
Patience, pain. Silence, torture. But talk for free. That was the current state of Tiara. A week passed after the day he decided to leave and stay away from Arzan.
Tiara increasingly realized that from the beginning she was just a wife who was not expected to be present. But over time Arzan's attitude changes are getting better, but, treating Tiara like a wife slowly unravels the doubts in Tiara's heart until she truly believes that the halal man she is destined to be is the right man to be her priest, where she rests , sedifah.
The news of Tiara's pregnancy is imagined to be a cure for Arzan's pain and disappointment over the painful reality he faces about the princess he has always loved and guarded, where Qiana was not his biological daughter, but it's just hope. Tiara felt a huge disappointment when the husband who was expected to welcome the news happily doubted her pregnancy and asked Tiara to do a DNA test.
Currently Tiara chose to stay away, not the intention to avoid but more time to maintain sanity especially when the condition is pregnant. The stability of a new life in her womb became her priority. She had been trying to be next to her husband in her worst moments, but what she got really affected the state of her heart and mind which would definitely have a bad effect on her womb.
"I'm sorry Rabb, I know choosing to leave home when I was a wife was a bad choice. But hopefully this departure will give us both the wisdom to decide what we will take next for our future and our household. I beg Your guidance O Rabb" said Tiara every third of the night, he now lives in the boarding house of his friend Rianti. For now maybe only Rianti already knew about the pettyness of his household life, and Rianti understood that very well.
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Days changed days, it had been a week more Tiara stayed at the Rianti kosan. Several times Arga and Mami Ratna came to ask her to return home but Tiara still needed time to strengthen her heart so that it could be better to behave if she met her husband.
Today Tiara is getting ready to go to college. There is a rehearsal agenda for graduation activities that will be followed. Shadow to celebrate the graduation moment accompanied by loved ones, in fact back to just be his wish.
"Are you sure it's okay to go alone?" Rianti who was wearing her white veil prepared to go to the hospital where the intern asked, looking at Tiara from the reflection of her mirror. After her mother died many changes happened to the girl, including her appearance. He also determined to change the appearance with hijab.
"Yes, it's nothing. I'm fine, I'm not alone now either. There is she who will always accompany me" Tiara replied, she rubbed her still flat stomach with a smile adorning her pretty face.
After thinking many things, Tiara chose to strengthen her heart. Accept what is his destiny with a breastplate.
"Life sometimes has to look beautiful. Sure 9 out of 10 women will upload photos that are considered good and best. Is there a bad result in the photo process? There must be. only we do not upload it or even delete it" continued Tiara, Rianti stopped his activities and listened to Tiara attentively.
"That's the kind of life I want to live with my son. Let the difficulty, the pain of the struggle, the pain of the process felt and the difficulty of the journey to become a stored thing. I just want to show happiness and pleasure" Tiara said with a big smile looking at her best friend with optimism.
"But you also don't have to keep pretending to be happy, if you need a shoulder to lean on when you cry, just remember there is me, I will always be there for you." Rianti embraces Tiara's shoulders, they face each other and nod their heads.
"That's what I like about you, always think positive about everything. You still remember when the old Ma'am Anggia gave us a job without staffing?" Rianti invites his best friend to reminisce to a time when they were still a dishwasher at a restaurant, he chuckles when saying his last words.
"You remember, all our team members must be grumbling but different from you who always invite us to enjoy the work with laughter and joy" clearly Rianti with a memory that drifted into their past a few years ago,
"Yes, one of the qualities of a believer is to be grateful when given favors and to be patient when given trials. I'm just trying to realize those two attitudes in my life. Doesn't sustenance come to an airy heart, and remember that hard sustenance is due to a narrow heart." said Tiara with a smile remembering those times,
"Each Bu Ustadz" Rianti behaved respectfully, and stood tall before Tiara. They laugh together and prepare to enjoy breakfast, fried rice ala Chef Tiara.
Unlike Tiara who has begun to be able to organize her heart even though she does not know the fate of her household in the future, Arzan is still in the pool of the endless past.
Almost every day Ratna's mother met her only son. Reminding her not to dissolve into the past and regret, she even ignored her present and future. Indeed, not everyone understands the difficulty of believing again after feeling deeply disappointed. And it seems like that is what Arzan is now going through, he even lost his trust not only in the people around him but also in himself.
Tok.dok....
The sound of knocking on the door stopped Arzan who was opening his laptop, looking at the photos of him with the princess.
Because he felt there was no reason from the inside, Arga chose to open the door of Arzan's private room in his study. During this week he chose to stay in the office and locked himself up.
"For bro, hopefully this morning you're better" said Arga, he spoke as a friend.
"Heummm" answered Arzan briefly and no matter what the meaning, he resumed his activity staring at the laptop whose screen had been switched about work. Although the condition is very chaotic but Arzan still carries out his duties to monitor the development of his company.
"Gue wants to give this" Arga thrusts an amplof he received from the hospital in front of Arzan. Arga hopes that if the contents in the amplof that nothing but the results of DNA examination conducted by Tiara can make Arzan aware.
Arzan stopped his activities. There was a strange feeling that suddenly burst into his chest as he stared at the amplof that Arga thrust into his presence.
"Open up, whatever your decision is after this I won't interfere. But I just want to remind you that you can make the right and right decision" said Arga, he still stands upright waiting for the orders of his superior and best friend.
Arzan grabbed the amplof from Arga's hand, he took a deep breath before opening the amplof. His eyes immediately reddened staring at the paper he had taken out from within his amplof.