Are You My Brother ?
Determined Power

I might forget about everything, but I can't possibly forget about who caused it all. I always thought it was all my brother. He is the usurper of my happiness, creating eternal suffering in my life. Even though he had given me something very precious, but it could not replace an affection. I always wished he could go back to what he used to be, a silly human being who could make his sister laugh. Not as a great pretentious man who seems to ignore the people around him.

The morning before leaving for work, I had a conversation with Mr. Anto who was visiting my contract. I'm glad he can still take his time to see me.

" Den Candra really don't want to go home ?" Just ask without me responding.

" Pity Den family, every day nyariin," he added.

" I don't know sir, I need some time alone" I said, wearing my jacket.

" I went to work first Sir," Pamitku as he passed leaving Mr. Anto.

" Yes, be careful" said Mr. Anto, shouting a little because of the distance between us.

Again, I work under the heat of the sun. But I never gave up on that. For months I did that job. Even when I was working, I'd seen my parents who might be looking for me. Sometimes that feeling of guilt also comes to my mind, but maybe this is the best way for my life. For months I disappeared without news, searched here and there never found. Sometimes I also get complaints from Mr. Anto that he is always asked about my whereabouts by my parents. But even so they didn't report to the police because they believed that I was okay.

" Den Candra, is it okay to let them not know the whereabouts of Den Candra ?" Mr. Anto's question in the afternoon when I got home from work.

" Let it be sir, let them know what it's like to lose. After all, it has only been a few months, while I have not felt together with them for many years," I replied.

" But Den, pity them" said Mr. Anto.

" You just say, don't waste Den Candra's time with family !" Added.

I was surprised by that word. Those words were exactly the words that a beautiful woman had said that day. The woman who is none other than Sherly.

" That word......."

" Why Den with those words ?" Mr. Anto's question cut me off.

" No, it's okay" I replied.

But from various news from Mr. Anto, why only my parents are looking for me. I want my brother to also look for me and apologize for his unpleasant treatment of me. Maybe he really didn't think I existed, as if he didn't care about me leaving. I always remember the good times with him, I still remember how fast those tears came. Especially the silly words that always make me laugh.

" Sister, I want to fight again with you, sis," I muttered while looking at the night star that was in the same sky.

I stood on the terrace of the rented house, looking at the sky full of stars with beautiful moonlight. But the coldness of the wind had kept me from twitching and I decided to go to sleep.

Tomorrow has come, a very historic day for me. At that time the Supervisor or my supervisor in the field of marketing had resigned. And I never thought, Mr. Ridho appointed me as his successor. Not because he felt indebted to me, but because he believed that I could carry out that task. After all, my senior friends did not protest, for some reason they accepted it with a chest of air.

" Candra, you're not going to be marketing anymore" said Mr. Ridho who really surprised me.

" I mean sir, am I fired ?" I said.

" Who said you were fired, you will become a Supervisor or the top position in the field of marketing" said Mr. Ridho.

All the friends who heard this clapped their hands and congratulated me. There was no envy, no envy, everything greeted me and congratulated me. I really don't believe in that. But it is real, not an illusion. A weak and lame man who used to be always bullied, reviled and belittled would be a superior to many.

At night in my rented room, I pondered because tomorrow was my first job as a boss. Honestly, I was nervous about that rank, because I never had experience as a superior. My experience was just being the subordinate that was told to be. Change is hard, but I have to try.

" Cake, if grandfather is still with me, what words can make me excited," I muttered.

For some reason, it was as if something was ringing in my ear and saying, "Fight, do not hesitate with the good things you do, for your doubt will bring bad things". Sure enough, my brother once said that fear is one of the greatest weaknesses. Heh, I think I hate him but don't know why his words are always in my memory.

Tomorrow is a bright day, an enigmatic day. The day I had to fight for a dream. I lead a lot of people who used to be my seniors. I am grateful that they are good. Of the many humans I lead, no one envies me. Even when I feel bad about having to rule or reprimand, they say.

" Don't worry, right now I'm our boss. Just run the mas task," said one of them with a smile.

Indeed, ever since I rose through the ranks, I was called "Mah" by them. Since I am still quite young, it is also impossible that I should be called "Mister ".

Days passed, and it seemed that I was used to my new job. Revenue has increased dramatically since I took the lead. Mr. Ridho is really proud of me. But strange things happened, when I was on my way home faintly in front of there was someone standing looking at me behind the bush. Although my eyes are myopic, but the figure is clearly visible to me even though his face is not too visible. And I was sure that he was looking at me, who else was seen besides me, while there was only me and him. And not knowing why, my little heart told me it was my brother. Stupidly I, instead of checking who it was, I didn't even care about it and walked towards the direction home. When I got to the rented house, I somehow felt that regret. Why don't I check who that guy is and why he's looking at me. As if he was smiling at me. Even if ghosts, where there may be ghosts, while the sunlight still shines brightly on the earth.