WIFE TO MY HUSBAND
CHAPTER 5.

Two days have passed after we checked the results of yesterday's testpack to the doctor.sholawat dzikir hajat prayer and alms I put up every day so that we are always overwhelmed with a sense of calm and peace. in addition we are wanting something that we ask my Lord.it is also like our daily routine activities. I can't wait for the next few days to see the doctor again. But not until even a week suddenly when I want to go to the bathroom to abudhu I feel something out of ***********.g .... at that time I started to panic I was afraid that it turned out this was menstrual blood.Did not want to guess too long I immediately checked it. And qodarullah it turns out there is a little blood spotting out. instantly my heart collapsed and it was like losing the strength to face what else was about to happen.

" maaaass...... "

" maaassss agaaammmm ....."

I shouted in the bathroom, which made the whole house panic.

then shortly afterwards came sus Rini and aunt to the room and followed by mas Agam who just came home from work.

" what's wrong Mom" asked Sus Rini Panik

" mom why" asked the aunt while embracing me who was sitting in a wheelchair

" where is mas Agam ..where is mas Agam "

" yes, your deck why.what is this?"

then came the Agam with a face full of tension.

" us Rini, auntie, please leave me with the Agam mas ya"

" but is mom okay Mom?"

" no. I just want to talk to you"

then Sus Rini and Bi Sumi came out leaving both.

" why is there deck do you look sad and panicked. did you fall from the bathroom?"

" no, I'm scared."

I want to feel like I told Mas Agam but this tongue feels so stupid.I can only cry and surrender as resigned-spirits.

" why deck? what was? please speak"

" mas ... there is a slight blood spot on **********me" I cirried with great sadness to Mas Agam

" huh many decks?"

" a little mas, I'm afraid this blood miscarriage is menstrual blood yes"

my tears also broke again in his arms mas Agam.

" let's call Sus Rini first"

mas Agam immediately called Sus Rini who was still in front of the bathroom door.Sus Rini also immediately came to me .

" mom why, I'm so worried about you"

I also told everything to Sus Rini. I know Sus Rini knows more about this from the side of the medical world.

" Mommy is like menstrual blood, but this could also be due to the failure of the fertilization process.Papu and mother should immediately go to the doctor and do USG. if indeed Miss Nadia miscarried. should be immediately in the curette sir. because otherwise it will be dangerous on the condition of Miss Nadia"

upon hearing the explanation from Sister Rini, the face of Mas Agam became sad, disappointed and afraid.

" well, then we go to the doctor right now"

We immediately rushed to the hospital.

when we arrived at the hospital.one by one the queue number was called. after waiting for approximately one hour finally our turn to enter the doctor's room. after we entered the doctor's room we told him about the incident in detail.

" all right, let's just USG ma'am so we can be sure"

the doctor examined my stomach again with an ultrasound device in his hold.It was clearly visible on the screen how the condition of my uterus is currently.

" Mum seems to be the blood spots that come out of the mother's blood is menstrual blood, so the mother does not need to undergo curettage"

instantly my heart collapsed hearing the doctor's explanation.

'o Allah why our path to having offspring is so difficult'

'astaghfirulllah'

suddenly my heart seemed unable to accept this fact.the thing we waited for for many years never came.I felt that there were so many sins that I did that God was punishing me.

' O Lord Rabbi what are you planning to me'

" this means the insemination process is fierce doc?"

ask me, Agam made sure to come back.

" yes, Mr. Ma is patient, sir, but the father and mother can try it again after Bu Nadia's period is finished"

I just fell silent to hear what they were talking about. It felt like this tongue was completely dumb.

only mas Agam always answer questions from the doctor while I can only be silent. I know mas Agam is also very sad, but I can what.

on the way to the house along the way I could only keep quiet.

" deck you want a snack?"

tanya mas Agam tried to cheer me up.

" no mas"

" patiently, dek mas know you must be sad."

I could only be quiet when trying to invite me to chat. when he arrived at home it turns out there was already a Father and Mother-in-law waiting in the living room. like Mas Agam who told me my current condition.

we sat together in the living room.

" how's Nadia doing?" ask the curious mother-in-law.

" it's not miscarriage blood ma'am. Nadia was not pregnant.it was just menstrual blood" mas Agam also answered her mother's question in a flat and sad tone.

" sir how this sir I want to worry about having grandchildren loh sir" whined mother-in-law to her husband.

" patience Ma'am, maybe God has not given us the sustenance of a grandson" that's all the father-in-law said.

" the glue is patient ya." said the mother-in-law to mas Agam while hugging her. I feel I should also be here need a hug a mother. I feel left out right. since the incident somehow my heart is so sensitive, even though the mother-in-law only hugs her child and that's a natural thing.

" Mommy looks like Nadia needs a rest Agam between Nadia to the room first huh"

mas Agam immediately drove me to the room without saying a word I went straight to the room died both of his parents were Agam.

" your deck rest first yes mas want to meet mom and dad below.you wait a minute ya."

said mas gam while kissing my forehead.I know in this case the Agam mas is also fragile very fragile.but I also can not do anything to strengthen the Agam mas. I myself am fragile as fragile.

after Mas Agam left me alone in the room.he went down to meet his parents.Suddenly I came out wanting to see and want to know what they were talking about.

" gam mother really-ner already want to have grandchildren loh gam. mother sad. see you guys like this continues"

" Mrs Agam also wanted to have children, but how else did God not want Ma'am"

" sir, how about we get Agam to try and remarry sir"

" Mother marriage is not to be made up to try what with Nadia if she knows a mother like this she must be sad Mom"

hearing the words of the mother-in-law.this heart increasingly feels broken.does I have to let go of mas Agam to marry another woman in order to get offspring.

" Mommy if you talk, don't be weird, Dong Bu. Agam does want to have children. would love to, but Agam wants a child from Nadia Bu not from another woman"

hearing the words of mas Agam for his defense of me I feel a little calm because as sad as it is, he never wants to turn away from me.

" you try it first."

" Mom if this insemination process fails we'll try the baby tube program ma'am"

" the cost glue for the tube baby program is not cheap loh gam. you will waste your time and property just for the uncertain?"

"then what do you think the way I married another woman would guarantee that I had children? what if it turns out that the woman I married couldn't have any children?"

" yes you find the women are picky dong gam beber seedlings the same weight"

" Mommy is enough. Free Agam talking to mother. mother will not understand. it is already Bu Agam tired of wanting to rest "

" mother glue is just trying to give you the same solution."

" it's not a solution ma'am, it just adds to my burden and responsibility ma'am as a husband."

" don't argue, ma'am, we better go home anyway, it's night, Kasian Agam must be tired" said the father-in-law who tried to break up their debate. then shortly after both of his parents mas Agam Pun say goodbye to go home.I also immediately returned to the room before mas Agam saw me was listening to their conversation.