A Handful of Love for You
29. Passed

Atep POV

Aarghs…

What did I do and tell Ms. Alena?

How dare I say such insolence to Ms. Alena. This again why is my heart acting? My chest so pounding is not because it is like seeing and meeting the idol of the heart. I felt this way when I reached adulthood. At that time my heart was pounding abnormally when I looked at Teh Iyah.

It's not right, things have gone wrong since I met Ms. Alena. Never before have I treated a woman like this. Not even in Tea. I have always been kind and polite.

Do I have different feelings for Ms Alena? Do I like him?

No.. no.. no…

I shook my head many times to brush off the insolent trajectory that had stopped by my brain.

How could I like Miss Alena? That's something impossible. Ever since our first meeting, I've disliked him. How can you now become like? Do not fantasize and make up. The same focus of the trial that is in sight. Make the mother proud because her youngest child successfully graduated from college.

After calming my mind and heart, I stepped away from Ms. Alena's room towards the cafeteria because I felt my stomach was already screaming with hunger. My energy was drained away due to our little debate earlier. I wonder why every time I meet him, there is something we discuss even though trivial.

I smiled considering the face of Ms. Alena who met red when I said that she looked beautiful when she was angry. She was indeed beautiful, both in a state of anger let alone smiling. I've seen Ms. Alena smile even though her smile wasn't directed at me. Her smile was so sweet that when I saw her smile, I smiled.

If he smiled at me more, I would be the happiest man in the world. But he never smiled at me. Never mind smiling, not being angry when you meet me is already an amazing thing.

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“Congratulations on the thesis trial that you have completed well. I say double congratulations because you also get the best value.”

Ms. Alena congratulated me shortly after I successfully completed the thesis.

“Thank you, Mom. Thank you for the guidance you have given me all this time. Hm... and I also apologize if all this time I offended Mom a lot and made Mom annoyed with my actions and words.” I smiled sweetly as I thanked and apologized to Ms. Alena.

“Sama-sama. You don't have to apologize and feel guilty because it's not a big deal. I often face a variety of students with a variety of characters. So, I do not feel strange with your extraordinary attitude,” said Bu Alena.

Hearing Ms. ALena's words didn't make me feel shunned. I was happy because it sounded like an attention sentence.

“Excellent sucks?” I asked Miss Alena.

“Yes that. You are more aware of your attitude all along. Awesome fun or amazingly sucks?” said Ms. Alena with a smile.

Oh my God, this is the first time I've seen Ms. Alena's smile aimed specifically at me. I swear by anything, her smile was so sweet. I'm afraid of getting diabetes if I see Alena's smile often. Automatically the tip of my lips pulled towards the right and left forming a wide smile. I wanted to hug her to express my happiness today. Happiness made it through the thesis trial and got Ms. Alena's smile. I've gone crazy hoping to hug her. Maddened...

“Today you also appear neater, not as mismanaged as usual.” Ms. Alena commented on my performance today.

Looks like Ms. Alena was a little surprised to see me today. Yesterday I cut my hair short. Of course I have to be presentable in the trial maintaining my script. I don't want my appearance to affect the assessment of the lecturers.

“Seeing more handsome right?” my many.

“Hm... Your appearance is more neat and polite,” replied Bu Alena diplomatically.

“Just neat and polite?” ask again.

“Please, enjoy your moment right now,” he said as he turned to leave me.

Looks like Ms. Alena didn't heed my words.

“Eh a minute, Bu.”

“What's up?” Ms. Alena turned back her body after hearing my call.

I cleared my throat a few times to get rid of the nervousness.

“What's the matter?” mrs Alena asked impatiently.

“Begini, Mom. Maybe Mom would like to attend an invitation from me.” I finally managed to ask this too.

Yesterday Teh Iyah told me that she was going to give thanks for my graduation. His thanks will be held at the house of Teh Iyah. Surely I cannot refuse what the woman of my first love tells me. It's just that I haven't told you that I want to invite Miss Alena.

“Hm..”

I saw that Ms. Alena was a little hesitant to respond to my invitation.

“I will also invite Prof. Dinn, if he pleases. Friends of one struggle I will invite.” I tried to convince Ms. Alena to attend my invitation. The matter of whether Teh Iyah allows me to invite my lecturers and friends to be a business later. I'm sure Teh Iyah will allow it.

“When?” ask Ms. Alena.

I had high hopes with Ms. Alena's response. If he asks for the time, he will most likely be able to fulfill my invitation.

“Late this week,”I replied confidently.

I saw Ms. Alena thinking and remembering things. Seeing the look on Bu Alena's face made my confidence swoop sharply.

“Sorry.” Miss Alena's reply disappointed me. I don't understand why I can hear Ms. Alena's answer this whole time.

But I won't give up easily. I will make Ms. Alena present at the thanksgiving event that Teh Iyah held for me.

“Why apologize?” my many.

“Before I thank you for the invitation you gave but sorry I can not fulfill it.”

“Why can't?” tanyaku.

“If I say I cannot mean I cannot. Don't you understand what it means to not be able?”

“What's the reason?” my pedicabs. I don't care how Ms. Alena looks at me anymore. Right now, I just want Miss Alena to fulfill my wish.

“Do I have to give the reason?” ask again.

“Ya!” firmly answer.

“Why?”

“Because I need a reason from you.” I looked at him sharply .

“Listen to me carefully. If I say I can't it means I can't. You understand what I'm saying, right? Don't be the one who always sucks in my sight!"

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to be continued....