This Love Killed Me (Dark Love)
Seduce God

Jordan's body stiffened instantly. Hearing the word 'sorry', Jordan's mind was getting more and more careless. Jordan gripped the doctor's arm more tightly and also looked at him with a sharp look.

"Why are you saying sorry?" ask Jordan quickly.

"Calm down, please calm down for a moment. I'll explain your wife's condition." The doctor replied while looking at Jordan fixedly.

"Say, Doctor." Jordan let go of his grasp.

"Your wife has uterine cancer" the doctor said seriously.

"Cancer uterus." Jordan repeated the Doctor's words with trembling. He did not expect that Freya experienced such a bitter thing.

"Yes. The disease will spread if it is not treated. The most effective treatment is surgery. However, the risk is quite high. After his uterus was removed, your wife could not have any offspring" Dr. Scholar explained.

Jordan holds his head, he is caught in a difficult choice. Deep in his heart, he desperately wants the baby of his beloved woman. However, it is impossible to ignore Freya's safety. After all, with the cancer lodged in her womb, is it possible that her seed could grow there?

"Doctor, do your best for my wife. If the surgery is the right choice, do it. But before that, may I meet him?" Jordan wiped the corner of his eyes that were getting wet.

"Please" replied the doctor.

Jordan stepped in and walked over to Freya who was lying weakly on the bed.

Clear circles flowed from the corner of his net, and it made Jordan's heart even more hurt.

Slowly, Jordan approached and stood right next to him.

"Darling," call Jordan. "Don't cry." Jordan rubbed Freya's tears with both fingers.

"Honey, I___" Freya bit her lip and hung up her sentence. It was too fragile for her heart to reveal the truth.

Jordan leaned over and hugged Freya's body tightly. He rubbed his wife's hair gently, trying to calm and stop the tears that continued to linger.

"I'm not perfect, i___" Freya whispered.

"Don't say that, honey. For me, you are still perfect and special. I love you, no matter what. Calm your heart and don't think about things. There's me here, you're not alone, baby," Jordan said, tightening his arms.

"But I really want it, and I'm sure you're the same, too" Freya said on the sidelines.

"Whatever my desire to have it is no greater than my feelings for you. I sincerely love you, darling, I don't demand much from you." Jordan lets go of his embrace and wipes away Freya's tears that refuse to stop.

"Whatchu mean? jordan asked, not understanding.

"This disease exists because of the drugs that I often use. You remember when we lived together in Russia? Many types of poisons and antidotes that enter my body, all of which trigger this disease. Honey, is this karma for me?" Freya looked at Jordan fixedly. His black bead implied an extremely strong heartache.

Jordan was in his place. His heart was scattered because of the reality that back stabbed. Again, he became the cause of bitter things in Freya's life. If only he hadn't forced Freya into bait. That woman must have been fine until now. He lived in darkness, without love and light. As much as it hurts to live in silence, it is not as painful as staring at a loved woman hurt by herself.

"I'm sorry that troubles you so much. My greatest regret is to bring you into my world. I'm sorry, honey," whispered Jordan with a heavy gasp.

Freya did not reply, she just closed her eyes while lamenting her painful fate.

Shadows of the past, flashed in memory. About his abomination while taking lives. About his abominations that destroy others with cunning tricks. About his arrogance that seemed to be able to grasp the world. How bad his behavior was in the past. How great the consequences of his actions. God has now established justice. What he had done had arrived at a turning point. Reality holds him accountable for the bad things he's been through.

Jordan and Freya mourn the wound and mourn. Both of them dissolved in regret that was somewhere in the limit. After a long time on the wrong path, now they arrive at a sorry titian. One reality after another, slapped them and made him realize from a gloomy dream.

Witnessed the tears that kept falling. Both of them asked God for forgiveness. Hope the strands of beautiful things can still be achieved in the future, even though there is no opportunity to have the fruit of love.

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A burly foot, stepping and entering the mosque in the hospital area.

Water dripped from the end of his hair, as well as his face, looked wet from the ablution water. My blue eyes, staring at the prayer mat held on the floor. Then he stood before the Qibla and prepared to face the Divine.

The man who was none other than Jordan, he prostrated himself before God. Begging for forgiveness for sins and mistakes he has committed, also offering prayers for the wife who is struggling between life and death.

In the past, Freya often faced death. However, Jordan was never this scared. In this instant, he was truly afraid of the test that might not have come to an end.

In silence, Jordan rested and raised his hand. He closed his eyes and saw a sketch of Freya's face in pain. Without feeling it, her tears dripped, soaking her palms as well as her lap. Repeatedly her lips murmured, offering prayers for the salvation of the beloved woman.

"O Allah, if indeed You do not trust the servant to take care of Your care, the servant is willing. But I beg you, O Allah, to save the wife of the servant. Allow us to stay together, and give us the opportunity to improve and get back on your path. You who know how the servant feels about him, please do not test the servant with anything heavy, O Allah. The servant is not able if You keep him away from the side of the servant. Give us Your Ridho, O God." Jordan cupped both his hands in his face.

Jordan cried for a moment, breaking the burden of a very stifling heart. At the same time, in a different place, Freya is undergoing a risky operation.

Jordan waits for him by praying, he knows only God has a miracle. He also knew that only God had the right to the way of life of His servant, including the time limit in the world. Jordan tries to seduce God, so that Freya remains allowed to stand by his side.

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