Three Generations of Sultans
136. Just Not Reliable

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All the events in this world are no coincidence, everything must have a purpose. And this life must go on even if it is not in line with expectations.

POV DIMAS

I grew up in a loving family, since childhood my father and mother always poured out their affection for me, as well as my oma and opa who now live in Singapore.

My days went by so naturally, that I grew up and went to college in the country that raised my father, until I met a girl who was far away, but felt close to the heart.

Adelia Aghata, she is the girl, a confiding friend in all forms, hard, sad, happy all we tell without knowing each other's full identity, but we feel comfort in it.

Until finally he came to the same campus as me, when I wanted to try to hope more with him, it turns out that God did not give way, because when he met me it turns out he already had, who had, but Adelia still thinks of me as someone special even as a friend.

Although I was disappointed but I tried to mengikhlaskan, because my ideals from the first to become a lecturer was the most important.

But it turns out that God's destiny is not so good for me, in the middle of my life journey I experienced a very severe ordeal, namely my mother had a great accident.

And that was the beginning of the destruction of my life, especially when my mother was in a coma for several months and finally God took it from us.

I had experienced depression because I still could not accept the situation, as if my mother's shadow was still there, my days were deteriorating, my college was a mess, my life was not good, and again the figure of Adelia who came in my life.

Although it turns out that he was also devastated by having to part with his lover, but his spirit is still hard, his determination is strong, so that all of it has a good impact on me.

Moreover, he did take a lecture in Psychology, with a soft speech he managed to calm me and always helped me to get back up from the slump.

Until finally I can be okay it's all because Adelia, had thought of wanting to have it but it seems her heart can not turn away from her ex-lover and more closed to all the men, he said, but I can understand, maybe his love is too deep.

Still able to continue with him even though only as a friend I was lucky, and sure enough when his former lover returned to his beloved homeland, suddenly he immediately married his former lover, he was married, many rumors are confusing, but I believe Adelia can certainly be happy, because indeed her love is still intact with the man despite several years apart.

And from him I knew a girl named Hesti, a woman who was friendly, supple and always smiling.

At first I saw her as mediocre, she was beautiful but I didn't think she was as attractive as Adelia, or maybe because I didn't want to try to recognize her.

But over time I felt a little interested, because when chatting with Nesti and Adelia, I could always smile with all the topics and jokes they talked about.

Adelia who used to be just smiling can be a figure who likes to joke because close to Nesti, maybe the positive virus is contagious, even I became curious about her.

Until I tried to recognize her more closely, and it turns out that she is indeed a pleasant woman, but after my mother died she once told me, never hurt women, respect women, respect women, do not be a cowardly man who can only ruin his honor, and dozens of times mama suggested to ta'aruf only if indeed I was able to build a household.

Because of my busy life as a young lecturer, new and still to be trained in various cities, I rarely met him, but I can still remember his smile and jokes.

Until suddenly I saw her coming to Raymond and Hana's wedding reception yesterday with my father, which was even more surprising my father treated her very sweet and even took her in a friendly way.

Indeed, at that time I had several times I saw father and Nesti chatting together, but it was not at all thought that they would be that close, even seem to have a special relationship.

And what I was afraid of actually happened, when I asked my father to admit, that they were in a special relationship.

A liverache?

Actually my heart doesn't hurt too much just because he's got it, but what hurts more is that my father is his partner.

It broke my heart to remember my late mother who was calm at his side. It was as if I could not accept that my mother's position was replaced by another woman, let alone that she was my best friend, who was the same age as me.

I felt unacceptable and finally had a big fight with my father, my emotions seemed to be uncontrollable when I saw my father as if he had forgotten the mother who had conceived and brought me into this world.

Therefore I deliberately opposed it, even I invited my father to compete, even though Adelia the first girl stole my heart, but when she started to know Nesti well, she said, it turned out that she also felt special because of her jolly figure.

After two days of fighting, I realized that this was all wrong.

Dad seemed to lose the spirit of his life, as a child I also wanted to see him happy, but I still could not accept if he was the one.

" Well, shall we have breakfast?"

" You go first, son, I'm not hungry yet." Answer me with a forced-looking smile.

At first I hated to see my father, but when I saw his face was pale, lethargic and no appetite at all, I felt guilty, he was so hurt that I was fine.

" Not hungry how? I have not eaten rice for three days, are you tired of living?"

I wanted to silence my father, but to see him fall like that I could not bear to.

" Pad's mouth bitter son, later drink milk just as honey is not papa, continue to breakfast yes, I want to go to the room again." Said the father who left me at the dinner table alone.

" Woaah... What because of that woman? what did he do to make you like this." I deliberately lured father, to find out the main cause of father like that.

" Dimass?"

" What's so special about him in dad's eyes?" I asked back in a high enough tone.

" Dimas, don't bring him in on this."

" Cuisine is because of Hesti's father like this, why should he be among all the women in this world, it seems like she's a mediocre girl right, has she done anything with dad?"

" Dimas enough!"

" Dad?" I still don't want to give up.

" If you don't like him being close to you, it's okay, but don't vilify him in front of you! understand you!"

Dad's voice rose, no matter how deep his love for Hesti was, how much could it exceed my interest in the girl?"

" Is that woman too special for you, even more than you love me?"

" Dimas, come on, I don't want to argue with you!" Lack of sleep may be the cause of daddy being like this I thought.

" If I want to marry Nesti tomorrow, do you mind?" I tried to fish deeper.

" Have you contacted him? It's been three days that the number is off, has Hesti changed the number? or something happened to him?"

" Dad?" I don't think with my mind.

