A Handful of Love for You
11. Protesting

Atep POV

“Aaargh. Miss Alena is really mad at me. It is my fault for being too emotional. These few days, my focus was completely divided with the problem that Teh Iyah was facing.

I must accompany Mother to watch over her children Teh Iyah, I also went back and forth between the house and the hospital to deliver Iyah Tea food because Iyah Mother did not want Teh Iyah sick so Mother insisted on preparing a meal for Teh Iyah.

“Teteh could buy a meal in the cafeteria, Mom,” my protest when Mom told me to deliver food to the hospital.

The distance of the house and hospital where Teh Iyah's husband was treated was far enough that I was also quite exhausted if I had to go back and forth.

“Mom doesn't want neng Iyah to be sick too. Food in the hospital is not necessarily the same as you. I'm sure that neng Iyah will not remember eating if we don't prepare it,” said my mother.

“There are also in-laws there. They can manage to eat it teteh.” I'm still trying to persuade Mom.

“How do you make such a calculation anyway, Tep? You are not willing to deliver food for your teteh?” Mother said in a slightly high tone.

“It's not so, Mom. Atep sees it from the efficiency and effectiveness of time. Than Atep back and forth delivering food would be better if you buy food near the hospital.”

“This is the form of affection Mother Neng Iyah. If you don't want to help Mom deliver this food, yes, I'll drive it myself. You can ask for help with Jana or Yaya to nganter Ibu.” My mother was angry and left me still dumbfounded to see her anger.

Mom was rarely angry with me and now she's really mad at me. My mood is really at its lowest point right now. After this morning I got into an argument with Alena and made her mad at me, now I'm making Mom angry.

My script was completely abandoned with the problem that Teh Iyah was facing. I can't ignore what happened to him. But the effect was that I did not focus on doing the thesis, thus triggering a fight for the sake of a fight with Ms. Alena.

But I was too outrageous. It's not appropriate for me to talk like that to Ms. Alena. I understand that Bu Alena is a substitute lecturer who may not want to also guide students from the overflow of other lecturers.

I've also been too outrageous to accuse the non-nothing of Ms. Alena. I also don't understand why I always say ketus and make Miss Alena angry with me. Looks like I have a new hobby, which is making Alena's mom emotional.

Never once did I act so brazenly to the lecturer during my college days. All lecturers I respect both senior lecturers and young lecturers.

I don't understand why I became such a brash person. Why can I be disrespectful to my own guidance counselor. But Ms. Alena never made my script difficult. To Ms. Syafrina, my attitude is not like this.

I'm confused about myself. Like ABG who is looking for attention to the girl he is looking for. Am I like that? Did I really draw attention to Alena's mom so she kept watching me?

“Aarrrgh. There's no way I'm looking for attention from Ms. Alena,” I said reassured myself.

“Cannot be...impossible...impossible...” I kept chanting that sentence continuously.

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to be continued.....