AL-THAR
#19. Breaking Up Asanya A Shelia

It had been half an hour since Mira had only watched the dumbfounded Shelia. Her brother had woken up from his terrible sleep, and was now silent, soundless, without looking at his sisters, and without caring for anyone who asked him to speak.

Mira tried very well to understand what her brother was feeling. Examining the sight of Shelia's eyes drifting far out of the hospital room window, Mira's eyes descend into Shelia's abdomen. There, there is a creature that is growing by the will of God and is entitled to life.

But when his eyes returned to the look on Shelia's face, Mira felt a million fears for everything that was in the mind of the firstborn. He is afraid of the shortcut that has and may be repeated to fill Shelia's mind. Moreover, he was afraid of what other facts would be open about his sister.

"Sheli ..." Again, he tried to draw Shelia's consciousness into reality again. But unfortunately, it looked blank as Shelia's gaze stared at the ceiling of the room.

"Gue love you, Shel ... regardless of how evil the onion is in my life, but still my brother is the only one I love."

Usually, if Mira offends about the onion and garlic, then Shelia will immediately reply to her disapproval. But apparently this time was different, Shelia's mind was not in place. Seen from how that blank stare finally closed back slowly.

He didn't hear Mira.

.

.

Waking up for the second time apparently then made Mira rediscover her brother. When he came out of the bathroom, Ghani had just entered the room after going to buy a drink in the hospital cafeteria.

Mira was glued to the bathroom door. Then Ghani was glued to the door of the room he had just passed. What keeps the two glued? Namely, the state of Sheli now. Not like an hour ago where Shelia looked like someone shaken and disoriented. And it was natural to experience considering what he had just gone through was not a trivial event. But .. Now Shelia is the usual Shelia. He has returned to being himself as if there had never been any problem.

Their sister was playing a game on the phone Mira who had left the owner at the table near the patient bed. Even Shelia was clamoring anxiously due to the game, as if nothing had ever happened to her a few hours ago.

Slowly Mira and Ghani approached their brother. When the two had been on the edge of Shelia's bed, their brother immediately turned off the game and thrust his phone into the owner.

"Hp I didn't you guys bring?" shelia asked her sisters, lying down again.

"No idea, Shel. I don't know where you are" replied Mira.

"I'm in the bag."

"Oh ..." Mira was confused as to what. She should have been easily worried about the situation of Shelia like an hour ago, but right now, even Shelia looks fine regardless of the bandage on her left wrist.

Ghani squatted on the edge of the mattress and looked at her brother seriously. "How does it feel now? Did ya?"

Shelia looked back at her little brother. "It's a habit."

Mira's hand rubbed and gently massaged the left leg of Shelia who was nearby. He himself had been sitting at the end of the bed near Shelia's feet.

"Plis .. I beg you not to like that again ..." said Ghani slowly but firmly and deeply. "Lo may be angry, crying, or yelling like a madman though, but please ... don't hurt yourself lo... and your child ...."

Shelia was silent for a while with a look in her eyes that dived into her sister's gaze. He seeks sincerity, comfort and security, and of course a sense of trust. He wanted to make sure that he could put that trust in his family. Until no one accuses him, blames him, reproaches him, scolds him and.

"Gue love you, Shel." Mira did not dare to look at her brother's face. She said so with a look on her hand that was busily massaging her brother's leg. Instead of what, he was only worried if he was unable to prevent the tears that seemed ready to fall at any time when he looked at the face of Shelia like that.

"Why do you guys congratulate me .." he said softly as he ducked.

"Shel!" Ghani tried to quell the anger in his chest. He knew that now was not the time to be angry. Then his voice weakened. "Please lupain who happened earlier. It never existed. Yea?"

Mira shakes. The tears are flowing already. Let it be, let it be. "There is no shame in him being innocent. Whereas lo. .. we can fix it, Shel,"

"What's fixed?" Shelia doesn't want hope. "If the father of this child I consider dead."

"You mean?" Mira doesn't understand.

"Bryan was married to another girl, ten days before I came home. And I don't expect him to be the same .. The problem is .. I haven't had a chance with Ubay," Shelia sobbed. "Gue's already dead love with him. But he couldn't have accepted me like this. Then what am I living for?"

"Why did that jerk marry someone else?" ghani asked with anger still held back.

"He's duped. His parents' business marriage. And then again, I'm the same he just needs each other without any more taste. We broke up two months ago, even though he didn't. I don't like her, but she still keeps coming to me, and .. yeah .. that's it," Shelia wiped her tears. "He never even knew that the result of my same habit was fruitful. But the thing is, I want it to be Ubay, not Bryan."

Mira tries to understand about the free relationship that Shelia has with her ex-boyfriend. Despite being an ex, why do they still do it? Ah, Mira still doesn't understand. Surprised about Shelia who turns out to have a free life out there, it still makes Mira feel shocked. Coupled with the fact that Shelia uttered, Mira was even more surprised but she tried to hold him back.

Then Mira recalled the incident a few days ago. "Trus, so you've told Ubay that lo–"

Shelia shakes. "Gue couldn't tell him. Moreover, I will not be able to get a look of disgust from him. That's why I can only cry in front of him. Because I am powerless, Ubay is impossible for me to reach. I'm this dirty, where could he who's an ustadz want to accept me, right?!"

"But that doesn't mean you have to end your life, Shel," Ghani said. "Whatever the reality is, you're still given a breath. That means you still have to live your life. Even now you have to take care of what's in your stomach."

Shelia is back. "It's not that easy, Ghan. It's not that easy to think about moving on without hurting you. Not to mention if Mama knows ..."

"Later my mother will tell me she's home."

"... and why would I give birth to a child who would be ashamed of not having a father?"

"Lo's not alone, Shel," Mira asserts. "Lo still has brothers, too Mama. We can still help you through this. No matter how bad our family is, it will never change. That blood can never be an ex, Shel."

Ghani looks over to Mira. Then Mira gasped with her sentence just now which was beyond expectations. Kinda weird. "I mean, there is an ex-husband or ex-wife. But there is never a story called former biological children or former brothers and sisters. There's nothing!"

Okay, Ghani seems to accept Mira's explanation. The proof, he no longer looked at Mira with demands.

"But I'm still desperate .." said Shelia Lirih.

...* * *...

**connect.

My signal's really bad. Hence overnight can not update**.

.

Uh, lizard's up the latest chapter huh. Sorry about the update, like a snail. 😂

.