home, as told by Alfa earlier. A violent clash made her uterus contract and her cervical mouth open prematurely. Moreover, according to Tiara's medical history that has been recorded neatly mentions that her uterus is weak and should she do bed rest.

Tiara had unknowingly re-conceived her and it made her happy before accepting the fact that it was untenable. He felt that he was a useless man because he was in a state that could not please his wife when welcoming the pregnancy period. His mistake when giving an angry reaction to the shock of the first pregnancy that Tiara was about to convey was still stirring his mind. And now, he was punished by guilt again for his careless guarding of Tiara. Guilt. Ah, Lord, why is he surrounded by that discomfort that is reluctant to go away.

Alfa beat her head against the wall where she was sitting leaning against the waiting chair. His eyes were closed and heavy. Waiting for Tiara who is doing the curette process in there. Indeed, if he still has the power at this time, he would like to distribute it entirely to his wife.

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Tiara instantly lost consciousness as the injection of the anesthetic drug spread throughout her body. Her eyes dimmed and her body weakened without a fight when doctors began the curettage process with the help of two nurses. The short process was not painful for him at the moment. However, leaving a pretty painful mark for her uterus that can only be relieved by taking drugs.

For Tiara, doctors perform additional actions in the form of hysteroscopy to see further the condition of the uterus, so the process of curettage takes longer. That additional action makes it possible to clearly see the real situation that appears there. Hysteroscopy is equipped with a small flashlight so that medics can know the real state of the patient's uterus.

After recording the results in the surgery report, the doctor ended the operation by removing the opening tool of the cervix attached there. Allowing Tiara who was still asleep in her forced sleep to then take her to the inpatient room for recovery.

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Tiara is still under the influence of drugs and it is likely that Alfa will still have to wait a while longer until the influence is gone and the woman regains her consciousness. The bed went through several aisles and arrived at one of the treatment rooms that had been prepared for her.

The nurse nodded her head to say goodbye and left the two of them in the room. Alfa sat on the edge of the bed and stroked the head of his wife slowly. Hope Tiara wakes up with the touch she gave.

In that forced sleep, Tiara felt extremely trembling and cold. His entire body felt shivering like he was in a place with a very low temperature. Does no one feel sorry for him? Where is everybody? How frightened he began to ambush his body in the dark. The pain began to perch in his stomach, not to mention the nausea that was increasingly felt. There was a long ringing in his ear before he began to feel a repetitive motion touching his head, asking him to wake up. He was dragged by the light that was getting closer and closer to him, without caring for him who was stumbling in his helpless body. The buzzing disappeared and began to be caught in a quiet atmosphere with the clockwork that chimed around the clock. The sound sent a signal to both of his visual nerves to open up, knowing exactly what was happening.

His net opened slowly and his heartbeat pumped out quickly as if giving cheers as he had just been shocked. The brown eyeballs were welcoming him. Oh, the warmth started to come to his heart. He felt comfortable and his fear slowly disappeared.

Is he just dreaming?

Alfa smiled sweetly and clasped her hands tightly onto one of Tiara's hands lying beside her body. Tiara's eyes then switched to clearly staring at the wall clock that was right beside Alfa's head in her view. His brain started to turn his life around before arriving at this place. Oh, it's only an hour from his arrival at this hospital. Why does it feel like a hundred years he hasn't met Alfa?

The nausea and vomiting that had arrived at the tip of his throat made Tiara suddenly silence his mouth and tilt his body to the edge of the bed and attach his body there to remove all of his entrails. Alfa also swiftly held his arm and slowly massaged the nape of Tiara. But nothing came out of his stomach. Precisely the pain in his heart which now feels squeezing his digestion. The woman suddenly remembered that this morning she was about to pick up her bad breakfast before she fell down and arrived at this hospital. Oh, she hasn't even fed a spoonful of breakfast at the table that her husband has prepared.

“You nauseous? Have you not eaten yet?” Alfa frowned looking at the exhausted Tiara and went back to lying on the bed. The man deliberately did not wake Tiara earlier because he could not bear to disturb his wife who was still sound asleep and now ... Tiara has to endure hunger?

“Tiara forgive me. I'll get you some food.” Alfa had already rushed to get out of the room, but Tiara prevented. Her husband's hand was blocked and then put his chin to the edge of the bed where he was sitting.

“Please, don't leave me alone.” Tiara's memory of her being in the hospital a few months ago was like a dejavu to her. He was afraid that Helmia would come here when Alfa was not around. The woman still felt intimidated if she had to face the strange gaze of her in-laws that always made her uncomfortable.

Alfa heard the pleading sentence that disturbed her heart. “I won't leave you for that one Tiara. Why are you worried?” His brain signals instantly caught the same fear when the blind morning Jonah and Helmia came to see him. Did Tiara feel scared because of that? Seeing Helmia's dislikeful gaze when she sneaked out of her treatment room without excuse.

Tiara fell silent. Confused by what he was trying to say. But Alfa remained in place. Swipe his cheek with his finger.

“I'll be here .…” Alfa finally smiled wryly and tried to fade the worries that appeared on Tiara's deathly pale face.