AL-THAR
#48's chat. Still Angry
Mira sat listlessly on the sofa in her room. Even after a few minutes he changed his position into a lazy fall. Right, Mira's not passionate about life.
All because of his mistake that did not have the heart to antagonize Ryo. Because after all, Ryo is one of the best friends he has ever had. Then, when last night his seduction and behavior were rejected outright by Athar, it felt like Mira was reluctant to rise from her sleep half an hour ago.
After bathing and changing clothes, Mira did not intend to move. He was lazing on the sofa, not until when until the mood returned to good. Since he woke up, he had not found Athar in their room. Usually, Athar does go jogging or gym in a private gym in a side house, which Mira has never set foot there. Because Athar said, if it is not urgent or important, then he should not go to the side house.
"It feels ... like going back to the eternal singles of the past" Mira muttered alone. "Where is my prince?" he began to bring a poem of his writing that suddenly just flashed inside his head.
"It's lonely .. and that silence is lonely," Mira hurriedly realized, "Sleep is as quiet as it is."
Now she started listening to songs she had just discovered on a music streaming platform. A melow song that Mira doesn't know who the singer is. Because when the playlist runs randomly, somehow the song also appears to the playlist. And the lyrics of the song are exactly what it feels like now.
...~When else .. You said I love you ....~...
when was the last time Bang Athar said that to me? it feels like a long time ago not 😥 so want mewek ...
Mira changed the song. That song was too heavy for his heart that was this upset.
Life is slack, death is not intention yet.
The next song he heard was ...
...~I want this moment, you are here...
...Laugh with me, like I used to...
...Even if it's just for a moment, God please grant it...
...It is not that this self does not accept reality...
...Heart It Just Miss~...
"Huaaaa ...." Mira mewek without tears, lebay. He felt that Athar– was "Gue single againiii ..."
The bedroom door suddenly opens and Mira is shocked so much that she falls down from the sofa. Soon he got up and turned to Athar who was now staring at him flat.
"Eh, Brother."
"Why don't you come down? I was waiting for you at the dinner table from earlier." Athar spoke from the front door, and did not seem to have any intention of approaching Mira as usual.
Mira stepped up as well. "Yes, it's coming down" he said, putting his phone on the sofa. Ntar ajalah just brought. Now eat first, mumpung juragan already ngajak.
Without waiting for Mira, Athar went first. Then immediately Mira stopped her steps with a slack.
the cuekin terooooos.
.
.
They had breakfast with each other silent. Neither Athar nor Mira had any intention of making a sound. If Athar can silence him like that, then Mira who has tried to apologize will no longer force. Yes, I am angry, angry.
Upset, but Mira tries to dampen her sense of regret by focusing on eating what is in front of her now.
okay, if he still wants to be angry, yes already angry.
"Why did you go with him?"
Athar's question made Mira slow down in putting her food in her mouth. He raised his gaze and looked at Athar who was looking at him sharply.
he was still angry, but he couldn't bear to talk about it.
Mira cleared her throat before answering. "He made me,"
"Why don't you refuse?"
"Udah, Bang. I was nolak. But ..."
not a hundred percent like that. Mira did not nod. "She's mean," finally that's all Mira can say.
Athar slammed his spoon hard into his plate. It makes Mira surprised not play.
oh I'm scared. He was angry really nyeremin.yeah deh, diemin I once if his anger has not subsided. do not need to be angry, plis...
"So you'd rather I'm angry than you hurt her, would you?" athar's voice is rising.
Mira nodded quickly. "Not so,"
"What, Al, WHAT?"
Mira is confused to say what she feels. Because whatever defense she had in mind, it would still be wrong in her husband's eyes.
"I ... just think of him .. friend ...."
"BUT HE'S NOT! HE LIKES YOU! YOU STILL DON'T KNOW THAT EITHER?"
"Yes, sorry," he tweeted. "I don't know how– should be"
"STAY AWAY!"
"Yes ..."
Athar breathed a rough breath. "I really don't understand your thoughts. Obviously I forbid you to get close to him, but you went with him instead. To the beach, both. THAT'S WRONG, AL!"
Mira suddenly quietly. Her tears were shed without any intention of stopping her. Until he sobbed. But apparently it was not enough to make Athar disappear instantly. Because the man's self-esteem has been scratched. How could he have found his own wife going with someone else who clearly had different feelings? How could he not be angry to find the fact that his wife went alone even to Jakarta without his knowledge?
"Sorry ..."
"If you can't resist, call me, Al! Tell me! It's not that you're following him and you're not following me. I'm your HUSBAND!"
"I don't know, Bang. I told him that you'd be angry. But he still meant me. He was not angry while pushy, but he begged. That's what makes me unbearable. I know I'm wrong, but this– is too painful,"
"I'm sicker, Al ...."
"Sorry ..."
"DO YOU APOLOGIZE IF YOUR THOUGHTS GO TOGETHER WITH HIM THAT CAN NOT BE CHANGED. YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE WITH HIM BUT YOU HAVE TO BE WITH ME? THINK, AL, THINK!"
Yes, I'm stupid. I can't think, that's what it means?!
"YES, TAU. BROTHER IS SICKER! THE VICTIM'S BROTHER IS HERE. I WAS WRONG! I'M THE VILLAIN! IF I DO THIS, WHAT CAN I DO? AFTER ALL, MY BROTHER ALSO DOES NOT WANT TO FORGIVE ME, DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO ME, DO NOT WANT TO DEKET THE SAME AS ME. YEAH ALREADY! WHATEVER! I'M NYERAH!"
After venting her emotions, Mira got up from her seat and stepped wide towards the exit.
"WHERE ARE YOU GOING, AL?"
Even Mira didn't want to hear Athar's scream just now. He just kept walking while sobbing, and wiping away the tears that seemed endless.
The bodyguards in the house no one dared to block his path. But as soon as his hand had reached the gate, something was holding his hand for his footsteps to stop.
"Where are you going?" ask Athar who has followed. Maybe Athar did not shout, but his voice was still the same as before. The man is still angry.
"As far as I go" said Mira slowly.
Without saying any more, Athar immediately forced Mira's hand and took her home.
Mira came back crying.
Why does this hurt when Athar is angry? It feels like Mira's heart is more than painful when the person she loves is not being kind to her.
Why is he so angry?
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