YOUR LOVE IS DISAPPEARING
Chapter 36

The clock ticked, Rohman's thin body was not asleep, the cold air seemed to be bone-chilling, he was still looking at the ceiling of his room, arranging his increasingly languishing heart and body more suffering.

Inching up the device that had broken the screen because he threw yesterday, he smiled bitterly, opened the device that was still on and sent a message to his ex-wife's number.

"Darling, are you so intent on insulting me through Ali?" A message that fits his heart he said to his ex-wife, shortly after the blue tick.

"Ga no intention at all, Bang. I'm sincere," Mayang replied briefly.

Smile adorning the side-faced face, he condemned his stupidity in judging who was truly sincere and not.

His body trembled and Rohman tried to reach his wheelchair, his stomach was hungry because his stomach had not been filled with food this afternoon, again he remembered the words of Eti who forbade him to touch the food that was available on the table.

Rohman swallowed his salivary, this time he chose to remain silent and to cancel the meal, closing his eyes in hunger.

Maybe the thin body will be more frail after the unpleasant treatment of his family.

The eyes of the tall man were closed, but his heart was still reluctant to fall asleep.

He pushed his wheelchair towards the living room, approaching the wand given by Mayang who had been sandarka by Eti earlier in the corner of the closet.

"Bismillah," he explained, the thin body tried to stand with a stick, several times fell but still persistently trying, until finally he stood perfectly using a stick.

A pair of eyes stared pityfully at him, rubbing the fallen clear globules. Yeyen wanted to help but she also wanted her son to be independent of her, as he was getting older.

Rohman set foot on the staff toward his room, a slight smile on Rohman's face.

With great difficulty he stepped into the bathroom and then wudhu, after which he was trained to take a prayer mat that he never touched and then held it slowly, Rohman prayed while sitting.

With wisdom he performed the prayer, without feeling a clear circle dripping he could not bear, millions of regrets in his heart, the sin he made revolved in his mind.

After the greeting, his hand was broken. Back he dropped millions of clear spheres.

"Yes Allah. Forgive me, I have misjudged the woman who has faithfully accepted the lack of servants, I also regret the actions that I have done. Now I declare that if You punish the servant of God," wiltly, the thin body is stupefied.

A pair of eyes stared pushyly at Rohman, the woman who escaped Rohman wiping the corners of his eyes rough, passing away leaving Rohman still dissolved in his prayer.

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At the Yazidin hospital, where Anita was being operated on, the woman was critical of her suicide attempt.

"Well, did you say anything to Anita until she was like that?" Yazidin asked while looking suspiciously at her biological mother.

"Mothers just say shame if the mother's child brings a pregnant woman home, after all you are not legal husband and wife," he replied casually as if not feeling guilty at all.

Pregnant women are so sensitive, their hearts are so easily filled and affected in any atmosphere. Yazidin ruffled his hair rough, how could a woman who bears the status of a mother have the heart to hurt women.

"Now look because of mother's actions" he said slowly. Trying to give understanding to his mother.

"Whoa. It's wrong of you, take the woman to the house, I'm ashamed," said the fat woman.

"Yes I have to take responsibility, the one in Anita's womb is my son" Yazidin explained with a sad look and teary eyes.

"Whatever!" The woman who gave birth to Yazidin left her son alone wrapped in grief.

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"Bang, up!" Eti shakes Rohman's body slowly asleep on the prayer mat.

"Yes, what's up, Eti?" Rohman rubbed his eyes which felt so heavy due to lack of sleep.

"Mak Mayang in front of him" he said, helping Rohman stand up and Eti hand the staff to Rohman.

"You want him here, Ti?" Rohman rushed out of his room and went to the terrace to meet Mayang, because the woman with one child did not want to enter the house.

"What's up Mayang?" When Rohman was at Mayang's side, the woman looked straight ahead.

"Ali said she wanted to stay here" said Mayang while looking at her ex-husband.

"Ga. I didn't accept it" said Rohman, his eyes turning to look at Ali who looked surprised.

"Why, Dad?" Asked the little boy while hugging Rohman's body, Rohman's tears as hard as he could endure, how should he explain to the little boy who did not understand anything.

"Dad is no longer dear to you, Ali," replied Rohman, turning back and entering the house, his tears that he had withstood instantly.

The little boy hesitated and immediately took his mother home, while Rohman sped his way to his room, where he was most comfortable at this time. Closing the door, the body rumbled on a floor so cold.

"I'm sorry Dad. Dad doesn't want you to get infected," he explained, the clear circle is vying down. Imagining how broken the little boy's heart was and his heart was also slashed at this moment.

Perhaps God heard his prayer last night, but he broke it again this morning by refusing the arrival of his son.

However, he realized that the HIV disease he suffered was able to transmit to the closest people, especially Ali never felt disgusted if drinking water in the glass of his father or mother.

Before long Eti entered into Rohman's room, seeing that the brother who was so fond of him was so weak he felt pity, Eti gently rubbed Rohman's back as a sign of strengthening Rohman.

"Don't be sad again, there is Eti same mama," said his sister, he tried to help the tall body rise, Rohman glanced at a glance and smiled bitterly at his sister who had felt disgusted with him.

Rohman laid his body on the bed, his stomach which from last night was hungry was not filled at all. Eti who had come out of Rohman's room returned with a plate of rice complete with side dishes and a glass of mineral water.

"Eat, after taking the medicine," Eti said as she thrust a rice plate and put water on the nightstand.

"Yes," that's all Rohman can say. His heart was too tired, the tall man ate his food without remaining, after taking the medicine located on the nightstand.

The drugs he drank could not cure his disease but only limited to suppress the rate of development of the virus so as not to increase. Feeling so bored in the room, he again grabbed the stick and went out to sit on the terrace, even though only looking at some people passing by but it was able to drive a little saturated.

He landed his butt on a long chair made of bamboo, then allowed his pants not to be so visible his legs were no longer there.

"Eh Rohman are you better?" The recently arrived Tuti displayed a sweet smile and fluttered the flower robe he had just bought.

"Alhamdulillah, Ma'am," he said as he looked at the mango tree. The tall man was lazy to look at Tuti especially Rohman knows the nature of Tuti who was showing off his new clothes.

"People here even look there," ciict Tuti who poked Rohman's shoulder slowly.

"Ga looks, Ma'am. The end of the glare is the same new gamis," said Rohman looking at Tuti with a look of disbelief.

"Yes. Credits from Mayang," explained Tuti while commenting on a smile as if he was the sweetest.

"Whatever. Pay the debt first, I need the money to buy medicine" Rohman said flatly.

"Ih. Very ticklish of you. Back with Mayang you, he's pretty good now living well," explained Tuti, his eyes glanced occasionally inside, he hoped Eti would come out soon. The woman wearing bleach showed off her clothes to Eti, while Rohman did not respond to Tuti's words which made him more hurt.

"Eti, don't you want to take you to the market, come with you?" Tuti shouted in the doorway, the habit of using others to fulfill his wishes.

Since Eti has a motorbike, Tuti will often come between her husband or neighbors to invite Eti to shop, she will feel the benefits of not having to pay for motorcycle taxis or public transportation to go home.

Many people take advantage of the good of others for their own sake without realizing that they will be utilized by the circumstances later.