" Tell Dimas, is he okay?"

It turned out that Dad was worried about him a lot, I thought he was scared because I was going to take the woman, but it turned out that Dad was more worried about Hesti's situation.

I don't know why I was so ashamed of myself as a young man? what's wrong with Him?

" I don't know either." I finally gave up, because I didn't know.

The older I get, the more aware everything that's together will one day go away. Either abandoned or left.

" Fuh.yeah, I'm just going to rest, daddy's head is a little dizzy."

My father wants to go back to his room, but I'm not done talking.

" Did you really love him?"

" Dimas, come on. I don't want to talk about it right now." Dad's condition does not look fit, his face is pale, but I am still very curious about him.

" What is my affection for Hesti more than my affection for my late mother?"

" Dimass?"

" Reply father!" That question has been my problem all along.

" Son.we are different from your late mother, you are calm there Dimas, if your mother is still alive she does not want her child to think like you are now!"

" When with me? which is more dear?"

" Daddy never got this way, didn't you when I was sick? has Hesti defeated everything in my heart?"

" Dimase! watch what you say!" Dad's emotional, but I don't care.

" My father wants to know why!"

When my father raised his voice I raised my voice, perhaps even our voice echoed throughout the room.

Braaak!

" Dad!"

Suddenly he fell and lay on the floor in a helpless limp.

How surprised I was when my father suddenly fainted like that, it's still good that I haven't gone up the stairs, if until he was knocked down in the middle of the stairs and passed out, I definitely won't forgive myself.

It's my fault, father who is not feeling well, still I insist to argue with him.

I immediately raised my father assisted with a symbol that turned out to see our debate from the kitchen.

" Are we just going to the hospital?" After a while, but my father was unconscious.

" Just call Arka's personal doctor, it looks like Mr. Arka is just lacking energy because he has not eaten in a few days." Simbok who had complained to me about the state of my father from yesterday.

" Good mbok!"

Sure enough, after the father's personal doctor examined him and put an infusion hose in his hand, the father immediately realized and it really made me very relieved.

" Mr. Arka, please take care of his diet huh?"

" Oh, doctor."

" This is not like the habits of Mr Arka deh, usually Mr Arka is always good at regulating diet and maintaining health, after the previous father's disease?"

" Sorry doctor, I'm a little negligent."

" Don't apologize to me, apologize to your body, because he's the one who's tormented by your father's negligence."

" Yes, doctor, I'll fix it."

" Well then, while the father still use the infusion hose first yes, but still have to eat, even though it does not taste good, it must be forced, for the sake of the health of the father."

" Both doctors and emm.. Can doctors prescribe all sleeping pills and appetite enhancers? in these few days I was less able to sleep well and often lost my appetite."

" What's the matter?" Ask the doctor.

" No doctor, only possible soy."

" Yes, I will prescribe you guys, then I'm sorry, hopefully Arka sir will recover as soon as possible."

" Amin, thank you so much doctor."

And after the departure of our personal doctor, I only realized how much my father's affection for Nesti.

Actually my heart is quite sick, it is difficult to express in words, when my heart seems to be filled with others, not with his own family.

" Dimas, here son."

Wanting to refuse to go closer to father, I still could not accept this reality, but my parents only stayed him, inevitably even though my heavy heart approached to his side.

" Yes dad."

" I'm sorry, Mom?"

That's the father, although I may be more guilty in this matter, but he must have been the first legowo and apologized, he was not at all stingy with the word sorry.

" Why should I apologize?"

" Because it's the wrong father, it makes you think that you love other people and ignore you."

Without my tears dripping there, as a child, was I wrong?

" Dad does love that girl, but my affection for our family remains as great as ever, as does my affection for your mother, but my mother is calm there, son, father's love for your mama is eternal at all times."

" And unfortunately father to you is different from unfortunately father to Nesti, until whenever that father's love for you is still big son, will not be reduced in the least." Say it again when I can just shut up.

" I'm sorry dad, I'm sorry Dimas."

" You're not wrong son, it's only natural that you have such thoughts, I just haven't had a casual conversation with you."

" I've been a little busy lately."

" It's not because you're avoiding me, is it? I'm so sad that you were like yesterday?"

" Hm." I can only duck.

" Enough you know Mas, your father's affection for you and your mother's house will not decrease, just because there is one flower growing in the heart of the father, they will grow together until the death to pick up the father."

" Well, speaking of death everything."

" Because man is created from the ground and will definitely return to the ground, so as long as we can still breathe the air in this world, do not let ego ruin the happiness of our family Mas."

I can't say anything more, because my father's words have a point.

" Yes, it's Dad."

" So..did you have it?"

This old man, at the end of the day, he wants to keep his new flower, yesterday he said he gave up, what is the truth?Father is like a word, taking off his head but holding his tail.

" Ckk..I thought about it!"

I immediately stood up from my seat.

" Where are you going?"

" Find inspiration first so that the heart can be calm!"

" Who is that his son?"

" Haish.. his son duren palm!" I'm upset, because I actually know you understand what I mean.

" Who is duren palm?"

" COLD BUT STINGY WIDOW!"

I looked at my face at a glance, there was a smile there, I was relieved and actually I wanted to always see him smile like that.

Want me not much, I just want to feel the beauty of living with my family like everyone else.

I immediately left my father's room, maybe I need to find someone to confide in who can calm my troubled heart.

POV END'S

..."This awareness of the brevity of life often makes us mis-determine the mission & vision of life, even if we are too late to realize what we are for and for whom we are actually living."...

Who is patient yes Bestie. stay a few more episodes, kasian kasian si duren montong same si Marfu'ah.